Chapter 84: Chapter 84

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It seems that the breeze is so sad that everyone can't talk because it's so quiet and so dark about in what's happening

After everything that happened in the hospital they decided to bring Ferdinand's body home and then it was buried in their Simoune house, Nanny Lily couldn't get out of her mind what happened so badly that she cried for the second day

Everything that needed to be fixed was fixed and then Simoune's father died peacefully, Bruce also told to Lucy what happened to Ferdinand so they immediately went to Simoune’s house. Lucy and Clarisse was shocked when they saw Ferdinand lying in the coffin they started to cry

"Uncle!? I thought you'd be with us for a long time? I thought you'd be fine? You did even get home when you were taken to the hospital, did you?" Lucy said while crying and hugging Simoune's father

The people are very small and it seems that not a single face you see is filled with sadness and frustration

Since the death of Simoune's daddy, it seems that the joy that surrounds their house has also died. Simoune did not leave her room and did not eat any food that was given to her

SIMOUNE

When I woke up, the darkness, sadness and realization that I can't really be with daddy came to me. I felt the weight of my feelings, I can't explain the wound I have in my chest, I don't know how I will get up from what happened to me now. I really don't know—-

I can't even look at daddy's face in the coffin because I can't, it's so painful to see him lying lifeless in the coffin

I feel like I want to blame myself for what happened, because if I hadn't allowed him to stay longer in their office or if I had picked him up from their office right away, maybe he would still be alive today. If Bruce and I hadn't left when he was rushed to the hospital, I would have gone to talk to him to fight. But I'm not there, I'm not even in the last breath that he has, it's so painful to think that I won't be able to be with daddy anymore

Bruce came into my room with food

"Babe, eat. I know you're not okay because I'm not okay either, but babe, this is the last time you'll see uncle then, you don't you want to see him?" Bruce said

"I ca--ntt see dad-ddyy" I said while I'm crying, Bruce immediately hugged me and kissed me on the forehead

"You have to handle it Simoune, remember that I'm always here for you, I won't let you down. Please, come down and see uncle, I know it will upset you if he finds out that you can't even look at him in his coffin" Bruce said

"Maybe later babe, because now all I want is to have rest" I said

"Eat first babe, I prepared you this" Bruce said while pointing his finger in the food

"I don't feel like eating Bruce, so I hope you understand that I can't eat that. Don't force me" I said

"Alright babe, I'm sorry I'm just worried about your health. Oh go ahead and rest first, I hope you eat later because you didn't eat last night" Bruce said

I lay down again and wrapped myself in a blanket, I heard Bruce's footsteps. I'm sorry, daddy, but I really can't do it yet, maybe later I'll try again, but for now I'm going to cry to everyone in my room

I never thought that daddy's life would end so quickly, I wish my last hug from him would have been tighter, the last I love you from him, I wish I could have touched him more, I wish my last bonding with daddy had made it happier and more beautiful. I wish I had been aware of what could happen, I wish I had stayed by his side and not left him alone, maybe he is still here

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I was taken aback when Bruce and Lucy suddenly entered my room and suddenly stood next to me

"My mom and dad is downstairs, they want to see you" Lucy said

"I'm still not read—" I couldn't finish what I said when I suddenly saw a man outside the door of my room, I knew it was daddy because he was wearing his favorite polo shirt so I immediately went out my room

I didn't see anyone, maybe I missed it but I'm sure it was him I felt sad and disappointed. I couldn't stop crying, maybe daddy is sad because I don't want to see him, so I'm determined to watch over him and accompany him from now on

The three of us went down and many people came to me, uncle and auntie as well as our classmates were here and they hugged me one by one

"Condolence Simoune" Bruce's mother and father said

They hugged me so tight, which made me cry, they calmed me down and talked to me but I didn't focus on it. I saw the white coffin where daddy was lying, I slowly walked towards his coffin and saw him lying lifeless

Daddy, I miss you so much! I want you to come back, I hope you're still here daddy! I hope you are still alive and happy by my side. I just hugged daddy's coffin while I cried, I don't know how to start being okay now that daddy is gone

You don't really know when the borrowed life given by the Lord will be taken away, so we should love and appreciate everyone we love in life while they are still by our side.

Bruce handed me food but because I didn't feel hungry I refused it, Nanny Lily came to me and hugged me

"Simoune, you have to eat what if you are the one who got sick? Don't you think that your daddy will be angry with what you are doing. I know your daddy is worried about you" Nanny Lily said

"Nanny Lily, I really can't do it right now. All I want is to watch over daddy all night long" I said while crying, I don't know how many handkerchiefs I've wet from crying I can't count anymore

"Come here" Nanny Lily said, Nanny Lily hugged me as she patted my back. Somehow I feel better

I stopped crying and seemed to feel sleepy so I didn't realize that I fell asleep in Nanny Lily's arms