Chapter 149: Chapter 149

As the carriage rolled away from the edge of the dark forest,Eren felt his heart sink more into that puddle of bitterness and self-pity, changing back into his human form, he allowed the composed expression to fall off his face and be replaced with a dejected one, even when he tried his hardest to suppress that selfish part of him which was bleeding with all the pain he was feeling and just be happy for his fair lady and how good things had turned out for her, he just couldn't, the feeling of being neglected and left behind was too heavy on his chest to ignore, he wasn't a saint even when his own name told so, he wasn't as selfless as his fair lady, he was happy for her, but that didn't stop him from feeling sorry for his own pitiful state.

And the bitter loneliness returned, Eren thought when the carriage was no longer to be seen, too distant with his fair lady in it, and only then did he turn to eye the mess he was surrounded with, blood and destruction, the walls and roof that defined what used to be his fair lady's shack were nothing more than broken bricks scattered all over the place, a pool of her blood drying in the middle, luckily he was there to push some of his energy through her wounds as he wrapped her with his shadows, the contrast of the two opposite energies triggered her healing and regeneration, otherwise, she would have been in a critical state, suffering from the blood and energy loss.

He managed to save her and kill one of her enemies, Eren thought as every cell in his body screamed in pain, the pain caused by the disequilibrium in his powers, this time, it wasn't the creation energy that dominated his being but the other way around, it was the dark energy, for he had used Ayartma's powers to kill the bastard named Nov, causing his dark one to dominate his being again, and with it came the madness.

The bitterness.

And loneliness.

There he stood, alone, surrounded by the carnage, and suddenly, he didn't know what to do next, he felt as if he was no longer needed, his fair lady wasn't just so powerful on her own, too powerful to bring the world to its knees, but she was surrounded by the people she loved, her family, she no longer needed him for whatever comfort he was providing and walked away, leaving him without her, but the life he had before her looked so colorless and lifeless.

There was no life before her, only a journey of constant fights for survival, she was the one who brought peace and warmth into his life, and without her, he didn't know what to do.

Sighing, Eren turned towards the dark forest and began to walk, slowly, there was nothing rushing him, nothing waiting for him, just the emptiness that he knew would be filled with thoughts about her which would lead to more self-pity, instead, he walked through the dark forest, once again feeling as if he was the same deranged child, roaming between the bushes and trees, not knowing where to go, what was his next move and what was lurking between the shadows, he wasn't a child anymore, he wasn't afraid, but he was just as lost.

Reaching his castle at last, Eren was met with the worried eyes of his old advisor, and even when he felt that there was so much filling his chest, he couldn't find the words to describe it, nor the will to as he knew it wouldn't change anything, it wasn't Joseph that he needed, it was her, so instead of talking to the man who was always there to listen, he only shook his head and entered the dark castle, going straight to his bathroom where he stood under the drizzle of hot water, a part of him wanted to drink his sorrow away, but the thought of what he did to his fair lady while being drunk stopped him from even thinking about that.

How could he? Eren asked himself, letting the hot droplets scorch his skin as they cleaned it off the blood and debris, the physical pain was more bearable than the one on his heart, a good distraction that he didn't think he deserved but still needed, it prevented him from thinking any further, all while he tried to avoid the gloomy thoughts, he didn't want to think, he just wanted to feel numb, but instead, he felt something, a soothing touch on his sore shoulders.

It felt like heaven, Eren sighed blissfully while closing his eyes, thankful for his twisted mind for conjuring such sensations, it felt so real, so soft, and the smell that came with it, his fair lady's with a hint of strawberries, just like her lips.

"You are hurting yourself!" Just how sweet can one whisper be? Even if it was the making of his own mind, she sounded so sweet and so worried for him, and it felt more soothing and anodyne, replacing his pain with a strange satisfaction and desire.

The perfect fantasy of her with him in his bath, close, and just that, close, he wished for nothing more.

"Look at me, Eren!" Why did it feel so real? Why was something pressed to his back, a body, a warm one that he craved more than his next breath?

Turning slowly, the first thing that met Eren's eyes were the wet silver locks, so beautiful and unique in their color and softness, surrounding the face of his beloved who looked up at him with pure eyes filled with love and longing, both shy and fierce, unable to hold back, he lift his hand to remove the wet locks that prevented him from seeing her face clearly, her flushed cheeks and her scars, she felt so real, but unlike what her real self would do, this perfect illusion leaned into his touch, welcoming it as his hand cupped her face.

"My fair lady..."

"My demon..." Sara whispered back, the intensity in his eyes inviting her more to lose herself in his touch, just like his whole being was, every cut in his perfect body that was bare to her eyes, just like his heart was, and only then did the annoying sensation of missing stopped, her happiness couldn't be complete without him and she knew it, for he, and not anyone else, was the one that held the biggest portion of her heart, the one that was bruised and cracked but also fierce and filled with life, filled with her, her whole, including her past that only he knew about and contained with his affection, and for him she was willing to give in, to let go of all the pain and hurt and whatever grudges and doubts she still carried.

"You are here..." Eren smiled softly at the beautiful illusion that smiled back at him so lovingly, she was so perfect, her scent was perfect, her touches were perfect, the way her pink lips curled up to smile like a supreme being was perfect, her nearness was perfect.

"You are here!" He said again, this time his smile dropping to be replaced by a confused expression as he took a step back from her, his eyes clouded with fear even when the desire in them was still lingering in the corners.

She was there, for real, looking like a dream, the silky beige robe she was wearing was wet and sticking to her body, blessing his eyes with the sight of her feminine curves, the swell of her breasts, the thinness of her waist, and the roundness of her hips, she looked like a blessing offered to him, but what if she wasn't?

What if this was just his dark mind tricking him to think that she was there willingly, just like it did before which almost ended with him breaking her irrevocably.

Sara watched as he took another step back before his face was turned to the side and his jaw was set firmly, looking everywhere but her, the sight pained her heart for a second but she pushed that aside, he was just scared, scared to harm her, it was obvious in his eyes, in his actions, and doubt wasn't something she was going to give in to any longer, he was her man, her demon, she trusted his love, and trusted the voice of the woman she had become that told her that the gap was only a step wide, a step she had to cross so they could be together at last.

Taking that step, Sara pressed her body once more to his, her beautiful demon, he was so beautiful indeed as he stood under the hot water, bare and wet, and before he could take a step back or push her away, she cupped his face in both her hands and stood on her toes, her face inching toward his slowly, and for a second he reminded her of a scared animal that she had to approach slowly and calmly to not scare it away, he stilled with her actions and met her longing eyes, filled with everything he didn't say while the fear and doubt in them were slowly fading to be replaced by the raw affection he had for no one but her, more and more as she touched his lips with hers, the way a feather would fall on a mattress, there was no need to rush, she thought as she slowly moved her lips, caressing his as if they were the frail petals of jasmine, they had all the time for themselves, and the taste of him was so intoxicating and right she wanted to savor every bit of it, sucking on his lower lips softly and licking the line between them.

"Kiss me…" she breathed out, patiently waiting for him to open up to her, to give in and dive into this pool of pleasure with her, bare of all the fears and scars of the past, which he did eventually as he started kissing her back with the same pace, slow and soft, his lips parting to allow her tongue to meet his while his hands circled her waist and caressed her back.

Sara did not know for how long they kissed, but she couldn't complain, it was so sweet and heady, so fulfilling, but the urge to have more of him and give him more of her was begging her for more, breaking the kiss, she looked into his deep red eyes, her breaths coming out in satisfied pants just like his, taking a daring step back, she untied the band of her robe, slowly without breaking the eyes contact, and then her hands moved up to remove the robe and let it slide off her body, leaving her exposed to his eyes, bare and wet, just like he was.

She barely recognized herself, Sara thought, chuckling internally at the way her younger self would have shied away and panicked, but she wasn't that girl anymore, this was what she wanted, the hanger in his eyes was but another encouragement, and so was the way his body reacted to the sight of her nakedness as his eyes looked at her like one would look at his own Goddess, his muscles tensed and his manhood hardened as they stared at each other, him with a heated gaze and her with an inviting smile.

"Come to me..." Eren felt as if he was hypnotized by her and her actions, his legs moved to go to her as she ordered, his fair lady was so fierce and he loved it, pushing his fears aside, he stood next to her, allowing her the full control over him as she closed the remaining distance and circled his neck with her arms.

"I want you…" before he could say anything or object, Sara kissed him again, this time more urgently, her lips pressing on his with more force, before she whispered again...

"Let us leave all the past and its fears in the past, tonight, just be mine and have me as yours, want me as I want you, I want to feel you in ways I never felt, touch me…"

As if her words were the only thing he needed, Eren kissed her back ferociously, feeding on her lips as if they were his last meal, his Arms, instead of resting on her back moved to her knees, hugging her as he carried her, her legs locking around his waist immediately as his hardness pressed against her sex, making her feel things she never felt before, a delicious pain in her abdomen which turned into heat that spread all across her body but mostly her warm hole, making her needy and impatient, it was all new to her, the tightness she felt in her lower back, the pain on her hardened nipples that brushed against his hard chest, the warm wetness that began to gather on her lower lips and entrance, she felt both heady and needy, not paying attention to her surroundings until she felt him place her gently on a soft surface, his bed.

Opening her eyes which she had closed at some point, Sara stared at her beautiful demon, towering her while she laid on his bed, her legs spread for him, cold air brushing her wet lips and making her shudder, but not as much as the hungry look on his eyes.

"Are you sure about this, Sara?" He asked her again, barely holding himself from devouring her, she looked more beautiful than his most beautiful dream, innocent yet wanting, spread on his bed with her eyes begging him to take her, it felt all surreal, too good to be true, but her next words washed away what was left of his fears.

"I am, I want you, Eren, more than anything, my one and only, my demon, mine..."

Hovering over her with her legs resting on each side of him, Eren cupped her face as he kissed her, whispering loving words between the kisses while his hand caressed her waist and side, by the time she was left breathless by the kiss, he released her lips to kiss her jaw, her neck, and then her breasts, making her moan with pleasure as he licked her hardened bud slowly before taking it in his mouth, making her arch her back and breath out his name.

She was so sensitive, so sensual, every reaction of hers, every voice that left her mouth was sending waves of pleasure into his system, giving similar attention to her other breast, he moved downwards, leaving a trail of kisses on her belly until he settled between her thighs, the smell of her arousal driving him mad with lust but also a deep love for this one woman who was his entire world.

"What are you doing?" Sara asked while looking at him, Her elbows supporting her as she didn't know where her strength went, she was one hot mess under him, not knowing what he was about to do until he spoke, his voice vibrating next to her entrance making it clench and throb.

"Loving you" were his simple words as his fingers parted her lips and collected the dew on them while she moaned out loud, she was so beautiful, like a flower on a spring morning, "you smell so good" he breathed in her scent before his tongue peeked out, licking her from her entrance to her hardened button, "and you taste better than life.." that was an understatement, she tasted better than that, life was bitter sometimes but she was all pure and sweet, Eren thought while Sara threw her head back, a silent moan leaving her mouth as her core tightened, she didn't even bother to hide the way he was affecting her, his tongue devoured her, licking her as if she was dripping with life elixir, making her more wet and needy...

"Ahhhh" Sara arched again, her hand grabbing his hair when his warm tongue sneaked inside her, making her whole body shiver but she didn't stop him nor did he stopped as he entered her several times with his tongue, making her wetter for him...

"Eren..."

Getting back to her lips, Eren kissed her ferociously, stealing her breath away while letting her taste herself on him, the tip of his hardness settled on her entrance while his hands lifted her legs to rest them on his thighs, he was warm against her, his tip nudging her needy entrance…

"Do you trust me?" Sara stared at him for a second, taking in his beauty, he was perfect, and the way he was making her feel only intensified the feelings she had for him, wrapping her arms around his neck, she kissed him softly "More than anything and anyone, my demon, make me yours!"

With a slow and patient thrust, Eren pushed inside her, kissing her on the way to distract her from the pain, but the pain didn't bother her that much even when it was intense, if anything, it was the sweetest pain she ever felt, it was a pain mixed with love, satisfaction, need, and pleasure, a pain that broke the last wall between them, the one that kept them apart, she loved that man, she thought as she felt him deep inside her, hard and thick, stretching her walls that welcomed him as if he was the part she always missed, and he was, in every way, he was the darkness that sheltered her,  the night where she rested her tired body and soul.

"Are you okay?" Sara only kissed him as an answer, for she felt better than okay, she felt filled and complete, her walls squeezed him, urging him for something that came right away as he started moving, slowly, bringing waves of pleasure with each thrust, especially when his pace picked it to speed, causing her to lose her ability to form appropriate words, only his name remained on her tongue as she called out for him over and over again, her orgasm building up in her lower abdomen with each time he hit her sensitive spot until something broke inside her, liberating all the built-up tension in a one heavenly second where she felt as if her whole body was made of clouds, so beautiful and satisfying, and just right after her she felt him quicken her pace before he spread his warmness inside her.

Falling next to her on the bed, Eren pulled her over his chest and kissed her with so much heat, he was panting just like her, his heart hammering his chest, and just as they both descended from the high cloud they were in, he hugged her softly qs she nuzzled against him, one word leaving her mouth…

Home.