Chapter 150: Chapter 150

Home...

Like a lost traveler who finally managed his way out of the storm and shadows to go back where he belonged.

Sara breathed out the single word that resumed everything she was feeling, her heart ached with delicious pain, similar to the one she was feeling in her core, a sensation of welcomed intrusion that broke into her words softly, offering her love, passion, contain, and healing, it was the ache of having the glaciers melt off her heart for his love to reach it and heal it, caress it like one would do with their crying child to lure him into calmness.

Home...he was her home, the place she has been looking for all along, where her body was sated and relaxed, her mind peaceful and calm, with all the fears and chaos demolished, and her heart stuffed with nothing but love towards the man who was holding her securely in his arms, not too tight, with her head on his chest and his fingers slowly caressing her bare back, there was no other word to describe the way he made her feel but home, a real one where she truly belonged, her, Sara, just the way she was, bare to her reality without all the spices she used to add to her identity to get people to love her, with him there was no need for all of that, there were no need for all the layers, his heart was where she felt loved and accepted, his embrace was where she felt safe a contained, with him, there was no need to hide or fake anything, he made her feel enough and more, he loved and cherished every part of her, and cast light on her insecurities hiding in the corners where the light couldn't reach.

To think they were actually there, Sara smiled at the thought, after everything they have been through, she was lying in bed with the same demon who tricked her and hurt her, the one she swore to loath and end, but as time passed, she realized he wasn't as black as she thought he was same as she wasn't as white as she believed herself to be, they were both grey with different shades, they were so similar, with a cruel past that placed them in each other's way only for them to twist it in the end, turning it into a straight path forward, taking them towards the future, together with their hands joined, and that journey started in that bed, where they not only shed their clothes but their walls.

His love, was there anything stronger than the love he had for her? Sara asked herself as she admitted that for the sole step she took his way, he has taken many many steps towards her, it was his love that pulled them out of that pit of hatred to where the light and warmth were, it was his love that resisted all the hate and despise so they could be at last where they were, happy in each other's arms.

Slowly and discreetly, Sara tilted her head up to look at her demon's face, his eyes were closed, giving her the perfect opportunity to stare at him, take in his beauty and how peaceful and serene he looked, his jaw was relaxed, his nose straight and small, and his lips tasty and inviting as they were set together in what looked like a ghost of a smile as he laid beside her in comfortable silence.

Unable to resist the urge to touch him once again, to kiss his perfect lips and feel their softness against hers, Sara reached up and placed what felt like the touch of a feather on the corner of his mouth, the small action making her skin tingle with excitement, causing her lips to shiver and her throat to tighten with want and desire, for even when they had just made love and she had given him her virginity, she still wanted more of him, as if it was painful to stay away and refrain from touching him, from taking him in, like air.

Once she retreated, Sara allowed her fingers to replace her lips and touch his, feeling the way they stretched to form a warm smile and then lightly kiss the tips more than she saw it, and even when his eyes were still closed, she knew how much love they carried behind the closed eyelids and the curtains of black lashes.

"Aren't you going to sleep?"

"I was sleeping, my fair lady, until you decided to molest me while I was!" Eren smiled wider, his arms tightening around her frail body while he shifted in his place, feeling his body awakening again with her every touch and the desire they carried.

"If that was molesting, then what do you call the things you did?" Eren couldn't help but laugh at the way she sounded, embarrassed and offended, his hands resumed caressing her soft skin lovingly as he opened his eyes to look at her, and just as he wished, she was there, real and alive and naked in his arms.

"You can sleep, I am not going anywhere," Sara whispered softly, suppressing a contented moan when his hands moved to caress the skin of her thighs and lower back, bringing back all the erotic images of when his hands were there, holding her tightly while he pleasured her with his mouth, his fingers, and his manhood, he was so big and so warm inside her, and yet her tightness welcomed him and the pain and pleasure he brought as if he was the missing piece of the puzzle that was her body.

arms around her as he shifted his waist to lay on his side, facing her.

"I am afraid the moment I slip off to sleep, I would be awake, and this would all be another dream." Eren admitted while shifting to his side to face her, he wanted to see her, more and more just to assure that she was indeed there with him, the smell of her arousal filled his nostrils and he breathed it in hungrily, feeling his own arousal growing.

"Another?" Sara smiled at him, an amused look on her beautiful eyes as she playfully asked "So you had such dreams before?"

"You fill my every waking and sleeping thought, my fair lady…" Eren was impressed by how bold she was and he loved it, he always imagined that she would be shy and reserved when it came to sex but she wasn't, she was a woman embracing her desires and opening up to the man who promised to give her that besides his all.

"The things I want to do to you, the ways I want to have you, the times I want to take you, over and over again, and hear you saying my name with that breathy voice of yours every time I am inside you, the way you cry for me when you approach your release, or the way your walls tighten around my length and bathe me with your flowing juices when I make you reach your peak…"

"Stop it!!" And there she was, his embarrassed fair lady whose cheeks were tainted red as she couldn't handle to talk about the things they did, making him chuckle at how cute she looked.

"It is kind of surprising, to hear you saying that you were afraid…" Sara shook her head as she announced, hoping to distract him enough from saying more, it was strange, how the actions didn't embarrass her but the talk about it did, not to mention the fact that it only aroused her more.

"We have been surprising ourselves and each other all night I presume."

"I must agree with you on that..." Sara stopped talking for a moment, gathering her thoughts, "Since I unleashed that storm, and with it the rest of my divinity, I have been feeling different.."

"Different how?" Eren frowned slightly while caressing her cheek, she looked perfectly fine to him, and yet, what if she wasn't and he had missed it?

"It is as if my eyes are now able to see things more clearly, as if I am having a peek from above, and with that, I found myself finally able to connect the dots and see the biggest picture, I was finally able to understand everything, including myself and what I wanted, and I reached the conviction that I deserve what I want, what my heart wants, I deserve my chance at happiness.."

"And you believe that your happiness is with me?"

"I know it is!" Inching towards his body, Sara placed her palm gently on each side of his face, caressing it the same way his words did to her heart, "It was your presence that I craved in my loneliest, but also when I was surrounded by the closest people to me, that night in the forest, being with you was enough, but it wasn't the case with my family or anyone even when they did nothing but shower me with love, when the storm ended, I wished for nothing but your arms to collect me, I wished for nothing but to be with you, for you were what my heart and soul needed…" Sara breathed out the words close to his face, too close to the point where she felt she was pouring them directly into his parted lips, it was another wall that needed to be taken down, one that she enjoyed taking down, the one built with doubt.

"I am sorry I let him get to you before me!" Sara felt the passing stiffness and saw the anger and regret in his eyes, once again he was blaming himself for her agony.

"It was inevitable, Eren, and it led us to where we are now, out of the past chains and shackles." Running her thumb over his lips, Sara smiled when he took it in his mouth and suck on it gently, the gesture once again bringing the images of how his lips enclosed on her buds and her entrance, or when her lower lips enclosed on his length as he pushed inside of her, causing her whole body to arch up and welcome him inside.

"Tell me something about you, Eren…" Sara asked, clearing her head from all the lust that began to gather inside her even when she wanted nothing more but to have him inside her again, and then again and again, however, she felt as if making love had to wait, not while she still didn't know much about him, not while he still had walls on his own, surrounding him and hiding him from her, she allowed him in, and then it was his turn.

"Like what…" Eren looked up for his gaze to meet the black ceiling, his eyes clouded with bitter sorrow as he seemed to be possessed by the painful past.

"I just want to know you…"

"You might not like…no, you will not like what are you going to hear." He warned her, a silent plea in his eyes for her to understand him, to not judge him as everyone did…

"Maybe you are right, maybe I won't like the things I am going to hear, but I will stay, and we will overcome them, please Eren, trust me!" Trust my heart, trust my feelings, and trust my love for you and that it is strong enough to survive, to pull you out of the same pit I was in until your love pulled me, Sara wished to say but didn't, for reasons she didn't understand.

"My father, Duke Salvatore, was a ruthless and despicable man with a dark secret, a secret so old as his roots, for his great grandfather was a shadow demon, one of the strongest and purest that came from the decency of Eren Yoren, this demon, like many, was obsessed by a beautiful human woman, the Salvator young Duchess and the sole heir to her family's wealth, obsessed demons are not exactly known for their courtesy and manners, my fair lady, so he did something he shouldn't to the poor woman, however, the offsprings of his forced mating with her were never what he wished for, the children and their children, they were all humans, at least that is what everyone thought."

"Their demon halves were dormant, just like my divine half." And it was probably due to the forced bond, Sara concluded, encouraging him to go on with his story as she sensed his reluctance, and to be honest, she was reluctant too, as she sensed the darkness of the path this story was going to take them, but not enough to leave him midway when he already began to talk.

"My father was the heir to the Duchy of Salvator, his parents died early, leaving him with immense wealth and a sick sister whom he was responsible for, a delicate woman with the most beautiful eyes that resembled lakes of honey, Dorsa, her name was." Sara stiffened as she heard those words, her mind going to the darkest thoughts even when she didn't want to…it couldn't be.

"Dorsa...as in, the black pearl?"

"They were her favorite, and that pearl I gifted to you, it was hers..."

"So, she was..."

"You guessed right, that ill sister was my mother." Eren looked at her with a sad expression, one that told the fair lady in his arms about the pain he was feeling.

"A…and your father?"

"The Duke everyone thought was a respectable man, the one who was already happily married to an equally despicable woman who gave birth to his two legitimate sons, and yet, one day when his frail sister was taking her bath, he walked in on her, a little drunk, but not to the point of not realizing what he did, and he raped her, the same way his grandfather did the duchess, she fought him that day, nail and tooth, but eventually he overpowered her and raped her on the cold marble of the bathroom, inside her home, the pain and evil of the deed awaking the demon blood in their joined blood and creating a freak out of it, one with thick demonic blood which was too heavy on the little human blood it carried. And that freak was me."

"Eren.." Sara sobbed, inching closer towards him, feeling his pain stabbing her in her heart, but it wasn't her heart she pitied, it was his, a pain so heavy and so great which he carried in his every cell.

"After his crime, the duke, who had the whole wealth to himself while his sister had nothing, sent her away to the small Salvator residence in the forest, away from the capital, and there she gave birth to the son she refused to give up on, the son was claimed by the Duke and Duchess as theirs to avoid the scandal, but he remained with his mother who raised him on her own, giving him all her love and care, my mother was forced to bear the consequences on her own, her pregnancy was hard, her delivery was harder, but she never gave up on me, if anything, she loved me so much and protected me, even when she knew that I wasn't dormant like the rest of the Salvators, she hid that fact as she knew they would kill me for it, and fed me not only with her milk, but with her blood…

We lived for two years in that residence, I was too young but I still have fragments of memories, of mother singing to me, of her hiding me when my father came to the residence, once again drunk with ill intent, I heard her muffled screams and his disgusting groans, she was his sister!"

Sara reached up to kiss the side of his set jaw, her fingers brushing his hair gently, reassuring him while hiding her own shock, thick blooded! Now she understood what it meant, and to think that he was the outcome of his mother's suffering…

"It is okay, you don't have to continue.."

"I do, Sara, this is not all, this is merely the beginning…" seeing the intensity and worry in his eyes, Sara smiled reassuringly at him, even when her heart was bleeding for him, there was so much pain in his past, and something told her there was more to come…

"One day, the duke, his wife, and their second son came to the residence, the duchess liked to do that in order to humiliate my mother, not knowing that it was her own husband who raped and impregnated her, that day, my mother and I were strolling the woods, I loved those times as a kid, for they were the times when I was allowed to play freely without paying attention to my surroundings, I could run and jump and climb and roll as fast as I could, which was faster than humans, of course, that day, I climbed The highest tree as I was playing hide and seek with mother, but the duke followed us, probably to have a way with mother, and I saw it, what he did to her, I saw it all, how she fought him and tried to get away, how she screamed for help and for me to look away and not look, she fought with all her strength, but it was of no veil as he was much stronger, eventually, he didn't just rape her, he killed her…"

"And you saw it!"

"I did, I saw mother laid on her stomach with her arms twisted behind her back, I saw the cloth my father pushed inside her mouth to prevent her from screaming, I saw the way he ripped her dress and undergarments, I saw the way he pressed her chest on the ground with his foot on her back, I saw the way she inched forward with pain written all over her face when he pushed inside her so callously, I saw the way her body trashed and jerked before it stilled and life left her beautiful eyes, and I saw him, uncaring of what happened as he finished what he was doing, she was dead! And yet he kept on going until he finished, and that is when it happened, my demon blood resurfaced, clouding every shred of humanity I had inside me, I became a mindless beast that craved blood, any blood, and I jumped at him from the tree, directly biting his neck, I tasted his blood on my tongue, it tasted like mud but I didn't care, I kept on biting, he was hurting my mother and I wanted to hurt him, I killed him that day!"

Sara stared at him with eyes filled with tears, just imagining the little boy he was, watching his mother being raped and killed before the demonic blood took over.

"The duchess and her son came to see what was going on, and at that time, I…I wasn't even thinking, I thought they were a threat, so I attacked them too, the duchess died on spot, and the injured little duke, after trying to stab me ran away, wounded, and told the guards about me, he died eventually, my own brother, he was a child, and I killed him..."

"You were a child two, Eren, two for the sake of love!"

"A lot of guards came, they captured me, tortured me for days in unspeakable ways, they beat and starved me, before throwing me to the edge of the dark forest to be devoured by the demons, and a demon came indeed, his name was Joseph, and he saved my life."

"Eren…" Sara whispered softly, sitting up straight, not minding her nakedness as she gently took his head and placed it on her bare thighs, she didn't know what else she could do to make him feel better, his pain was just too much for one person to take, and he took it when he was merely two years old.

"Don't cry, love, it was a long time ago!" Eren wished he could say that it made him who he was that day, but he wasn't so proud of himself, and especially not the things he did to her.

"I knew nothing about the life of a demon, and all the chaos and pain and fear caused me to lose my mind, it was clouded by survival instincts, and I lived like a beast, every single day was a struggle to survive, until one day, I saw the light!" Eren smiled at the memory as he stretched his hand to cup her cheek as he answered the unspoken question he read in her eyes "You, my fair lady!"

"Me?" Eren smiled warmly at her shocked expressions before he told her what she did not remember, how they met when they were kids, how she offered him her cookie, and how she saved him from himself and his madness.

"I can't believe it was you." Sara smiled before leaning forward to capture his lips with hers, her entire world feeling alright as he finally allowed her in, told her about his weakness, his pain, his suffering, and all the things that made him the man he was.

…….

"I can not stop myself from wanting you!" Eren smiled at the breathy way she said those words after the round they had, he already lost counts for how many times they made love, and in each time, something in both of them moved, like a bond being formed, knot by knot, their bodies felt complete while joined, their hearts beat like one, their breaths came out together, it was strange but so convenient.

"My lord, you have a message from the human king." The feminine voice had the two of them grunting at the unwanted intrusion, for they had both forgotten that a world existed outside the walls of his bedroom where everything was alright.

"One second!" Eren ordered the demoness as he continued to kiss his fair lady passionately.

"I think it would take more than a second!" Sara joked while kissing him back, welcoming his urgent touches on her body, he expected her to be sore but her body kept on healing itself, turning the pain into pleasure, and with that knowledge, their lovemaking became wilder, rawer, more urgent, and more intense, matching the way they felt, the way they made each other's hearts explode.

"My Lord?" A masculine voice called from outside the door, making Sara stiffen in her man's embrace, the voice...

The voice was familiar…

"This is Joseph, I guess it is urgent after all!" Eren said tiredly as he slowly stood up, picking up the small robe which he wore quickly before bending over to kiss his fair lady who suddenly stiffened...

"This time, it would really take a second!" Eren said playfully, thinking his fair lady was displeased with him for leaving her to see what Henry wanted, but before he could reach the door, she jumped from the bed to stop him...

"He is here, he is one of them!"