Chapter 17: Chapter 17

Sophie POV:-

It's almost midnight and my stomach was growling. My dried lips formed a thin line as I was starving and also in a desperate need of sleep but I was waiting for Christian.

Seems like he forgot that there's a wife waiting for him.

But, Why am I waiting for him?

I can eat alone too but somewhere in my heart, I don't want to. More like I can't since he ‘expects’ me to have dinner with him.

I sighed and put my head on the dining table and closed my eyes.

I wonder why his eyes always flicker with compassion as if even if he wants to hurt me, he can't. Something is pulling him to not to do that.

I find it funny, nothing can stop that cold guy, he can break me miserably any moment, there are no restrictions, I gave him all the rights to do it and to be honest, I am afraid of the day he will.

‘And somewhere deep down, I think he wouldn’t break me and if he did, I don’t think it would break me physically- my body belongs to him- but emotionally.’

He can do anything and can induce such fears in me that my vulnerable form will be deluged in them forever.

The pity of his is just his wicked way to tear me apart, to make my soul burn in his malevolence.

I remained like that as I slowly drifted to sleep waiting for him.

My eyes slowly opened as I felt a hand around my waist as my back was firmly pressed against his hard chest. I pressed my cold fingers against themselves to calm myself.

I turned my face and my lips brushed against his cheeks as my heart skipped a beat. My eyes widened for a second. Not liking this closeness, I removed his hands and got out of the bed.

Giving him a last cold look, I walked out of the room.

Since my hunger is too much, I decided to have something for myself. I know he has eaten, why would he wait for me or bother to wake me?

I scoffed at my thoughts and made mac n cheese for myself. I was leaning on the counter, waiting for the cheese to melt so I could enjoy my meal. I closed my eyes and remained like that.

“Still awake?” But then I felt someone's presence. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Christian leaning on the door-frame.

Our eyes met as he looked at me with those pitch-black eyes. I averted my gaze and he walked closer.

My heart began to beat faster as he stood in front of me. I didn't dare to meet his lethal gaze as I stared at the floor.

He put his hands on either side of me as I stilled in the trap of his arms. I released a shallow breath as he leaned in.

"What are you doing?" He asked in his usual deep voice. I curled my toes and bit my cheeks to lower the feeling of terror.

‘Does he have to be intimidating every time?’

"I am starving." I said, rolling my eyes off him. His hand moved from the counter to my waist as he pulled me close, I gasped and put my hand in between, not wanting this feeling of repulsion.

“So am I.” Our body met as the heat diverging from him made a shiver to emerge from me. Liking my horror, his one hand moved to my hairs and twirls his fingers in my hazel lock.

Feeling extremely distressed that I can't even have a single moment of solace here. He leaned in and moved to my ears.

"Are you going to eat alone?" He asked huskily but his demeanor is suggesting something else which I hate from the bottom of my heart.

"I am sure you have already eaten." I tried to say monotonously but failed as the convulsion of dread was visible in my voice.

"If I say I didn't, will you feed me?" He asked as I looked at him with pleading eyes.

“Please let me eat in relief.” I whispered, hoping to maintain a distance between us.

With those bored eyes, he pinched my cheek and said before leaving,

"I am waiting for you in the dining hall. Give me some as well."

I stood there dumbfounded.

What happened?

I was perplexed by this. I remained motionless as I shook my head and regained my posture.

I walked out with two plates of mac n cheese as I served one to him and took a seat and began to eat mine.

He looked at me for a second as my attention was fixed on the food.

He let out a sigh and began to eat his food. I sighed mentally, thanking he didn't forcing me to do what he said earlier.

As we were eating in the silence that always crush me, he said,

"I didn't eat too." Taken aback but decided not to show it as I hummed and replied,

"I don't care.." His words were far too good to be believable, he doesn't care and there's no reason for him to starve himself. Unlike me, who has to eat with him.

I felt his sharp gaze but still not moving up, I tried to remain stoic but failed, letting an ominous chuckle.

“You shouldn’t.” He said sincerely but I shivered in ultimate terror upon hearing this terminal voice as he began to eat too.

After eating, we went to our room. I bit my lips, fearing his desires were not awakened. We entered as he closed the door behind him as I startled in dread.

I turned and looked at him timidly. He noticed my distress and sighed. He put his hand on my shoulder as I let out a heavy pant.

"Sophie..." He called my name softly. I looked at him with my frightened eyes.

"You.. don't have to be like that all the time." He said, trying to reassure me. But I don't feel assured, I feel like he wants me to be terrified of him.

Like he wants me to be afraid of him.

Still, I gave him a hesitant nod. And how much a deceiver he can be as he lean in and complete his sentence as it drowned me in apprehensions,

"Because I love evoking this myself." He pulled away and laid on the bed leaving me numb.

Swallowing hard, I laid on my side. The moment I closed my eyes, He turned to me and smirked at my horrified form.

Fearing the worst, I shut my eyes tightly and move my head to my side, preparing myself for the dreadful moment.

“Don’t vex. I am not doing anything.” He whispered. I felt his lips brush against my skin as I shivered and bit my lips not to feel the pleasure given by his tender touch.

I let out deep breaths as he kissed my neck and whispered,

"So pure..." Pure?! I am not pure anymore, I am defiled by you!

I mentally shouted as I felt him pull away.

I let out a heave of relief as I turned again and felt his back against my back again and fell asleep with those feelings of aversions in my heart like always…