Chapter 34: Chapter 34

I'm late like every morning, I run from one place to another, talking to Kahin late at night is already taking its toll, his possessiveness is overtaking me and I don't think I can handle this anymore. Mom is crazy! She doesn't even want Kahin to look at me or say my name, she doesn't like him at all.

"Tomorrow," my friend yells for the fifth time, "let's go quickly, we're already late," she hurries me.

"You're not going with that man, right?" My mom snort.

"No Mom, I'm going to the movies with Randon today," I look at her, she's really worried about Kahin, "Mama, don't worry, I already told the man 'I can do everything', that I won't have a relationship with him, everything will be fine, he has respected my decision and will give me my freedom." She nods and walks over to me.

"You do well darling ... You do very well," se hugs me and kisses my head, "he is too big for you and he is not good at all," she caresses my cheek and looks me in the eye, "you should cut all contact with him, we should take advantage of the fact that he's no longer watching you to leave, don't you think?" Hearing that for some reason makes me sad, but my mother is right, we have money and we can leave Panama.

"We'll talk about it when I get back. Agree?" My mother smiles and I follow suit, "ti voglio bene mamma," her smile grows bigger.

"Ti voglio più figlia," with a kiss on the cheek we said goodbye, my friend is about to lose her voice from shouting so much.

"Wise Petra woman ... Don't you listen?" We walk quickly.

"I'm sorry, Mom is still crazy, what happened last weekend makes her nervous, I think we're leaving Panama." My friend stops in her tracks.

"How are you leaving? You're crazy? You can't do something like that Marilí. Don't you think about Kahin ... About you?  Fuck skinny, you love that man as much as he loves you, I love Aunt Camilla very much, but what she is doing to you is not right ... She has already made her mistakes, now it's your turn" she's really angry, "I know it has always been you two, me the same with my mother and you know it, but mother has never interfered in my happiness, although she warns me about things, she only advises me and that's it, she does not try to forbid things. You are bad Marilí, very bad, do you know what makes me angry the most? That my aunt is going through your happiness," the words my friend says are so strong they are hurting me.

"You have no right to talk about my mother like that, for that same reason is why you always suffer, my aunt Lourdes gives you a lot of freedom and that's why things happen to you, at least my mother prevents them from happening to me, but what about you? You have only suffered over and over again, tell me, does what your mother does work?" My friend stiffens her face.

"You have passed Marilí, I am your best friend and I just want to see you happy, you didn't have to imply those things, my mother takes care of me as much as yours, but without actually forbidding things, or interrupting my happiness, even when  this hurts me," she turns and keeps walking, I follow her angrily.

"How can you say that my mother intervenes in my happiness? Please Carla, Hamann bought me and even though now he says he loves me I can't believe him, I can't be with him no. I can not!" I yell at her in the middle of the street.

"You're a damn coward," she turns, "you think I don't realize it? Ian's thing hurt you more than you have shown and now you are afraid, I never thought you were so weak," her words are like daggers to my heart, my breath pausing on each exhale.

"You're a fool, I'm not like you, people always hurt and you are still stupid ... I wouldn't be surprised if Loan only uses you to fuck for two more months and leaves you."

Pushing her, I pass her by and stop a taxi, she's going to charge me a lot but I'm not interested, I don't want to be with her, she has insulted my mother and me in the process, who the hell does she think she is to say that my mother goes over my happiness? Really furious I can't stop snorting.

"Are you okay?" The taxi driver asks, looking at him with annoyed eyes, I say nothing, "it is not good that a young woman as pretty as you is so angry."  I roll my eyes.

"It's just that I find each useless things trying to please me, while what he does, bores me," he immediately falls silent. The road is silent and I can only think about why did I argue with my friend?  I don't like being like this with her, all for wanting me to be with the idiot Kahin.

When I arrive at the campus, the first one I see is Randon, he immediately comes to meet me and hugs me, the gossip did not wait and everyone has identified us as two crazy people and more to me, they have me as the 'lazy".

"Isn't your sugar daddy around?"  He asks with a smile on his lips, hiding everything, I hit him on his shoulder.

"No, he's not there, he won't be anymore, I've got rid of him," I lead him to a bench.

"Where is Carla?" He looks around puzzled.

"I don't know, we came apart."  He raises an eyebrow.

"What happened, Marilí?"  I twist the face.

"Nothing's wrong man, let's go to class," I get up "are we going to the movies today?" I take a step and he stops me.

"You're not going to give me a plane, because I don't like the height," he growls, "what happened? I'm know you Marilí, you never separate from your best friend and when you are angry your cheeks light up," he looks ahead of me, "because of me you will miss classes, but I will not let you go without you telling me, it worries me."

I take a deep breath and blow it out, "okay ...how determined you are when you want to," I frown, "she insulted my mother and me, said things that I didn't like, I got mad at her and that's it. Can we go?" He gives me a warning look, frustrated I sit on one of the benches," ok ...I'm thinking of going with my mother, maybe we will leave the country."  Randon frowns.

"You are crazy? And what about your Sugar Daddy?"

His stupid question puts me in a bad mood, "that's why I argued with her, I don't want to do the same with you Randon, I have nothing with him, other than some bedtime and that's it. I still haven't told you the truth of the whole story so I can't tell you the real reasons."

"Don't lie to me!" He laughs, "it shows perfectly that you are in love with him, as well as he with you. You are truly more crazy than I thought. Are you aware that you will miss that man?"

Getting up very angrily I point my index finger on his chest, "I'm not going to miss him, because I don't feel anything for him, so stop talking nonsense," I pass him by and feel myself jerk back.

"You're wrong. Have you noticed how stubborn you are?  Marilí, you are about to commit something crazy," I growled angrily at him and he released me, "okay, okay, look me in the eye and tell me you don't love that man."

I look into his eyes, that will not be a problem, when I think the words my mouth does not pronounce them, I huff in anger, you are stupid," I pass him by the side, "I don't feel anything for him," I say almost in a cry of irritation.

"You're up for it precious, see you after class," he yells at me when I'm far enough away, he has made me late.