Chapter 28: Chapter 28
"Ava, we need to talk," a figure of a man sitting at the edge of the bed appears as soon as I enter my bedroom half-naked. With the tension headache I have had and being so tired from the long flight, I decided to hit the bed without taking the shower. So I remove my clothes on my way to the bedroom, leaving just my undergarments on me.
But hearing this man scares the hell out of me. I quickly open the light and find something I could use as a weapon. Right there and then, I find Seid sitting, still wearing the same clothes. He must have probably gone straight here.
"What are you doing here, Seid?", I ask him upset by the awkward situation.
"I came here to talk to you since that man didn't have the intention of letting you go, and I just want to say I've missed you, he bluntly responds to my question.
I scoff hearing his answer, "Miss me? Really? For your information Seid, we already broke up a few weeks ago. So don't ever come into my apartment without my permission. And we don't have anything else to talk to. I already told you the problem in our relationship, but you didn't do anything to compromise. And now you'll just show up here as nothing happened? What the fuck," I burst into anger realizing how thick-face can he be.
He takes a deep sigh, "Avery, I already told you the reason why, we will get there once we get married, how hard could it be?"
I smirk at his arrogance and have no recollection of what I already said in our last argument, "So you really think this is all about sex, huh? Once we get married? So, when are you planning to marry me huh? It's been ten fucking years Seid. How long should I wait? I won't marry a guy who loves his job more than me and who uses it and our so-called future when in fact ruining our present. I am done Seigfried. I am so over it. I am so over you."
I let out everything he needs to hear.
He bows his head and clenches his fists and then pounds the bed real hard, then he shouts at me, "I love you, Ava. I love you with all my heart. I can't stand seeing you with that guy. I can't stand seeing you being touched by another guy. I love you, Ava. You know, I do," his screams turn into sobs while on my bed.
"I know. But a relationship isn't about love alone. It's about your respect, compassion, hunger, desire, and longing for one another Seid. I did all of that, but all I got from you is rejection and heartache. I'm through," I sadly tell him.
"You don't understand, Ava. I did it for you," he runs to me and shrugs my shoulder really hard.
"No, no," I push him away, "You don't understand, Seid. You came here to talk and yet, all you do is yap about your feelings and your point of view. You are damn selfish. Did you even think, even just for a second, of the things, even just a single thing, that I told you when I broke up with you?" I scream at him as I pour out all my anger inside, while the tears endlessly flow from my eyes. My heart tightens. My head pulsates.
He looks away and then kneels down before me hugging my waist, his eyes are filled with tears, "Please, Avery. Take me back, I am begging you. I can't live without you. I can't let others, have you. You are mine. You have always been. Please?"
His pleading strikes my heart like a thousand needles poking it. When can he understand what I want? He begs me to come back but he will never know what he has done because he is stubborn. I thought that I am through with him, but seeing him devastated like this, it kills me. It kills me more than seeing Dmitri go away from that car. All I want is a single sorry, for him to admit his wrongdoing. But even that, he can't even manage to get it right. How can I let myself be hurt again?
So I remove his hands from my waist and gently push him on the floor, and distance myself from him,
"I am sorry, we are through. Please leave, Seid."
I turn around so I wouldn't see him once he leaves, or it may change my mind. But an unexpected turn of events happens.
A strong pair of arms, hug me from behind and lock me in his embrace, then he starts kissing my neck and my shoulder without my permission. The scenario brings a chill to my entire body, a chill from fear, instead of pleasure. I struggle to get away from him, but the more I struggle, the more his hands hug me tight.
"Let me go, Seid. What do you think you are doing?" I untangle myself as I try to break free but to no avail. I still feel weak from the travel, headache, and stress, so I speak in a weak voice instead, "Please let me go."
But instead of doing what I ask, his hand starts to travel all over my body, his right hand sliding down the strap of my brassiere and impatiently pulling it down, while his left hand goes in my underwear down. I moan accidentally and groan after feeling his fingers' forceful entry to my womanhood, and an aggressive claim on my breast as he gropes it.
My legs completely weaken with the combination of shock, sexual desire, betrayal, and fear.
"This is what you want, Avery, right? So I will give it to you, right here, right now. I am done restraining myself, so you better brace yourself because I am going to do you hard after seeing you getting intimate with that bastard."