Chapter 9: Chapter 9

Freya

My heart felt like it had been pierced by millions of swords that are laced with wolfsbane. I couldn't bear to see my friend say to my face that he thinks I'm someone else. I felt sad knowing that my own mate doesn't recognize me but instead thinks that I'm somebody else, but not anybody but the person he said he loves. I don't know whose partner had the guts to tell them to their face that they loved someone else and that their partner looked like the person they loved.

My heart wasn't in good shape, and I knew if I didn't take care of it, I might break down. I knew for a fact that my partner is in love with someone else, and it hurt me to know that, but that's the absolute truth that can't be changed. I knew that, being an alpha, I might be able to hold it, but this is different; I wasn't able to hold it. I knew that I had no strength in me to withstand the fact that my partner thinks I'm not the person I am but another person.

I feel hurt knowing that my mate loves someone else and also told me he hated me. I had thought that he was stroking my hair because he wanted to, but I wasn't happy after knowing that he thought I was someone else. I was heartbroken, but I knew there was nothing I could do about it. I knew that there was nothing I could do to make him love me. I knew that forcing myself on him wasn't appropriate and would make me look cheap, which I don't want.

It might look like I'm begging him to accept me. I don't want things that would look like I'm forcing myself to make him love me. If he is destined to be mine, he will be, but I knew for a fact that he was destined to be Selene's.

I knew that I might not be happy seeing him with another person, but I knew that him being happy was enough.

"Seraphina, can we meet in the garden?" I said it through the mind link, and she laughed.

"It seems like I already knew you would be coming, and not only that, I'm here with my mate." He just went to the office; he has some things to attend to. "There are some junk foods here that we can eat," Seraphina replied, and I cut the mind-link.

I was glad that things worked out for me. It was a gift from the moon goddess. I was glad that the things that we need are already there. It was as if we wanted to make preparations for a picnic. I knew that the both of them had planned the picnic and had probably gone through everything before Samuel left. I felt jealous knowing that my mate wasn't in support of me being his mate, and I doubt if we will plan a picnic one day.

I knew that my mate wouldn't want to go on a date with me, let alone talk about planning a picnic for the both of us.

"Good morning, Alpha," Seraphina greeted me immediately. She set her eyes on me, and I offered her a smile before replying to her greeting.

"Morning Seraphina," I replied.

I knew we might be friends, but she has never once tried to call me by my name unless necessary. She had it in her blood to always respect those who were superior to her.

"It is earlier; what's up with you and your mate?" "I thought you always scheduled your dates and picnics at night, but why is today different?" I asked as I stared at her with a clueless look on my face.

"It's because he's been busy lately," she replied.

"Why do you want to see me?" she asked after a while of silence, and I huffed heavily while staring at her.

I knew I had to say everything that has been bothering me to someone, but I doubt if that would be possible. I knew that I had no one in this pack that I trusted so much to relay my plights except Seraphina, who is my best friend. She is the only one who won't make fun of me because she is a well-respected person, and she loves respecting people. She always makes sure that she doesn't make fun of others.

"It's my mate," I started, and she sighed while looking at me attentively.

"He isn't as I thought he would be. He stroked my hair, and when I woke up, he told me that I resembled the girl he loves. It hurt me to know he is in love with another person, but seeing the way he has always behaved, I thought otherwise, but I knew that what I want won't happen even in my wildest dreams. I knew for a fact that none of my wishes to be his would come to pass," I said in one breath, and she sighed heavily, her eyes shimmering with affections.

I knew for a fact that she knew how I was feeling just by putting herself in my position. I'm glad I have someone like her who is caring. I'm glad that I have someone like her in my pack. I knew she would make a great female beta.

"I know that you are feeling hurt, but I'll advise you not to let your emotions cloud your judgment. I won't want you to make mistakes that you might regret later in the game. "I want you to be as calm as possible when dealing with your friend," she said with a pause, and I smiled at her.

"You should act like you aren't concerned about him for now, and make sure you react less whenever he says something." He will know that what he said hurts you as time goes on, and that can only happen if you act less concerned. "He will figure all this out himself," she said, and I nodded my head.

I was trying all I have in me not to cry out here. I knew that if I did, then I might be seen by one of the pack members.

"Thanks for your advice; I'll stick to it," I said, and she offered me a smile.

"Aren't you going to eat?" Seraphina asked as she ate the snacks she threw into her mouth.

I smiled at her, and we both started eating. We ate in silence, and we were almost done when we heard the sound of someone coming towards us.

"Good afternoon, Alpha," I heard a voice say, and I knew instantly that it was that of Samuel.

"Good afternoon. Wait, is it afternoon already?" I asked, and he nodded. My eyes went round with shock. I couldn't believe what he had said. I looked at my wrist watch, and it turned out that it's already afternoon.

"Yes, it is; we spent so much time talking and eating that we forgot to check time," Seraphina said, and I smiled at her.

"I'll have to steal my mate from you; we need to do something," Samuel said as he stared at her with a naughty smile.

I couldn't help but feel jealous of her. I knew she was happy with her mate, and I wasn't. I now know the need for a mate. I didn't know what or how it was to have a mate before, but now I do. I feel hurt to know that I couldn't do anything to stop that from happening.

"Aren't you supposed to be at the office? You said you would be quite busy today," Seraphina asked, and he smiled at her.

All this while I was busy watching them play, and I couldn't help but be vowed at their love display. I felt jealous of her every moment because I had always wanted this, but my mate doesn't want it to happen.

"I have a surprise for you, and that's what I have been preparing," Samuel said, and I couldn't help but smile at that.

"We will leave now, Alpha," Samuel said, and they left me.

I stared at the both of them as they walked away from the garden. I stared at them until they were out of sight. My eyes never left the spot where I last saw them. I stared around the garden with a sad smile on my face.

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It's already night, and I had my dinner. I tried sleeping, but I couldn't. All that was popping up in my head were thoughts about Lucius. I knew that I had to see him before I could go to sleep. I knew that without seeing him, I wouldn't be able to take him off my mind. If it were before, I would have tried fighting it off, but today I don't feel the need to do so.

I walked up to his room, and I crept the door open. I peered through the door, and I saw he was already asleep. I couldn't help but feel the need to admire him while he was asleep. I felt him turn to another side of the bed, and I shut the door immediately, not wanting him to catch me staring at him.