Chapter 14: Chapter 14

"Just chill, Jazzie," I talked to myself.

I sighed numerous times while staring at the square pregnancy test. I am currently in the bathroom and waiting for the result to come out from the tester.

I bit my lower lip when the red mark appeared. I unconsciously held the sink and stared at my reflection in the mirror.

What should I do?

I don’t know what I should feel at these times. I was confused¾overwhelmed and nervous.

"Aren't you done there yet?" I heard Valjerome's talking from the outside.

I firmly held the pregnancy test and then walked towards the door. I slowly turned the doorknob until our eyes met as soon as I opened it. He's sitting on my bed¾arm crossed and emotionlessly stared at me.

I felt pain in my chest because I didn’t even see him as happy as I read in books. But what would I expect? He's Valjerome, my ruthless husband.

Slowly, I walked in front of him and handed the test kit that I am holding. He accepted it and stared. After a while he frowned and then looked up at me.

"You're pregnant?" he asked in a reassuring tone.

"Y-Yes," I replied and bit my lower lip. "We're having a baby." I tried to smile.

He didn't speak for a moment. He just looked at me, emotionless.

"Uhmm. Should we make an appointment?" I said joyously despite the loud pounding of my chest in nervousness.

"Do you think we can buy his stuff now—" I stopped talking when he suddenly stood up from his seat.

With his cold eyes, he stared at me intently as it went down to my stomach. I don’t know if it’s true that I saw Valjerome’s momentary twinkle in his eyes or it is just an illusion that I was forced myself to believe in.

"Abort it," he coldly uttered when his eyes went back to me.

My lips quivered at what I heard. My knees began to twitch at the same time as I was automatically touching my stomach.

"W-What did you say?"

Valjerome walked closer to me. "Abort that child. I don't want that," he said directly.

I shook my head as I disgreed at the same time that the corners of my eyes warmed. "How can you say that?" I reproved, my hands are remained protecting my womb.

"What can’t you understand?" he said in a cold tone. "Abort that child, after all he's not yet properly developed."

I could no longer restrain myself from giving him a loud slap, reason for his face to twist slightly.

"How can you think of killing your child…," My tears burst out in anger, “…that you can’t even be a father to him, Valjerome?!"

He gave an empty laugh and then looked at me. "I don't need sermons or rebukes from you, Jazzie. Get that child off as soon as possible or else..." His jaw tightened as if he was having a difficulty to continue his speech.

“Or else what? If I don’t, what then?" I challenged while pushing his chest.

He held my hands and tightly gripped it. "Don't test my patience, Jazzie. If you don't abort that child, I'll throw you out of my house," he warned.

I blinked twice and let out a painful laugh. "Evict me out, then. I'm leaving, I'll raise my son alone," I boldly swore.

Valjerome smirked. I shrieked when he suddenly pulled my hair.

"Who said I would let that child live if I kicked you out?"

My body shivered coldly from what I heard. Even though my scalp hurts from his intense tweaking, there is nothing can be more hurtful than the emotional pain I am feel right now.

"Why can't you just let our baby live?" I faintly questioned, pleading.

"I don't want to have children with you," he replied quickly.

The word shattered is not enough to describe how much my heart is feeling at the moment. To hear that from him made my whole body numb from the intense pain.

The man I love. The man I thought I would be able to build a family with wanted the…opposite.

"Will you love me if I do it?" I asked weakly and glanced at him as my tears silently streaming down on my cheeks.

"I don’t love, Jazzie," he clarified.

"Will you be happy if I do it?" I change the 'king question.

He did not answer. Instead, he slowly released me and turned his back on me. He was about to leave the room when he stopped walking and faced me again..

"Yes, I will be happy when it's gone," he said and left me inside my room.

I just stared blankly at the door he just exited. Soon, I slowly sat on the floor while holding my stomach.

"I-I'm sorry. I am really, really, sorry," I murmured and silently cried.

I gripped my stomach tightly, feeling the little moment I was still able to hug him even though he was still inside my womb.

"Forgive Mommy, dear. I'm sorry."

"HIJA," Manang Fe greeted as I left the room.

I smiled sadly and then weakly hugged her.

I heard my room reopen at the same time as the doctor who had tended me earlier, came out.

"The abortion went well," she said to Valjerome who was standing by the wall.

He just nodded at the doctor and then turned to look at me.

"Go back to your room and rest," he calmly ordered.

It’s funny to think that during this time I see him worried and sad.

Enough with your illusions, Jazzie.

I didn't answer him back, I felt like after what happened I lost my appetite at all. I hugged Manang tightly and put my head on her shoulder.

"I'll let her rest in our room first," Manang told Valjerome.

I saw him sigh from my peripheral view and then nodded as an approval.

"Let’s go," Manang said kindly and helped me to walk.

Manang carefully laid me down on her bed as soon as we reached the room. Like what she normally does, she gently caressed my hair, it seems like that is how she supports me due to what I’m feeling right now.

"What sin have I committed, Manang? Why am I being punished like this?" I whispered.

"You will also get all the answers to your questions when the time comes, hija. As they say, everything that happens has a reason," she explained.

I laughed hoarsely as my tears flowed.

"What was his reason for killing our child?"