Chapter 85: Chapter 85

Chapter 85

Xavier's Pov

"I can't lose you now," I said, expecting an answer that I knew I wouldn't get.

I lacked the courage to speak and could only observe. The silence was killing me, and my worries and overthinking were increasing.

"I'm not sure how I'd survive without you," I admitted something I had never done before.

Tears began to fall from my eyes, and I felt alone when my heart was broken.

I took a hand into mine that I desperately wanted to hold. I was good at hiding my emotions, so no one knew.

"Please, I beg you, open your eyes," I said.

"Hate me if you want; punish me; but please, please don't die," I began to cry when I couldn't stop myself.

"What would I tell our parents?" Mother told me to look after you; please don't make me look any worse in front of her; wake up, Levine, your brother is calling." When I gently touched his face, my voice trembled.

Kris advised me to mentally prepare myself to say goodbye to Levine because his breathing was slow and his heart was not functioning properly.

I was still holding out hope, hoping for a miracle, and I couldn't say goodbye to my brother, who was the only family I had. I was enraged by the situation that I was in. I had no choice but to be patient.

When all of the pack members were out in the garden, I was pushing my wheelchair through the wrecked mansion.

My heart was heavy, my body was numb, and I was tired, broken, and alone as usual.

I came to a halt outside my room when I realized Sansa was now living inside; I had nowhere to go.

I didn't pause for long before entering the room. While I was locking the door from the inside, she turned to face me.

I wanted her to be there for me at my lowest point. I knew she wouldn't tolerate my presence in the same room, so I locked us up and hid the key in my pocket.

"What are you doing?" she inquired, her face tense.

I couldn't tell how much I needed someone by my side; just having her there was enough for me.

"You must be upset with me, don't you?" After shifting to the bed, I asked calmly.

I received no response from her while she stood silently behind me.

The silence was killing me inside, and I needed to talk to her to distract myself from my misery.

"You have a lot to learn; you've never been in a pack before; I understand," I said.

Her father desired her to live a normal human life. That's why he kept her secret from both me and the underworld.

"Living among humans does not make you one of them; you have no idea how much we despise humans because of our bad history with them." I wanted to tell her how much I had to give up to accept her because it was a risk to keep a half-human in the pack.

"I claimed you as my bride even though you are half-human, but what did I get in return? Hatred, cruelty, piercing eyes, and cursed words behind my back."

I didn't deserve her rage because I put my reputation, my alpha throne, and the Oak Pack's rules at risk. She still desired to flee the mansion.

"Why were you in the jungle?" I wanted to hear from her.

"I heard a voice in the jungle and went to check," she lied confidently.

"WHY WERE YOU IN THE JUNGLE?" I was angry.

I suddenly held her by the neck and slammed her against the wall in a flash.

"Leave me alone!" She screamed as she struggled to break free fearlessly.

She thought I was a fool to believe her when she was lying. When I didn't have the energy to play games, the one I wanted to keep close to was testing my patience.

She betrayed me by fleeing.

She gave me no choice; it was the only way I could think of to keep her close to me by scaring her. By punishing her, she will learn not to make the same mistake again.

"I said leave me alone," she yelled through her lungs as she struggled to breathe.

"Sssshhhhh....."   I leaned closer to her ear.

She was now my adversary. I realized this, but I didn't give up hope on making her mine.

"I despise those who even consider betraying me; fleeing when I provided you with the largest mansion and the most luxurious lifestyle is a heinous crime. I gave you the freedom to speak back to me; I gave you everything, so why don't you just go along with it?"

She wasn't even listening to me and didn't respond as if I was speaking to the wall.

"WHY?"  When I shouted, "Give me the damn answer,"

"I don't... want to live here; I wanna go... back," she said with a shaky voice.

"But you belong here. This is your home, your family, and I am your husband—not yet technically, but you will be with me forever." I said it softly because I didn't want to make her even more terrified as tears streamed down her cheeks.

It was too late to claim my bride, but I caught her just in time. I knew she despised me, but I still craved her. Was this my obsession? Or was I already in love with her?

I was perplexed and irritated when she ignored me as if I were just another random guy. I was her partner, not her true mate, but we were bound by the pronouncement of wonder.

I couldn't hate her or keep her away from me, no matter how hard I tried. I was missing her while standing so close to her; there had been an emptiness in my life for a long time, but since she entered my life, I wanted to spend every moment with her.

"I've never had a woman in my life; you are the first and will be the last." I couldn't use a gentle tone when confessing to her, knowing she wouldn't accept me.

"Keeping someone against their will is not the right way; it will not work even if you believe you will not gain anything by making me your hostage." She was angry.

I didn't want to keep her locked up or caged; I just wanted her to accept me by the law. I had no idea how I could win her heart or keep her by my side.

"It's fine with me even if you don't love me; I'm not going to ask you to love me; I just want you around me because you're my bride and only I have a right to you," I explained like a fool, not considering how she might react to a stupid confession.

"So I chose death over being with you." She dared to say so while looking fearlessly into my eyes.

I didn't mind whatever she used to say to me, but it was when she said she would die but would not accept me that triggered me.

"Then die!" I yelled angrily.

We both looked each other in the eyes, as she had already decided how to get rid of me.

"I didn't want to be the dominant guy here, but you leave me no choice, When she was struggling to breathe," I said as I gripped her neck tightly.

I never forgave those who had ever betrayed me; instead, I punished them brutally and painfully, so they would never think of going against me again. Some of them did not live to take their revenge.

"Promise me that you will not do anything like that, and I will give you one more chance," I said.

"I..........," her voice broke.

When I removed my hand from her neck, she gasped for air and coughed profusely.

"So now is the time for me to make you mine; whether you like it or not, I don't care," I said shamelessly.

She pushed me away and dashed over to the door, knocking and screaming for help. "Is there anyone out there? Please unlock the door!"

"You will remember this night for the rest of your life; your life will be changed tonight," I teased her while expecting her answer.

"Stop playing with me; if you want to punish me, I chose death over being by your side." She dared to re-trigger me.

"I can't let you die; we have a long way to go, a lot of time to spend, and a lot of things to talk about. We have a lot of memories to make together," As I touched her hair, I said

When I blocked her in the middle, she pushed me away to run into the balcony.

"I would harm you, but I will not let you die; I will torture you until life becomes a curse to you if you try to flee again." I was threatening her shamelessly when I realized how brutal I had become.

She collapsed unexpectedly, and I snatched her into my arms and said, "Sansa?" For the first time, I called her name.