Chapter 118: Chapter 118

“Hey! Campbell? What are you doing here?”A male guard just came and that freezes us. “Uh, keep your hands clean, inmate!” Cara shouts at me. I raise my eyebrow with an annoyed look on my face and I get back to my cell. I knew she shouted at me because she does not want to get shot in 4K by that male big guard. “I-I’m about to go, I’ll check another room then” Cara states as she facing the male guard which standing in front of my room, awkwardly.

“Oh, I thought there’s something wrong happened here” He chuckles. “Ah, no, no… no worries” Cara chuckles in an awkward way. She leaves my room and disappearing into the prison corridor then. I sigh and fold up my pink furry cozy blanket, get ready to greet my new roommate. “Hey, look at you! A friend of mine said that you’ll be in the yoga class this week!” Z all of sudden shows up and it distracts me.

“Oh, Jesus! You scared me” I heavily sigh and up my ass from the bunk. “Yes… I will be in that class this week” I chuckle as I continuing. “And guess what, I’m the teacher!” I raise my brow and give her a smirk. “Whow…” Z whines softly, her brow raises as she continues. “I’m not into yoga, but… considering you’re the teacher” She whooshes her breath softly. “I think I’m gonna join the class” She ends with a few giggles on it.

“Ugh shit! Yoga neither my thing” I chuckle as I make my way closer to her and lean on the prison door. “Oh, really?” Z surprises. “Yeah, not even my ten percents lists” I scoff as I continuing. “I applied for ‘the librarian thing’ but the lady offered me ‘the yoga thing” I chuckle as I give an air quotes with my fingers. I hate yoga, that’s not only wasted all of my energy but also cracked my bones.

“I thought you’re good at it” She responds. “Sure I do…” I laugh softly as I point my gaze at her. It’s more than two times I’ve meet Z today and I thought she’s feeling good, her arms recovered. “So, what’s up?” I ask her, my arms cross into one another. “Uh, sorry…” Z laughs softly as she looks at me. “Umm I heard the C and D inmates will be transferred into the A block, is that true?” She asks. “Huh, unfortunately, yes…” I sigh as I shook my head.

“Have you seen your roommate yet?” Z asks. “N-no… I’m still waiting” I respond. “Uh, you know what! This thing got me curious!” Z looks around the spot as she continues. “A block is a private cell, how do they place another inmate here?!” Z whispers as she keeps talking. “I mean, do they give you compensation for it?” She asks and this time is more curious. I don’t think that I can spill the tea that I just heard from Cara to her.

Not only just because I just knew her but I also don’t fully trust her and Cara will get problems if I spill the tea. “No… I haven’t heard anything about compensation” I respond. “Mmm right” Z sighs. “Hope you’ll get a nice roommate! You know, it’s pretty hard to deal with an untidy bunkmate, and get your room stuffy every single fucking day” Z chuckles. “Ummm sure I could deal with that” I scoff.

“H-hey? Have you seen Katty?” Z asks as she frowns. “Nope!” I reply briefly as I look at her with a raised brow, processing her question. Z looks strange this time and I don’t think this was her purpose to see me more than twice a day. “My gay ass says you’re coming to this wonderful iron palace for some reason” I tease her, my eyebrow raises as I keep crossing my arms, my lips form into a small smile but sweet.

“Let me clear things up! You're a good reader Maia” Z starts, we still standing in front of my room. “As you can see, tonight is a movie night” She explains and I keep listen to her as she continues. “So I wonder if you could accompany me tonight considering I’ve bought two tickets and cokes and have no one to go” She chuckles, her cheeks turn into magenta as she blushes. “Would you”? She gives me puppy eyes so I cannot refuse the offers.

“Mmmm” I hum and think. “Please…” Z whispers as she puts her hands together and begs with those puppy eyes. I sigh because I cannot refuse her offer so I accept it. “S-sure… why not?” I respond. “Ugh, thank God!” Z exhales in relief as she looks at me, she flighty grins and smiles. “But I have to greet my new roommate first before we go!” I say. “Sure… For sure! I’m waiting at the library” She responds excitedly.

“Okay… see you at 8, Maia” Z smiles. I look at her with a smile on my face “See you tonight…” I respond and I pull away from the prison door and get ready to in. “H-hey, Maia… ” Z calls my name in a different way. The sound of her voice reminds me of my world Lena calls me when we both fell in love. The sound of Lena’s voice and the way she calls my name is the most precious thing that ever happens in my life and now Z's voice melted me.

I may not see Lena again or tomorrow, but I have no idea why I keep looking back to the past few years that we’ve been through together, and I absolutely perplexed and awed by how every little thing we’ve been through and that brought me somewhere to the wonderful memories of where I always wanted to be. It’s complicated and also sad that things did not work out the way I once wanted them to.

“Hey Maia, you okay…?” Z asks in dismay and that wakes me from my thoughts. “Ah, I’m good!” I respond tensely. “Okay, I’m gonna head on down” Z says. “Okay, take care!” I respond. She leaves my room and that relief me. “Fiuh…” I exhale in relief and I shut the door, making my way to my bunk after. The situation is stressed me up, how can a woman that used her lips to slammed me become someone who doesn’t even want to see my face.

I live in the grey area now, right in the middle, in a mess and without purpose at the end. Leaving Ben is what I wanted, but I still had no purpose for it and that’s unfair. I hurt him, that was what I’ve always done in the beginning and now I can’t even describe how guilt I was. I don’t even talk to him and the cliché is always showed up and blew my brain, the over-think killed me and it’s ruined my good new fresh relationship opportunity with someone in the future.

On the other hand, I still loved Lena even a little or bigger than I thought and I still had her in my brain and heart till now. I did not mention that I wanted a new fresh relationship immediately, but the piece of mine wants that to happen and the other piece needs more time so I did not mess up and have doubt in that relationship. I fold up my prison clothes and placing a pair of my prison shoes on the edge of my under prison bunk.

“Bzzz… bzzz” The computer vibrates. “Huh!” I quickly slither up and get closer to the drawer, reaching the computer on the top of the drawer. “Oh, Gosh! It’s Rosa” I gasp and quickly click on the message I received from her. Rosa has never text me this late, she usually texted me when the day starts. It does not only surprise me but also got me curious. “Did she tells mom about Ben and I? Oh Gosh, Jeez!” I mumble tensely, my blood about to out of the pores.

“I’m coming tomorrow, there’s something you need to know about Lena. I’ve already met that Russian man!”

It's Lena's thing, now I know why Rosa texted me this late. I heavily exhale in relief but I get tense. “Why you texted me this late? Is there something crossway on it?” I reply to the text. “Bzzz… bzzz… bzzz” The computer vibrates again and it makes the scene more tenses. “I cannot tell you on the phone, I will tell you tomorrow!” Rosa replies. “Come on! You spook me” I reply. “Bzzz… bzzz” The computer vibrates.

“I’ll be there tomorrow! And I’ll take Alison with me. Btw Ben got your sentences” She replies. “Okay…” I type on the computer as I continue “How do you take Alison with you! She can’t be here” I enter the text and send it to her. “She kept asking me about you! I can’t hold it anymore” She replies. “Okay then, I’ll be waiting tomorrow” I reply and I shut the computer screen, place it on the top of my prison drawer.

I up and lean on my bunk, staring up to the almost grey ceiling and thinking about what happened to my Lena after I left. Sometimes I wish Lena understood is how much guilt accompanies me when I remembered how worse I was for her so she can stop hating me. Both of us have seen I felt hurt when she hurt, but that doesn’t change anything, I’m still the asshole, and I clearly realized everything even with closed eyes.

My mistakes burn me up inside and they left hurtful marks inside my heart. I’m not sure how to solve all of this, but maybe if she wants to talk to me, and I show her that I wasn’t giving up. I think all of this may help and she probably forgives me. But no, I cannot show her my weakness. She lied to me too and hid her true job when the first time we met. Our relationship was based on lies. But if she tells me the truth at the beginning, I still like her no matter what.

“Knock… knock” Someone knocks on my prison door and I think that was my roommate. “It’s your new room, please don’t make any turmoil! Make sure your roommate likes you so you don’t have to sleep in the middle of the ballroom with others” A guard talking outside, I think he talked to my roommate. “Cool, she’s coming!” I up from my bunk and walk towards the door, I quickly open the door excitedly and that got the heart-shaped ornament fell out of my chest.

“Oh, my God! You?”