Chapter 25: Chapter 25

It’s been three weeks and yet Ryan didn’t come with Noel. After he left that day he sent my things and clothes for me to stay here so I waited but he didn’t show up. I have no idea what’s wrong with them or what happened. He didn’t even give me his number. I just patiently waited for him but still, he didn’t come like three years ago. I just laughed at myself because I believed him and stayed as he stayed. I didn’t even see my child. I should just leave here. Why do I have to stay here if he doesn't come? Maybe he is busy with his work but for three weeks? That’s impossible. He’s just keeping me here. Urghh… Don’t think about it. With that, I got ready and left the apartment.

As I came out of the building I walked towards the road because I wanted to take a taxi and go home but before I could do a car stopped in front of me and a man came out of it.

“Miss Kennedy. Our madam wants to meet you please get in the car” The man talked to me politely but I didn’t want to get into the car because I don’t even know his madam.

“I’m sorry” With that I turned to leave. Then I heard the door of the car open but I didn’t care.

“Julianna. It’s been almost four years” I heard a woman’s voice and I immediately recognized it. So she’s his madam. I smiled coldly and turned back to face her. I looked at her as she smiled at me. Evil bitch.

“You look gorgeous Julianna. No wonder my grandson’s attention caught by you” She smirked at me while looking at my head to toe.

“So Mrs. Winston you’re complimenting me for catching your grandson’s attention?” I smirked at her and saw her face grow dark.

“You think that a filthy woman like you could be with the young master of Winston's family?” She asked me while walking towards me.

“Then why don’t you explain to your grandson that I’m filthy?” I asked her as she stopped in front of me.

“Julianna. You know, Ryan was just playing with you and didn’t get you serious. Did you fall in love with him?” She asked. Do I love him? No. I shouldn’t love him but my heart started to ache because of what she said. Was he really playing with me?

“I think you’re already in love with him. What a pity Julianna. He’s already getting ready for his wedding. You know he’s bringing a mother with good status for Noel. Not a filthy woman like you deserve to be Noel’s mother.” My heart shattered into pieces as I heard her venomous words. Was it true? No... didn’t he tell me that let's live together?

“See… Noel with his new mommy and Ryan with his future wife” I looked at her tab that she showed me and saw a woman. She was carrying Noel and I could clearly see that she was happy. My heart tightened and my eyes fell on Ryan who was smiling at her. I wanted to cry but I would never cry in front of this woman. So he had time to be with another woman and he had time to let Noel meet her. Great.

“Disappointed? Oh yeah, it hurts to see your own son is accepting another woman as his mother. I’m so sorry Julianna. You suffered a lot while giving birth to him but is this what you got?” She said while faking her emotions.

“Of course, not Mrs. Winston, You know. I got what I wanted. Even Ryan brought another woman as my son’s mother. I bet my son will always remember his true mother’s face and he is made by my own flesh and blood so no one will ever be able to change that. Goodbye” With that I turned and left. So that’s it? That’s why he didn’t come or bring my child to me. I was just a fool. Why did I just believe that man?

I took a taxi and came home. I sighed as I looked at my home. It’s still my home and it will never change. People who used to live in this house have already gone but memories are still here with me, right? I sighed and went into the house and locked the door. I went to Noah’s room and lay on his bed. Then I remembered about his notebook and I took it out of my bag because I take it everywhere I go. I opened it and read again those notes he wrote for me. I could help my cry because I failed to go and see him for months.

‘Juli, wake me up next time you come to see me. Don’t go without letting me see you’ It was the first note he has written for me after the note I wrote for him four years ago. I still remember the day when he was sleeping so I didn’t have the heart to wake him up. I wrote a note for him and left. That was the last day I saw him. I clutched the dress I was wearing because I couldn’t bear the pain. I went to see him again but that day he couldn’t wake up. I didn’t want to remember about other notes he has written for me because it hurts. I just failed my brother. Everything happened because of me. I was the one at fault. Not anyone just me. I sighed and decided to leave next week after Noah’s fourth death anniversary and I’ll never come here again. I was sure my son would grow up healthy and happy. Staying here will only make me suffer and not anyone.

~ Ryan ~

Shit. I couldn’t go to her for the whole damn three weeks. Noel was crying and asking me to take him to his mommy but I couldn’t because of grandma. She was acting weirdly and she was doubting me and I could clearly feel it and I was damn busy with work. I found that grandma has someone to follow me and check where I go so I didn’t go to her. Fuck… grandma is so fucking annoying. I asked Chris to find out what exactly happened four years ago. I wanted to know what my grandma did to her and why she was afraid of her and didn’t want to hide that she was with me from my grandma. Shit…

“Daddy..” I heard Noel’s voice and I looked at him. Urghh... Not in a happy mood.

“Yeah” I spoke as he came into the study room and climbed onto my lap.

“When can I see mommy? I miss her” His eyes became moist as he spoke to me. I sighed and stroked his head.

“Soon baby. Will go and see her soon” I kissed his forehead.

“Daddy is it true that grandma said?” Did grandma say? What?

“What did grandma say?” I asked him and he looked away from me. What the fuck? What did she tell my child?

“She said that you’re going to marry that aunty Natasha and she will be my mommy” My blood started to boil from anger because of that she said to my child after I clearly explained to her that I won’t give fuck about her Natasha. Eww... That woman can’t even compare to my woman. What the fuck?

“No... That woman will never be your mommy. You have only one mommy and you know her” I said as Noel nodded with a smile. I should talk to grandma and ask her what the fuck is her problem…

“Alright Noel. It’s time for you to sleep. Let’s go and see your mommy tomorrow” I kissed his head and got up from the chair as I took him into his room. I waited until he fell asleep and then went to meet grandma.

“Grandma” I spoke and both grandma and grandpa looked at me. I have no idea if grandpa knows about grandma’s difference... Urghh anyways I didn’t care.

“Yeah Ryan” Grandma smiled at me sweetly. Pufft Disgusting.

“Did you tell Noel that Natasha will be his mommy and I will marry her?” I asked her directly and her face went pale.