Chapter 106: Chapter 106

SIMOUNE

Because I was sad for the past day, I accepted Isha and Anna's offer to go to a bar. It's been almost a week but I'm still very sad and homesick in my room. I didn't tell Bruce about the bar we went to because I knew he would just get mad at me.

After our work, I immediately walked to the hotel and then I got dressed and then we went to the bar

"You seem conservative, Simoune," Isha said

"I really don't want to wear revealing clothes because I came here for fun, not to find a man" I said

"I know you have a boyfriend but it's not bad to have fun right? And you know only us will know when we go to the bar, Anna and I will not leave you" Isha said

"Ah just, I'm better here than what I'm wearing" I said

We started having fun and drinking alcohol. Isha and Anna also know a lot of people here and it looks like they are already fed up with this bar. The alcohol I drank was mixed, so I couldn't help but feel intoxicated, so when I knew I couldn't take it anymore, I immediately invited Isha and Anna.

"Come on, let's go home" I said

"Why, it's too early, I'm not even having fun here, oh, it's better that we introduce you to our friends here. Oh! This is Paul, he's single!" Isha said

"Isha I'm not looking for a boyfriend" I said

"Is that so, just get to know him first while Anna and I are having fun dancing" Isha said

I couldn't do anything because they left me and Paul together, and because I was already feeling dizzy, I forced myself to talk to him soberly.

"Hello, you're from the Philippines, aren't you?" He asked

"Ah yes, I only came here because of my 2 months of work at the company after this I will also return to the Philippines" I said

I couldn't look at Paul's face anymore because my eyes were completely blurry because of how drunk I was

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I woke up to find myself in bed with Paul next to me, so I suddenly stood up and looked for my phone. Because of the drunkness, I can't even look at what's around me properly, I feel very heavy and my head hurts

"Oh? Is Simoune awake?" Paul said

"Yes, and I'm going home" I said

"Would you like me to make you some coffee first? Before you go home?” He said

He immediately came and touched my cheek. I don't know what went through my mind but I was swallowed by temptation and then I kissed him, he immediately kissed me and then laid me on his bed. When he was about to undress me while we were kissing, I suddenly thought of Bruce, so I immediately pushed him and then I left his room and went home

When I got home I didn't know but I hated myself. I just cry and cry. It's not good to trust people I just met, I hate that I don't know how to tell Bruce how to explain what happened to me .

It's 4 in the morning but I'm still sitting and crying. I tried to ask Isha and Anna why they didn't take me from Paul but they didn't reply so I don't think they really considered me a friend because they just used me. I hate and I'm disappointed with myself I don't know why I have to go through this I'm afraid Bruce will leave me because of what I did

I still remember that Lucy told me not to get into trouble, but here I am and I have committed one of the most serious sins to the love of my life. I was shocked when Bruce suddenly called me because he saw that my account was online . I quickly wiped my tears and then faced him with a smile

"Babe, did you wake up this morning? Wait, are you crying? Has something bad happened to you or are you just sad? It's been 1 week, babe, you'll be home in a few days" Bruce said while smiling

I don't know but I suddenly started crying from him, but because I was afraid he would leave me, I didn't tell him what happened to me because I didn't want him to criticize me or he wouldn't be able to leave me. He is the only person who loves me so much that I am very afraid that when he finds out what happened, he will leave me forever

"I'm still homesick babe, and I miss you so much that my feelings are so heavy" I said while crying

"Don't worry babe we will meet again, just be patient. okay? I love you!" Bruce said trying to cheer me up

Our conversation ended when I said that I cried and I was saying that I was just sad because I wasn't with him and I was sad because I was alone. He believed it because what did he know about what was happening to me? It's frustrating to think that I almost cheated on you Bruce and because of that I'm disgusted and disappointed with myself

I know that even Daddy will be disappointed if I tell the story of what happened to me, no matter who I tell, even if it's Lucy, they will be disappointed by what I did. The sin I committed is embarrassing to everyone and even if auntie and uncle were to know, they would be disappointed in me, I was so tired and crying that I didn't realize that I was already lying on the bed and stunned

I think about what other people will say to me and how they will judge me that I'm not the one for Bruce because I cheated on him and almost betrayed him, but I resisted the temptation so I'm disappointed in myself because I hate it and I will never forgive myself for doing this to someone who did nothing but love me and accompany me through the difficult problems I was going through. Disappointing and disgusting!!

Will Bruce ever forgive me for my mistake?