Chapter 66: Chapter 66

“Why should I believe you?” I finally managed to speak so I asked the question from her.

“You don’t have to believe me Julianna, Choice is yours, believe me or not. Anyways you can ask him one question and it’s who’s Marianna” I watched the seriousness in her face and I hate to believe that she’s telling the truth.

“I also hate Marianna. Because of her I never had a chance to get close to Ryan so yes I don’t like her and especially her arrogant attitudes” As soon as she said that I immediately stood up from the chair and looked at her.

“I’m going, Thanks for your coffee and congrats on your wedding” I simply spoke as I left the coffee shop. I couldn’t force my tears back as I came out of it. Natasha’s voice was haunting me. Am I just a substitute? No.. Ryan treats me well and he cares about me.

‘He was seeing Marianna in you’ Again Natasha’s words came into my mind and my mind was a mess. I didn't want to believe Natasha and I knew what kind of a woman she is but I couldn’t forget the serious look that she had while telling me those things about Ryan.

“Madam we should go home now” Chauffeur came and said as I nodded at him. I got into the car and leaned my head against the window as I watched outside. Suddenly I saw the cake shop that Noel loved.

“Hey, stop. I’ll buy a cake and come” I said as the chauffeur stopped the car in front of the cake shop. I got out of the car and walked towards the shop. As I entered the shop I smiled unintentionally because I remembered how Noel jumped up and down happily when he saw cakes.

“I want this.” I ordered a chocolate cake and waited till they wrapped it.

“Aunty it’s you” I heard a familiar childish voice and I looked down and saw the little boy Noel beat up that day. I smiled at him and stroked his hair.

“Hey, are you here alone?” I asked him as he looked at my belly and giggled.

“No. I came with mommy and daddy. Daddy got a call from his office and went. So we’re waiting for him to come and take us home.” I nodded at him with a smile.

“Aunty, is there a little baby?” He pointed his finger at my belly and asked. I smiled because of his childish words.

“Yeah. Where’s your mommy darling?” I asked him as he showed a beautiful woman who was sitting in the corner of the shop. She’s really pretty. No wonder this little guy is this handsome. Suddenly she stood up from the chair and looked around with impatient look on her face. I knew she was looking for her son.

“Let’s take you to mommy. See she’s looking for you” I said as the boy nodded at me. I took his little hand and led him to his mommy.

“Oh my god Myles, you again did it” She quickly strode towards us and picked the boy up as he wrapped his hands around her neck and giggled.

“Mommy she is the aunty I said before” His mommy looked at me as soon as he spoke. She looked at me with a smile and her smile slowly faded and was replaced with a shocked face. What was that?

“Hey, I’m Gwen” She said as she forcefully smiled at me. I didn’t know why but for some unknown reason she was so familiar. Her smile was familiar.

“I’m Julianna. I am sorry for what happened that day.” I said as she nodded at me with an understanding smile.

“It’s okay. This guy beat up boys everyday in his school” She playfully smiled at her son and pinched his cheek. Then I heard my order was ready.

“I’m going. Nice to meet you Gwen.” Smiled at her and said as she returned me a warm smile.

“Aunty, wait for daddy” Suddenly the little boy said as he touched my hair and that made my heartbeat quickened. Why his daddy?

“Let aunty go now baby, we’ll see her soon with daddy” Gwen smiled at me and said but I didn’t understand what she said and I simply nodded at her and left there as I took the cake.

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Finally I came home and my heart was a mess. Natasha’s words are killing me and I didn’t want to believe that Ryan loved another woman. As soon as I got out of the car Ryan came out of the house while carrying Noel. He smiled gently and beautifully at me and I watched his face without any emotion in my face. I didn’t have courage to smile at him. I wanted to cry and I regret that I met Natasha today. I simply looked away from him and walked towards them.

“I bought a cake for you baby” Without looking at Ryan I said as Ryan put Noel down and wrapped his one arm around my waist and pulled me to him then he kissed my forehead.

“Are you tired?” He asked me while caressing my hair. I clutched my dress tightly because I didn’t want to cry or push him away from me. I nodded at him and removed his hands from my waist and walked away. I could clearly feel his gaze on me but I didn’t look back. I went directly to the kitchen and cut the cake as I gave a piece to Noel.

“Thank you mommy, I love you” Noel giggled and ran out of the kitchen with the cake plate I gave him. I smiled and watched him but in the deep inside of me everything was a mess. Natasha said she’s back and I’m scared. What would happen to me if Ryan went to her? I forced my tears back and walked out of the kitchen and saw Ryan was looking at me with a complicated gaze.

Without looking at his eyes, I quickly went upstairs. I knew that Ryan felt my change but I can’t just act normal after what I heard today. I believe Ryan but Natasha’s words and the picture she showed me were killing me. Ryan was looking at her with a gentle smile and he was really happy in that picture. My heart shook violently because I didn’t want to lose him and I love him.

“Julianna..” I heard Ryan’s broken voice and I quickly forced myself to forget everything and act normal but I couldn’t and I was not that strong. Natasha’s words are echoing in my head. Ryan came and hugged me from the behind and kissed my neck. My heart tightened. Am I just a substitute to him? I wanted to ask but I wasn’t ready to listen to his answer. What if he says that he liked her and I’m just a substitute. No I don’t want that.

“I’ll wash and come” I again removed Ryan’s hands from my body and walked towards the washroom.

“Let’s wash together” Ryan picked me up and smiled at me. I watched his smiling face for a while and bit my lower lip hard because I wanted to force myself to not to cry. Ryan took me into the washroom and placed me on the counter top as he filled the bathtub with warm water. Then checked the temperature and took off his shirt as he came to me.

“Let daddy wash your mommy my little princess” He removed my clothes and kissed my belly. My heart felt like someone was squeezing it tightly. Then he picked me up and walked towards the bathtub as he placed me in it gently. He kissed my forehead and took off his pants as he climbed in and placed himself behind me.