Chapter 34: Chapter 34

Amina

His eyes were dimmed visible of emotions. Raw that I could notice some sad meaning behind them.

“What happened?” I found myself asking. My eyes not leaving his. I tried not to dwell over what my heart kept reminding me regarding him. Yet, I couldn't help being worried for him. I want him to tell me all his worries. His sorrows and his problems. I want him to open up to me.

“Nabil?” I called his name hearing silence. “Is something wrong? You can tell me. I'm here. You need to let out what you're feeling. At least, it'll deduce your aching heart. I promise I won't judge you” His mouth moved a little. However, nothing came out.

“Your silence means you've not trusted me fully like you said. You know, I didn't plan on saying this, but looking at you now, I had to say it. I'm not the type who meddle in other people's business. You made me worry about you. And I hate the feeling I'm feeling all because of seeing you down like this. If you do take me as your friend as you said, then you have to tell me what is bothering you." I heaved out another sigh adjusting my sitting position the way I will be facing him.

“Open up to me Nabil” I let out again slowly. My heart swelling up with emotions. Something I feel whenever I see sadness in his face. I hated to admit it but I'm slowly drifting into it and I'm scared of the outcome.

Two minutes passed by with the silence yielding with each tickling second. I have decided that if he doesn't speak up then I won't push him to. Besides, it's even my fault to think maybe. Just maybe he'll be the kind of person I will be comfort with. Yet, his behavior made me think twice about my decision. What I'm feeling deep down might not matter to him. Heck, someone who shut his heart, how will I be able to know what he's thinking.

“I’m sorry” was the word that first came out of his mouth followed by his exhaling breath. “I’m sorry for shutting you out earlier. Its just that I'm trying to collect my thoughts. I have so much in my head that I don't know what to do” He turned his face towards me. I could swear I saw his eyes watered. But why? He didn't give me a chance to ask as he spoke up again.

“My behavior towards you doesn't mean I didn't trust you. I just don't want to worry you with my problems. Something I'm used to already. Something-”

“You’ve already done that. You make me worry about you Nabil. I hate to admit it, but I don't like seeing the sadness in your eyes” I stated straight from my heart. Beating around the bush will not do me any good. Most especially my heart. “I don't care if I sound like a desperate person at the moment. I only want the man sitting in front of me to open up”

“You’re like a sister to me Amina. A special one” My heart did a flip at his words. I won't say I like how the sister word sound from his mouth but the special word spike something in my heart. And at that moment I knew I've started developing feelings for him.

“I understand if you're finding it difficult to open up your heart. But know one thing, whatever decision you decided to take, know that you got my back. Insha Allah. All shall be well” I saw his mouth moved as if he wanted to say something but he withdrew it back. Leaning his back on the lounge bench.

“Thank you for understanding me Amina. Even my friend doesn't want to understand me. He always disposes my hard work. I'm glad you understood me”

“You mean the friend you stole the name from. Sadeeq?” I said my lips curving up in a smile.

“Yes. His character doesn't suit his name at all"

“More like yours doesn’t suit you too” He passed me a dirty glare and I smile in return.

“And more like yours doesn’t suit you too” he repeated my words. It was my turn to glare back at him. He let out a smile. A smile I’ve been dreading to see on his face since. Now that he graced me with it, I feel contented. I was about to lean my back too when I stood up with a jerk. Nabil’s eyes immediately snapped towards my standing position.

“What’s wrong? Are you okay??" h boambard at once.

“Yeah everything is fine. I just remembered I have some few papers to organize due for tomorrow " Telling him I was to have a meeting with Ahmad will only anger him.

“Oh..." came his answer

“So see you later or should I say see you tomorrow since it's already late now” I laughed at my own words. I didn't miss the look on his face

“Sure will chat you up later"

“Alright then” with that I waved at him and aligted away. I branched by the kitchen first. Drank some water and then descend up. Spotting his study room wasn't harder than I thought. Besides, he said across his room. Forming my knuckle in a fist, I knocked on the door.

It was silent a first. I almost thought no one was inside until he decided to open his mouth the time he feels like it. “Come in" I rolled my eyes before pushing the door open.

The study room was spacious unlike his room. It only consist of desk, a desktop, photocopy machine. On the other side laid two sitter couch and a book rack consisting of few books.

“If you're done checking out the room then we will discuss"

Clearing out my voice, I grabbed the stool that was sitting beside me. His hands were busy scribling some write-ups which I don't or have interest to know. I just want to know what he wants us to discuss.

“Um... Sir. Is something wrong?”