Chapter 87: Chapter 87

"Hija? My dear? Are you okay?" I don't know how many times Manang asked it from outside my door.

Even though I don't want to ignore her, I don't have the strength to answer or show my face to anyone. I feel like I'm dirty. Yes, it's my fault that Agustine punished me, it's my fault of what happened to both of us. But I never thought I would get into a situation where I would be attached. I wanted to blame him, but I know I'm at fault too. I did not ask anything about his relationship status.

I laughed and leaned on the edge of my bed. I sat on the floor hugging my own legs. My tears don't stop flowing. I replayed everything over and over in my head. From the time we met until what happened earlier.

I do not know what to think. So messy. I feel like something is missing, something I don't know. There is a part of my chest that hurts and is afraid of the possibility that he really just played with me like Mommy reminded me earlier.

Why did he offer me a relationship if he already has someone to marry?

I started sobbing.

Is love that easy to fake?

Cry, wonder, drown in thought, sleep for a while—that was my routine for three days. Manang brings me food inside my room but I still don't talk to er or move. Even if I only stir the food once. I didn't even try to turn my cell phone on since I turned it off when I got home.

I am ashamed. As my sister said, I didn't bring anything good to our family. With the scandal at the hospital, I know that it will spread to the public again. I added to Daddy's problem for the nth times.

I let out a deep breath and stared at my reflection on the TV in front of my bed. Messy hair, blackened eyebags, puffy eyes—those were the things I noticed in my image. I felt a little sorry for myself when I realized that I hadn't showered since I got home from the hospital. I haven't even been able to dress up. Not wanting to, I forced myself to stand up and move slowly to get some clothes from my cabinet. After that I went inside the bathroom to take a shower.

I soaked myself in the tub for almost an hour. I couldn't keep track of how I shampooed or soaped my body. I just came out of the bathroom already dressed. I stopped walking for a moment when I saw Mommy Francheska sitting on my bed. Our eyes immediately met.

"It's good that you thought about fixing yourself," he said in an emotionless tone.

Maybe Manang was telling her about what was happening to me so I'm not surprised that he knows my situation

I slowly continued to walk. "How's Daddy?" I ask politely.

"He can be discharged tomorrow, the doctor said." I could feel Mommy's gaze following me until I sat in front of my vanity mirror.

"Did you... already break up with him?"

I met her eyes with the mirror. Her face was serious despite the cold tone of her speech. I forced a smile.

"Yes? Maybe?" I answered and laughed lightly. "Don't worry, I won't choose to be a failure until the end," I added.

That's the only reason I see for Mommy to ask about Agustine and me. She was worried that I would make a bigger scandal if I made the wrong decision. She does not want to further destroy our family or should it be more correct to say 'their.'

Mommy's face became more and more serious as we kept looking at the reflection in the mirror.

"He fooled you," she stated.

I smiled softly as thousands of needles were thrust into my heart. "We deceived each other..." I whispered.

"You did not fool him. He just made you believe that you fooled him," said Mommy.

At that time, my attention was more focused on her. I turned to her and stared as if I could get an answer to what he was saying.

"Are you aware that he has a fiancee from the beginning?" I asked directly.

Mommy immediately shook her head. "I don't know anything about that. All I know is that he is a dangerous person," he replied.

I couldn't help but laugh. "Dangerous?" I said sarcastically. "Then why did you turn me on to him? Why didn't Mary France or you handle him like it normally happens when the company has a project because you want me to be the one to be harmed?" I accuse.

Mommy's jaw tightened and she glared at me angrily. "I didn't order you to give yourself to him, Khrystal. I didn't tell you to use your body!" she defended.

"What difference does that make, Mommy?" I tearfully asked and laughed blankly. "You know how desperate I am to get out of this place. Of course, I will do everything."

Mommy just shook her head and sighed deeply. "I know that's why I expect you to play with him not the other way around."

"You don't like him, then why did you force me to get the deal?"

My tone rose a bit with that question. I don't know if it's right to feel annoyed at this time but I couldn't control my emotions anymore.

"He's a famous businessman, a trusted billionaire, Khrystal. And it's not just our company that's known in this province. If someone else gets him, there's a good chance that the number of investors who come to us will decrease. Worst is that the company will really be affected," he explained. .

Although I understand Mommy's point, my brain still doesn't want to accept it.

"I don't want him to enter our world either, Khrystal. But what can I do? We need him. Apart from the fact that he will be a big draw for our company, we can be sure that we won't fall because we have him."

For the nth time, I forced a smile. "Then why did you choose me for the project?" I asked my earlier question again.

I know that the answer is my own, but maybe I'm stupid enough to ask for that on purpose.

Mommy slowly averted her gaze. "Because I don't want to harm my own child," she replied softly just enough for me to hear.

Even though I was confused by her impression of Agustine, I couldn't focus on it because of the pain I was feeling at this time. A moment of silence enveloped us both. After a while Mommy got up from her seat and walked towards the door. Before she went out, she looked at me for a moment.

"His fiancee is downstairs," she informed and left the room.