Chapter 114: Chapter 114

“Yes, I’m coming!” I sigh as I open the door. “Maia?” Katty just came to my room and ruined my wonderful bittersweet flashback with Lena. “H-hey… What’s up?” I greet her with a little slight of annoyance on my face. “Hey… You okay?” She asks. “Y-yeah… I’m good. What’s up?” I reply. “Oh, Z asked me to check on you. You haven’t shown up this morning, where have you been?” Katty asks. “Ah, I stayed in my room all day hehe” I chuckle tensely.

“I’m about to go now to see Z in her room” I end. “Are you sure you’re okay? You look sweaty, Maia. Are you sick?” Katty punches me with more questions, I lost my mind and don’t know how to punch her back with more answers. “I… hmmm I’m good! Yeah, I’m good” I respond in stutters as my eyes point at her blankly. “Hmmm, you look strange, Maia” She responds with a raised brow. “Oh, maybe that’s because you asked me with so many questions” I quip to cut her off.

“Well, Maia… Have a nice day!” Katty responds and she leaves my room in confusion as she furrow. I don’t know what happened to me. I felt pissed off when I saw her ruining the memories I had with Lena. I know that’s wrong, what I did to her is no sense, and she didn’t mean to ruin my bittersweet, and she has no idea if I was daydreaming in my room. “Shit!” I groan as I place my hand on my head in dismay and I’m about to get back to my bunk.

“Maia! Hey!” She getting back to my room and propping up my door with her leg. “Yes?” I turn around and facing her. “About the job you asked me last week, my friend told me that you can apply for that job this evening because there’s one prisoner out of the job today, you can meet her and give her your application. After that, you can meet your counselor, and voila… you hired!” Katty ends. “W-what?! Are you fucking kidding me?” I surprise, my eyes bulged.

“That’s what I'm gonna say to you but I forgot after I got here” She chuckles. “Oh, my goodness… I am so sorry for acting so pissy to you Katty. I’m having a bad day lately, I am so sorry!” I frown as I lowering my voice, my face down to the ground. “Hey, it’s okay Maia. Sometimes we don’t know if we do something wrong, but that’s fine! I’m over it, we're good!” Katty smiles as she caressing my shoulder and leave my room after.

I shut the door with a smile on my face and get back to my bunk, I am so happy now. Guess the universe surprises me with her mysterious way again. “I finally can see Lena and work with her, even though if we’re in this horrible place! Mmmm God ughhh thank you so much!” I hum as I close my eyes with a big smile on my face. “Oh, God! Z!” I quickly up from my bunk and make my way then I shut my door and out.

“How do I forgot?! Jesus” I quickly make my way to B block in dismay, thinking of Z who waited for me. I don’t know why I did this, I feel bad for her and I haven’t seen her since last night. Her room is open and I quickly get into her room, my face down to the ground. “H-hey Z sorry I didn’t-” I remove my gaze from the ground and didn’t finish my sentence because I see Lena and her friends in Z’s room.

I stand in freeze and shut my mouth, Lena stares at me in hollow and full of anger. And she off her eyes from me after and scowl. “Okay, I think we’re good! We’re done! Get well soon Z! Oh, you can come to C block and play some board game with us sometimes” Lena chuckles as she shook Z’s hand. “Thanks, guys! I appreciate that” Z replies as she shook Lena’s hand. I tell nothing and stand in freeze, I really want to hug her and tell her how much I miss her but she might hate me even more now.

I held my tears as I point my gaze to the ceiling, my chest tight. It’s funny when I already engaged to someone but my heart and brain thinking of someone else. I am not ready to get married, I think I have to call Ben and cut our relationship before everything runs deeper. I heavily exhale to free all the tighter in my chest and I make my way out and leave Z's room with almost fall tears in my cheeks then I make my way towards the public prison phone.

There are a lot of people here, but they left one hang phone at the corner side. “Is this phone works?” I ask the woman who stands next to me. “I guess” She replies. “Okay, thank you…” I quickly grab the phone and type Ben’s number. “Come on Ben… come on…” I mumble through the phone as I waited for him to answer the phone. “Fuck!” I slam the phone and sigh, Ben didn’t answer my phone. “Okay, relax, Maia. Relax…” I heavily breathe and settle down.

“Okay, here we go…” I type Rosa’s number and call her. “Hello?” She answers the phone. “Oh, thank God!” I exhale in relief, my chest breath normal now. “Maia? How are you? I missed you so fucking much!” Rosa states through the phone. “Rosa, let me clear things up… I have no time for this now, I needed you to do me a favor” I respond tensely. “Hey, what’s wrong? You okay?” She replies in dismay. “I’m good… I’m fine” I sigh.

“I need you to deliver my messages to Ben…” I heavily breathe as I close my eyes. “I… I think I can’t continue this marriage… I think I can’t be his wife… and tell him that I am so sorry for everything I’ve ever done to him, for all the pain he got from me, and for all affairs I’ve done. I am so, so sorry… Tell mom and dad that I can’t be the daughter that they dream of, I can’t be the best daughter for them and I can’t make them happy” I held my tears.

“And I can’t give them what they wanted… I can’t give them a little bundle of joy which they called grandchild and I can’t give them happiness in life” My breath trembling as I held my tears. “Please… note this and tell them” I start to cry and tears dripping down to my cheeks. “Hey… Maia. Shhh, stop crying, okay? You want me to say that to them, right? Okay, I will… don’t worry” Rosa calms me. “And you want me to come there so you can talk to me in person?” She says.

“N…no it’s fine, I’m good! Just tell them what I’m saying” I respond. “I-I’m afraid…” I end, my breath trembling. “You’re afraid of mom? You afraid if she mad at you and hate you” Rosa asks. “Mmm-hmm” I respond as I wipe my tears. “We had the same fear when we’re a kid, Maia” Rosa starts. “It’s hilarious but the same fear I would always a fear that mom was not gonna be there when I woke up. But then the good thing for your fear is that she was always there”

“So maybe sometimes fear just when it’s just when you love someone so much or when you love something so much, it would be disappear but it’s not really truly gonna happen” Rosa ends. “Huh… so you think that mom will forgive me for everything I’ve done?” I respond. “Of course she will… because she loves you, Maia” Rosa says. “She never there for me, Rosa… not for seconds...” I sigh with a light of grief in my voice.

“Guess the good thing is, you're grandma’s favorite granddaughter! That even better” Rosa chuckles. “Huh… you’re right, thanks Rosa” I respond with smiles on my face. “There’s nothing that you can’t tell me, Maia” Rosa smiles through the phone and I could feel that through the phone speaker hole. “And there’s nothing you can tell me that will make me stop loving you. You’re my little sister and you will always be…”

“So it doesn’t matter, I don’t care how bad your decision is, and I don’t care how good it is, I don’t care how small it is, and I don’t care how weird it is, it doesn’t matter! In your entire life, you can tell me whatever and you will always have my backup and I will always love you” Rosa states and that’s touching my heart, I almost cry and I almost jump cause I’m happy. “I may not like you very much at the moment but I will always love you, Maia” She chuckles.