Chapter 51: Chapter 51
Recommended Music For Chapter: Cold by Jorge Mendez
Eren kept on hugging the lifeless body of the demoness he once cared for dearly even when he knew she was already dead, alas, he didn’t let go until he heard the sound of her ribs cracking.
Killing those who betrayed him was always a pleasure, this time however was the exception, for even when he didn’t love her, Eren was always reassured with Geraldine around him, she was always there for him, and the thought of her betraying him and now leaving for good filled him with utter bitterness.
Her presence didn’t have the same effect as Sara’s, but it was always there, like a reassuring figure in the background, he knew it wasn’t fair to think of her that way, but what was fair in this life they had?
Nothing was, this was the kind of world they lived in, one where they were always subjected to pain and loneliness as long as they live.
Placing her body under a tree, Eren closed her wide lifeless eyes, he knew she would have appreciated it if he kissed her one last time, for she loved kissing him as much as she loved breathing, but he couldn’t bring himself to do so, because no matter what, she betrayed him.
And not just that, she deliberately hurt him, not directly but by hurting the woman he loved, in so many ways, the last one being the most evident.
Walking back to where his fair lady was lying, Eren pushed away the bloodied silver locks hiding her face, the grooves were not bleeding anymore but he knew they were never going to heal, that thought pained him so much, for it meant that both of them were going to be reminded with the pain he had put her though each second, it is going to stay there, evident, like an obstacle forbidding them from moving on.
And here he thought he won’t cause her any more pain and suffering, Eren thought with a ghost of a smile, one that only showed how miserable he felt.
Since the very first day he met her, he was nothing to her but a source of pain and more pain, he thought while picking her up, his right arm burning with the weight and contact, but what was his pain compared to hers?
At least he deserved his pain whereas she, she was innocent!
Bringing her closer to his chest, Eren inhaled her sweet smell and smiled sadly, knowing how much he was going to miss her smell, how much he was going to miss her face and her melodic voice, yet also knowing that she didn’t belong to his world, that as long as he keeps her with him, she will always be harmed, his world was filled with monsters just like him, and she, the fair lady, the white jasmine, didn’t belong with the monsters, she didn’t belong to the darkness, and didn’t belong with him.
He was bad for her, Eren admitted it to himself, she was his light in the world, the one who gave his mind and soul enough clarity to escape madness, the one for whom his dead heart learned how to love, and hell, wasn’t it as painful as much as it was sweet?
He on the other hand was her darkness, he did nothing but feed her with false hopes and lies, only to hurt her when she trusted him the most.
Murmuring few hushed words, Eren lifted the spell he placed on her, they were getting closer to their destination, not to mention that it was near dawn which meant that it was almost time for the ceremony.
Eren almost laughed at himself at that moment, for here he was, still planning to use her one more time, but what other choice did he have?
Looking down at her, he noticed how her eyebrows were knitted, she was probably trying to wake up.
While being carried, Sara felt as if she was being pulled out of the deepest well on which she was drowning, not that she minded the drowning, it was the most peaceful feeling she had in so long, the pulling however, was painful.
It started at first as a faint discomfort that slowly turned into a vivid pain which was located mostly on her face, forcing her to wake up.
She was waking up! Sara thought with horror, still remembering what happened the last time she was up, she remembered him, and the things he was about to do to her!
She remembered the glass, and the blood, she remembered the pain and dizziness, and she remembered her desperate hopes, her hopelessness and helplessness, how bad she wanted to die, to leave this world and this life where she had nothing but pain and suffering!
But she didn’t leave! She was waking up in it again, which means her pain is not over yet!
‘Just for once, you bloody Gods, answer my prayers! Make me die!’
But instead of dying, she regained full consciousness!
Even before opening her eyes, Sara felt herself being carried, her side was pressed against something hard, a chest? She asked herself while opening her clear eyes to take in her surroundings.
It was dark all around her, and it took her sometime before figuring what the long shapes were, trees!
She was no longer in that room, nor in the cell! She was out! The trees however didn’t look familiar, for they were not only dark in color but somehow ingulfed in a greyish fog. The air was humid and a scent of moss, dew, and smoke jumped to her noise.
The dark forest!
What was she doing there? And why was everything moving? Or was it her who was being moved?
Looking up at the man who was carrying her so carefully, Sara’s heart almost dropped to the ground and her eyes widened because even in the darkness, she was able to recognize the face of the last person she wanted to see, the last one she saw before trying to end her life, when he was on top of her, eyes clouded with lust as he tried to…
“So, you are awake at last?” Eren sensed her shiver in fear between his arms, and again cursed himself for hurting her so bad, he wished she would for once look at him like she did when she used to think he was her friend whom she had secret feelings for, but he knew he had gone way too far to be granted such a blessing ever again.
Maybe in the next life.