Chapter 21: Chapter 21

He used the stick thing attached to his machine to slowly go over my stomach starting from just under my ribs. I lay there irritated with the fact that I was even in this position, I knew nothing was wrong with me but Thiago insisted on causing a big issue. Eventually the doctor made it down to my lower stomach and suddenly the sound of a heartbeat filled the room. Everyone was silent as my eyes widened at the sound of the faint heartbeat. "Sophie it looks like you're just over 2 months pregnant. Congratulations."

I felt tears well up in my eyes at the sudden news which was going to change my life forever.

"Grazie, puoi venire a trovarla presto per un seguito, ha solo bisogno di tempo ora."

(Thanks, you can come and see her soon for a follow up, she just needs time now.) Matteo spoke to the doctor and showed him out, he came back in to the silent room. All four of us were quiet for a while before Angelo spoke.

"We'll give you two some space. Congratulations." I felt a hand on my shoulder but I didn't move my eyes away from my stomach, I heard Thiago speak to his brother and his best friend before they left us alone.

"Sophie are you okay?" I looked at Thiago who's eyes were slightly red. I nodded and slowly stood up off the couch, I went to pass him but he caught my hand before I could. I shook my head at him and pushed him away from me, I went upstairs without saying a word to him.

I knew he wouldn't like the way I acted because Thiago and I are a lot closer now, so pushing him away from me like that definitely would piss him off. Even though we argue the same amount as before he's never shouted at me as much as he did that night. He controls his temper much better and he's also more caring and thoughtful towards my feelings, I think what happened really did scare him into changing how he behaves around me. We're intimate and affectionate towards each other but we hardly ever do anything past kissing, just because we're both so busy and by the time it comes to the evening we're tired. On weekends Thiago sometimes goes off to do something dangerous and I do all the food shopping for the week and the house work which doesn't get done while I'm working at the school. If neither of us are busy on the weekend, which is rare, then we spend time together. But that has hardly ever happened over the last two months. I stood in the middle of our bedroom, placing a hand on my flat stomach. I didn't even know I was pregnant all this time, with Thiago's baby. I've just been getting on with my own things trying to pass time and build my career again from the start after moving to Italy and having to learn a whole new language.

My mind was overwhelmed with all the thoughts and feelings I had about my pregnancy at once; I was happy and excited to have a baby of my own who I already knew I loved with all my heart. But I was also scared, worried, angry and anxious. All in one go.

I heard the door open behind me and I turned around to see Thiago staring at my stomach. I could tell he was feeling exactly the same way as me, even though his whole idea of marrying me was so that I could have his children for the mafia, he didn't seem as satisfied as I initially thought he would be when the time came.

"This changes everything Sophie." Thiago was acting like he had to deal with this in the same manner he would conduct business in the mafia; cold and distant. "What do you mean?"

"You need to quit your job. This house is going to be under 24 hour surveillance, you don't talk to anyone that I don't know about and you don't go anywhere without me. Do you understand?" I wasn't surprised that he was being so strict but I wasn't expecting him to basically put me under house arrest.

"No Thiago. You can't do that, I get that it's your baby and you want to protect it but I'm still going to live my life. I'm not going back to being locked away at home everyday alone." His glare intensified and he came toward me. "I don't give a fuck about you right now Sophie, you're not risking my baby's life."

"You think I would risk our baby's life?" I actually couldn't believe he would ever think that. "Thiago, our baby's life is more at risk because of you and your lifestyle, not because of me." I knew I shouldn't have said that as soon as I saw the look of hurt on Thiago's face, his face quickly became void of any emotion.

"We need to talk properly tomorrow, just take a nap, you need to rest." I scoffed at the way he was just going to end the conversation there. I wasn't about to let him dictate the way I live my life during my pregnancy.

"I'm not going to sleep Thiago. I don't care how well we've been getting on over the last few months, this is all your fault. It's all your fault we're about to bring a baby into our twisted life. It's your fault our baby could die at any second because of all the enemies you have."

"I'm warning you Sophie, shut the fuck up." I stubbornly stepped towards him knowing there was no way he would lay a hand on me knowing I was pregnant. "It's your fault our baby could die because of your temper."

"At least I didn't try to fucking kill myself. You could be the fucking reason that baby dies, what if you go back to being crazy and try and kill yourself? What if I'm not there to stop you?" My hand swung out before I could even think about what was going on, but if I did think about it, it wouldn't have changed what I did. I would slap him again if I had the chance.

Thiago's eyes were blazing with anger as he stared at me, usually I would have cowered back in fear but this time I was hurt, pregnant and furious. He seemed to be struggling to keep his temper in control, his fists were clenched and his jaw was tightened as he glared at me. He didn't know what to do because for once he couldn't hit me and he knew it.

"You're a fucking bitch Sophie. If you fucking think I give a shit about anything you want over the next seven months, you're wrong. You'll fucking do what I tell you to do, I may not be able to hurt you but I can always hurt your precious family back in London."

"You wouldn't hurt them.." My voice broke as I spoke knowing what I said was far from the truth. He's a killer and that's what they do. He gave me a sadistic smirk and leaned down kissing my cheek, his lips caused a fearful shiver to go down my spine leaving me frozen and allowing him to whisper in my ear. "Try me tesoro." He turned away from me, grabbing his jacket as he got ready to leave.

The more I watched Thiago go back to his old ways, the more I didn't want this baby. I didn't want to have a baby like this, in this house with Thiago leading such a dangerous life and the fact that my baby will end up in the same life as his father. I didn't want any of it. The next words that came out of my mouth shocked both Thiago and I.

"I'm going to get an abortion." Thiago slowly turned to face me, shock clearly written on his face. "What?" I ignored Thiago and walked out of our bedroom to find my phone and make an appointment with a clinic. I thought I wanted it out of me as soon possible and that it was the best thing for all three of us.

"Sophie!" I jumped at the sound of Thiago's furious shout from our room but I carried on down the stairs to search for my phone. I found it in the kitchen and picked up my Iphone 8, seconds later it was knocked out of my hand shattering on the floor.

"My phone! Thiago what the fu-" Thiago cut my sentence off by pushing me against the counter, his arms keeping me in place. "You're not killing our baby." His breathing was hard and fast as he glared at me, hate evident in his eyes. "I didn't know you were capable of that."

"I'm not! Do you think it would be easy for me? But I'm not about to bring a baby into our fucked up life Thiago! Look at the way we argue, we always go round in circles, I'm fucking bored of it. If you can't support me and take care of me properly, then what's the point? I want to do this together, not on my own."

"You won't be alone." I scoffed and tried to push him away but he didn't budge. "I'm tired of this Thiago. You either promise me right now you won't become over protective and possessive, or I'll make an appointment for a termination. It's your choice. No more threats, no more arguing. We either do it together or not at all."

He stood in silence for a while deep in thought, eventually he met my eyes and nodded. "I promise." I nodded slowly as Thiago moved away to give me some space. "Fine."

My eyes landed on my broken phone on the floor but Thiago spoke before I could. "I'll get you a new one." I nodded and made my way back up to the exit of the kitchen, ready to take a much needed nap.

"Sophie you need to eat." I stopped in my tracks and turned around whilst shaking my head. "I don't think I can stomach anything right now."

"What do people usually eat when they're in your situation?" I rose an eyebrow in amusement at his confusion. "My situation?" He nodded and ran a hand through his hair uncomfortably. "Night sickness isn't it?" I couldn't help but laugh at this causing Thiago to frown. "What's so funny?"

"It's morning sickness." He glanced over at the window to make a point that it was clearly the evening. "I don't think it's morning Sophie. Maybe this pregnancy is already getting to your head." I rolled my eyes at him. "No Thiago, when you throw up due to pregnancy it's called morning sickness but it can happen anytime of the day."

"Oh." I chuckled and sat down on a stool at the breakfast bar. "Make me some soup, that nice one you made last time."

"Chicken and noodle?" I nodded happily and watched as Thiago got to work to cook for me. "Anything for you tesoro." He was being sarcastic but if he was making me food, I didn't care.

Maybe the next seven months won't be that bad.