Chapter 35: Chapter 35
When I get to the Art History class they have already started, I curse, obfuscated by everything my life is made of, I take a deep breath, I must calm down, once I think I can speak without sending everything to the horn, I knock on the door and Professor Cambell immediately opens it.
"Miss Cook, do you have a good explanation for interrupting my class?" He asks in his tone of voice that I hate.
"Yes, it's my class," I reply just as pissed off as he is, "does that explanation seem fair to you?"
The teacher frowns, "do you interrupt my class to talk to me like that?" He almost growls, "you can go to the cafeteria and relax, you have zero on today's test, have a good day, Miss Cook."
Incredulous at what he said, I was going to protest when I see the door close on my face, "dammit!" I shout and I know they have heard me, more than pissed off, I go to the cafeteria, my cell phone rings again and again, when I look at it, it is Kahin, turning it off I put it in my bag. I do not know what is happening to me, I do not know how my life could become so strange, it is as if it did not know me, it is as if the confusion grew in me, day after day and that it could never be clarified, I feel like everything is wrong, everything is a puzzle that is about to pass its limit, because its pieces do not fit.
"How is my favorite Italian?" I hear Ian, yelling at me and almost pulling me to his neck.
I bellow, "get away from me, you unscrupulous fool, or I swear I'll make you pay for everything you've done to me and since that's not going to be enough, I'll make you swallow that thing that's hanging on you," without saying more and leaving him unsettled I move away from him, only that was missing for my day to be completed and it was a total disaster.
I get to the cafeteria, I order a cappuccino, I turn on my mobile and turn the music to full volume, I put on my headphones and look for my favorite book, I love romantic eroticism, when I read the first line I already miss the real world.
"Hello bitter," looking up from the book, I see Randon, "now can we talk about it calmly?"
Sighing, I close the book, put it on the table and remove the headphones from my ears,"I'm tired Randon. I'm very confuse, I'm not the one sitting here ...I'm lost," I close my eyes for a few seconds, "I know you and my friend are right, but how to get past what my mother says? If she asks me to stop, I must do so, she had never forbidden me to do anything like that and to do so is to obey." Randon listens to me without interruptions and I like that, I want to vent, "I love Kahin, I adore him, and although ours did not start in a normal way and to some extent we have hurt ourselves, he has shown me that he loves me with all his soul, to the point that he allows himself to be dominated by me," I frown, my feelings are on the surface and my heart, now that I recognize that I love the brunette, beats differently.
"But I can't let myself be dominated by my feelings, I must pay attention to mom or I can get seriously hurt for not listening to my mother, I know I must make my mistakes and learn through my own means. But why suffer if it can be avoided?"
Randon settles into his seat and doesn't take his eyes off me, "you have told me that you love him and he loves you, your point is valid, if your mother had never forbidden you something like that and now she does, it is to think about it. But has she explained to you why she doesn't want that relationship? Because something if I tell you Marilí, I think your mother is going a bit too far and is going through your happiness."
"It's says exactly what Carla told me."
"She should let you live your life, she should only be there for when you need her, for when you want advice, someone to vent to or just talk with when you need a shoulder to cry on," Randon's words are the right ones, he's right, Mom didn't want to explain and every time I ask her, she loses control, "you can't always be perfect Marilí, making mistakes, suffering and living certain crazy things makes us human and you ..." he shakes his head "you lose that which makes us real. Do I make myself clear? You are like something so perfect that it is not credible, you are intelligent, beautiful, ingenious, you have a heart of gold and a humility that not everyone has, but when you really must put into practice all those qualities that you have, you simply do like turtles or the ostrich, you just hide. I advise you to live like you want, to be free to live that love and to be willing to enjoy it, no matter how long it lasts."
Being told the truth to my face hurts, but I like it better, "you are right Randon, I must speak to mom and demand an explanation, but until then I won't say anything to Kahin, I can't take everything for granted, because if my mother's refusal makes a good argument, I'm not going to risk being with him"
My friend nods, "at least you've stopped being stubborn, I trust you," he smiles at me, "now we're going to have to go into the other classes and I'm sorry I made you lose one," he gets up and shrugs, "I hope to redeem myself today on our departure," he winks at me and amused, I get up.
"Well, you'll have to pay for everything," I nudge him with my shoulder once I catch up with him.
"The Sugar Daddy doesn't give you money?" Still confused but in a better mood I laugh.
"You're a stupid badboy," he hugs me and kisses my head. Who would have expect that we would become such friends and confidantes?
He looks at me, ''m irresistible babe."
I look at him mischievously, "don't even think I've forgotten the conversation we had, I'll help you find someone you can experiment with," he stops short and looks at me seriously, "calm handsome ...no one will know, I promise you, it is also just to get out of the doubt, don't you think? It will be someone very discreet.
Randon snorts, "okay, but let's talk about this when we go to eat, okay?" Smiling, I nod, "see you later flojitalia," he shudders and walks away from me.
"You are a fool Randon," I yell at him offended, finally laughing I go to art class.
***
"They are calling you," Carla in a bad mood hands me her cell phone, seeing who it is I curse.
"Hello sir 'I can do everything'" I hear him growl behind the line.
"May I know why you have disabled my calls? I have been calling you all morning Sweet," he's upset but holds back, that makes me smile.
"I'm sorry my bitter Moon, I've had a pretty bad morning. You forgive me?" I speak to him sweetly, I love talking to him and listening to him.
"You know that I forgive you everything, you abuse me," he jokes and I laugh.
"You are dramatic Hamann," I hear him laugh in that way that drives me crazy.
"We can meet today?" I shake my head even though he can't see me, that man is never going to change.