Chapter 50: Chapter 50

"Let's go to the hotel," my friend urges us.

"Dammit," I hear Kahin growl, I look at him cautiously by his tone, I know that growl, when looking in the same direction as him, I see two tourists looking in our direction, "I'm going to break faces, I'm sure of that."  Smiling at his possessiveness and jealousy, I jump on top of him and get tangled up in his body, his hands going to my ass to hold me.

"Kiss me," I beg him in his bad mood to do it, "stop violence and control yourself, they can only see me, but you're the one who has me, come on, take me to that hotel, I want to enjoy the water, the sun, cold things" I say in the purest style of  Olaf, Kahin laughs.

"You look like a girl when you put on this act, no one would guess how dangerous you are," I wink at him, he was the first to be fooled by my appearance. When we get to the hotel we go to our room, there is only one room so Kahin will have to sleep with me whether he wants it or not.

"Tomorrow,"  my friend yells entering the room "what's wrong?"  She asks when she sees me with my clothes in my hand.

"I can not," I whisper looking at the floor, "I can't put on my swimsuit, I get the feeling that if they see me in little clothes they'll know what happened to me and the damage my body suffered, I feel like they'll see me with different eyes."

She sits next to me, "no one will know that, no one has to know, darling, you're getting over it, you're beautiful, attractive and very nice, so much so that you have a 35 year old man drooling over you," I smile at that, Kahin has behaved and I know that he has not slept with any other, his almost permanent erection confirms it to me.

"You're right and even if I give Kahin a fool for the bikini, I'll put it on, it's time to forget right? It's been three months, I still don't remember anything and I think that's good, right?" My friend looks at me with a half smile.

"Yes darling, it's good that you don't remember anything and go on with your life," happy and feeling sure of myself I put the bikini in front of my friend, she helps me tie it in the back, "skinny list, come on, the boys are waiting for us at a ranch they rented for the four of us." Taking my hat, my sunglasses and my sunscreen, I follow her.

"Shit," Loan growls, "Zaza, you're on fire," she slaps him, my friend like the fool she is, she rushes at her boyfriend and eats him with her mouth and a little more eats him the wrong way.

"Couldn't you wear something that covered you more?" Kahin asked and  I roll my eyes.

"If you don't like it, don't see, it's my way of dressing and that's how I stay," turning my back to him, I adjust the bottom of my bikini.

"Fuck Marilí, do you have to do that in my face?" Brama annoyed by what I do.

"You can touch heaven, I'm not stopping you," suppressing the urge to laugh, I look at the water.

"Shit," I feel the tug he gives me, letting out a laugh I try to let go, "I hate that you're so sharp with tongue," he turns me around and straddles his hardness, do you feel what you do?"

Caressing his pecs, I grin, "I didn't do that, it's not my fault that you don't control yourself," I run my tongue over his lips, "I was just adjusting my bikini," I smile at his serious expression, "I think that today you can take away that desire," I whisper in his ear and bite his earlobe in the process, feeling him tense.

"I think it's very hot in here...ufff, Loan, hand me a crown please," our friend who is just as horny as he is having fun, these two are a pair of inveterate horrors. Lying down next to him I put on my glasses.

"Can you stop looking at asses?" I hear my friend screaming, "you're an idiot, Loan." I look at them, these two are always fighting.

"What are you talking about? I was looking at the beach, Kahin was also looking at her and lethal said nothing to him," I look at Kahin with raised eyebrows and he looks at his friend wanting to kill him, I look away and when I visualize some tourists without a bra and in floss bikini, I look back at Kahin, I slowly remove my glasses.

"Sweet ..."

"Do not say anything," I warn him, "you better not," jealousy wants to explode in me, but I'm not going to allow it, I don't want to show that possessive side I have. I get up and lie on the other lounger with my friend, immediately afterwards I feel like she pinches me and when I look at an exact point there are two blond, pale, tall gringos with muscles that are ready to suck them.

"Can you stop looking too?" Kahin asks.

"So you were looking at women too?" Being uncomfortable, I ask, "you said, 'can you stop looking 'too?'" I point out the last word.

"I didn't mean to say it like that, you misunderstand me, stop looking at them, period." I look at him annoyed, "and don't get away with that. How do you know I was looking at her?"

"Because I know you," I mentally curse.

"The sight was made to see baby, besides I didn't look at her for more than two seconds and don't get mad because we have the balls to tell the truth." I growl at him.

"If you don't win, you tie it," said Loan.

"What could he tell you? You can't explain with apples what you have to explain with eggs son, and that's what you lacked," getting up, I shot my friend a look to go buy some ice cream.

"Which do you prefer," Loan asks, drawing my attention, "to be happy or to always be right?"

I shrug, "be happy because I'm right," I look at Kahin, "let's go get some ice cream," searching in his pocket, I take out some money, he won't let me spend mine.

"Couldn't you find yourself a different woman? Anything less responsive? Fuck I love her, but the fact that she has an answer to everything surpasses me at times." Even though we are somewhat distant, I can hear Loan saying.

"Don't be afraid of success Loan, you can't always be part of the circle of powerful, intelligent and sexy women," raising my hand, I say goodbye.

"You really know how to shut him up," laughs my friend, "you don't know how glad I am that you have returned, I missed those answers you always have." I put my hand around my friend's waist and hug her.

"I'm glad to be back, I have told Kahin that maybe today we can be together," ww got to the place and there is no ice cream so we ordered a piña colada with alcohol, the ticket was 50 so we can drink while we talk. "I tried yesterday," we sat down and looked at the beautiful beach with crystal clear waters, "I swear to you I wanted it, I was burning with desire and lust, I wanted him inside me and I wanted him to take the air out of me like he always does when he penetrates me like an animal, but when I felt him move, for some reason, Ian came to mind and when I looked at Kahin it was Ian who was there, making love to me," I huff as I take a sip of my piña colada.

"You must relax, what has you like this is the frustration of wanting to know what happened to you, darling, sometimes it is better not to know things, perhaps this sounds cruel, but I must say it, you have run with luck by not remembering anything, you must forget about the scars that have already healed and try to move on without giving it more importance, I know that knowing that you suffered abuse, even if you do not remember it, something in you will be marked forever, but you have advantages that other women do not have." I snort, tired of the whole damn thing.

"I try, I swear, but I don't know what happens, I'm tired of everything, I want to forget it, lock it up and without further ado it resurfaces, I know it's only been three months and I have to go little by little, but I already want to get it out of my system, you know? I just want to snap my fingers and poof, I forgets everything." My friend laughs.

"Let's find a lamp and make the genie snap his fingers." We started laughing

"Good afternoon ladies," my friend and I look behind us, "are you alone?" They smile mischievously, I meet my friend's gaze and we smile.

"The truth is that..."

"Any problem?" Kahin interrupts me before I can reply, "that's my wife and I don't like her being looked at or even spoken to." The blondes we saw minutes ago are looking at Kahin and Loan.