Chapter 39: Chapter 39

We were waiting for our flight to be called. It's already 9 A.M and we will arrived tomorrow in New York. It's would be 17 hours flight.

We're having our vacation for at least a week in U.S. I don’t know how I’ll feel when I step foot there again. I've been there when I was a kid. I just don't know the feels anymore as it was very long time.

I just want to refresh my mind from the things I've been with. First, the arrange marriage, then the unexpected meet up of my ex-best friend. I am no longer know how I would feel about all that was happening. I thought my summer vacation will be boring but it turned out to be unexpected.

Also, someone also motivates me to go there. I don't know what this feeling is. Aside from the happenings, it was like someone I knew wants me to be there. I can't recall someone aside from Cheska and James.

But that would be very impossible though. I don't know where they are. Cheska's account were already deleted as we don't have any communications anymore. We also misses her especially by Zaine. Even me, I don't know where exactly is she. But I'm sure that's she's with her parents.

Soon our flight were called, we immediately assisted by someone. He was in her late 30s, I think, with brush up hair and he looks like someone from the Hollywood actors as he has the looks. He smiled while looking at our luggages. It was surprising that he was alone because of the lot of stuff we were carrying.

“Ma’am, let me assist you,” he politely said. In front of him was Jace who was staring at the man who I think was surprised by his presence.

"Sure." She smiled at the guy before looking away at him.

"Jane, come on."

I heard my older brother's voice behind me so I faced him and nodded slightly. I only have a few things to carry l so I was able to carry them alone. We headed down the path the man had taken earlier and minutes passed, the plane boarded.

I hope this is going to be good.

"Are you okay Jane?" I diverted my gaze to my sister who is beside me. She looks worried all of a sudden.

"Of course Jace," I replied. She looks even curious to me.

"I know you have a problem the day you went to your friend's house."

I looked at her, givng her the looks of disapproval. I don't want to talk about it though. It will just give me nostalgic emotions that I don't want to feel. I don't want to be betrayed again.

Memories were instantly rushing to my head. Even after few years, I still vividly remember what happened. It was very traumatic for me. And seeing the one who made that bad memories were like a nightmare.

Maybe I am in my defense. Maybe I’m still scared to face those events. Maybe I am just acting like I am strong in front of the people who hurt me because I don’t want them to see me at my weakest state again.

"No Jace," I replied. She didn't seems convinced because of the thin lines on her forehead but she just nodded. After that, she gave me a smile.

"If you want someone to talk to, I'm just here." I smiled at her.

"Thank you, Jace."

The plane landed few hours after it was on air. It was really exhausted as I can feel my head was throbbing and also the jetlag. An hour passed and we arrived at my mother's parents' house. She grew up here as she used to do what teenagers of her age did. I bet she's also a liberated kind of person. She didn't just tell us about it because she was busy with work.

I saw my grandmother at the entrance. She was waiting at the front door. There were also some men around the house, as if they were guarding a royalty.

"Mamita!" I ran towards her to give her a hug. She's also like grandma Flores. Caring and loving.

"My granddaughters!" She hugged me back. It was really tight. "I really miss you. It’s been years.”

"I miss you too," I replied with a smile. Mom also hugged grandma and also dad. They even talked about things I barely understood. I also didn't answer their questions about me when lunch arrived on that day.

"Do you have a boyfriend, Jane?" Mamita asked. I shook my head as my respond. She made that 'oh' sound that I did notexpected. "Why?"

“You’re really different. I remember your mother back then when she was your age, she always have her new flings, every week. I thought that you would be like that but she changed when she met your father. ”

I laughed because of what Mamita said. It is very rare to hear something like this one though. My mom is always the silent type, I didn't know that she has this kind of personality.

I wonder how my parents met.

"Mom," Mommy stopped her who was ready to speak again.

"Oh, fine." My mamita said, felt surrendered.

"Why don't you study here, Jane?" My mamita asked again after few talk about my parents' business.

"I don't know mamita, I want to study in the Philippines," I answered politely.

"Why is that?"

"I already have friends there." She nodded at my answer. She also knew about what happened to me a few years ago.

"I thought you forgot about the incident happened?"

I remained silent to what this conversation may lead to. I still don't want to talk about this.

"She's already recovering from that incident, Mamita." My sister replied. I looked at her and thanked her. She nodded and smiled slightly at me.

Mamita also greeted my sister and brother who are now busy managing the company. They looked tired. Somehow I felt that I am just a burden in this family. I felt that I can't do anything to help them. I am still busy exploring myself that I forgot about my responsibilities in my family, and one of it is to help manage the company my parents both worked hard to be one of the best.

But now that they’re having a hard time growing it and need someone else to cling on, it’s stressful for me. It was as if all the responsibilities were rested on me. That if I didn't agree, my parents' hard work would suddenly collapse. And I don’t want that to happen.

Maybe it is time for me to accept my fate. That everything happens to me has a reason. Nobody knows what it is and I will accept it as much as my family accept me for my past mistakes. I am willingly do my part as a member of this family. It may also be the reason for my family to be reunited again.

After my conversation with Chelsea a few days ago, I somehow reflect about my mistakes. I thought I was always right, I thought all my family’s shortcomings, could be replaced and reciprocated. But all of that is just false hope. I also made mistakes as a daughter. Maybe I haven’t shown much love to my family. I didn't exert much effort. Because I wanted so much to have a happy family, I forgot that there is nothing perfect in the world.

And I made my decision about their proposal.