Chapter 38: Chapter 38

"You are---" My voice trembled unable to process the next word. For these days I have been looking for Heil but that cunning monster is with me, along with playing my life.

Why life is treating me with this cruelty. What I have ever done to get punished by nature. The only man I had been possessive with has died when I was thirteen, and the only man I have been in love with is the bloody Heil who I thought my soul mate.

"You are Heil, aren't you?" I threw him a disgusting glare. He is the hunting monster who killed thousands of innocent people for his thirst. A bloody blood-sucking monster.

"I will explain--" His composure was steady like I didn't catch him red-handed. I was afraid of Heil, but not scared of him who betrayed me and played in my life as the role of my caring husband.

Where did my mind trick me? The very first day I spotted his cruel side and witnessed his grey eyes but... but I failed. Why? If I was very careful with him, I would have found his true identity before he spoils my life but it's too late, I allowed him to spoil my life.

"What will you explain, you bloody blood-sucking monster!" I spat angrily. I don't care whether I love this man a while ago but right now I hate him like I want to skin him alive, let him know the real cruelty.

Huhh? It's frustrating. He turned me like him, as a real monster.

"Don't call me like that." He took one dangerous step towards me like he is going to rip me two-part, his nose flared where his eyes shot a dagger at me. For a moment I thought he is going to kill me and bury me six feet under the ground.

Until---

Something flashed across his face, that I don't know what to name, made him halt in his track. "You don't know anything." He whispered, his voice was smooth as jelly as anyone could swallow easily.

"I know everything! You bloody Monster!! You are a murderer and a killer. You sucking animal!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. My throat ached at the high pitch tone I used, as an effect, I coughed slightly but it didn't stop me from screaming further.

"I said don't call me like that." He gritted his teeth, His composure was still steady."Or what?" I snapped.

I don't care what the consequences will be but right now I wanted to pour my heart out. I hate him. He is not worth it for my love. He tricked me.

How badly I wished to travel back to my past and amend all my mistakes. How badly I wanted to change everything. How badly I wanted to stop when my cruel uncle decided to inject the animal's DNA into the innocent fetus. How badly I wanted to save my Blake.

"They killed my mom." He looked at me intensively where all my burning fuel extinguished by his single statements.

"W-Who?" Even though I don't want to talk to this bloody monster, my mind once again tricked me and let out the question already even before I could stop.

"That fucking human who claimed as my father, Dr. Volts whose heart is made up of steel rod, and his assistant, that damn old lady who is nothing but a damn bitch and their team. They all killed my mom. They didn't spare any sympathy for her before drugging her. My mom died in front of my eyes." Hot tears rolled down through his eyes.

I was struck in the middle of Antarctica as his words completely cooled down all my burning cells. Heil's mom didn't die, rather, they killed her.

"My so-called father would have saved her if he had ever tried but-- but that Psycho simply washed his hand, let them allow drug her." His eyes held hatred that he felt towards his father.

"They burned her body in that damn bungalow. They concealed her cruel death by the accidents. But the truth is they killed her." He clenched his fist as ready to hunt the whole city down.

"What do you think?  How I survived from their prying eyes?" He asked demanding me to give him an answer. "You said you know everything then tell me how I survived?" He shouted that made me flinch internally but I didn't give him the satisfaction of how it affected despite I'm shaking visibly.

"They prisoned me in that hut what we call our home." That directed my gaze towards him.

Our home?

"Once upon a time it was the dungeon where they kept me for their investigation. They gave me meals once a day in a week. They left me starving and tortured me in their own way." He was hurt, it was crystal clear in his eyes.

"They called me Monster even blamed me for my mom's death. I don't want to become a monster but they made me who I'm right now. They killed my innocent mom the moment I was born." He shut his eyes for a second, his features hardened as he was recalling something worst which happened in that dungeon.

"Don't you want to know who saved me?" He whispered that sent chill down my spine. Why did it affect me so much?

"Your dad." He averted his gaze from me when mine searched his face for the truth.

"When I was fifteen, when they finally getting enough of me, when they thought I'm not going to use for their investigation, and when they decided to kill me, your dad showed up and saved my life but--" He gulped down, his Adam apple Popped up and dragged downwards in slow motion.

"That cruel man didn't hesitate to kill his best friend." His every word is like a rumble of thunder to me. Hayle Stone who I thought my guardian Angel, killed my dad.

How he killed my dad. He was trapped inside the lab when the fire blast happened. I tried to convince my mind, but nothing soothed my throbbing pain.

"He locked the door when the fire ate the whole lab." My heart clenched with pain. Hayle Stone betrayed my dad, his best friend.

"Now tell me who is Monster? I or them?" He asked taking one calm step towards me that made me took a step backward. He didn't give me enough time to digest the cruelty behind my dad's death.

"Y- You killed the old lady." I accused him of the murder he had caused. His avenge would be certified if he killed those heartless people but he killed innocent peoples, needless to say, he hunts the whole city down.

"You still believe that rumours?" He chuckled like he hadn't shared his traumatic fable with me a while ago. "They forced everyone to leave the city. They damaged my name even before I become a monster." He shook his head.

"So you didn't kill her?" I asked once again, masking my face as neutral. My soul is not with me; It left my body a while ago.

"She deserved this. She is a cruel woman who drugged my mom." His eyes watered once again. "My mom didn't do anything but they killed her, the only thing she did was to give birth to me, otherwise she is innocent." He wiped his tears.

"The book said she will die once she gives birth to her child." I found my voice.

"That's not true." He shook his head vigorously like he really objects the matter. "They made her believe that she would die but the truth is she would survive if they took after her like how I do-" he stopped abruptly like something inside him warned his dignity from saying further.

"They killed my mom!" He said; his face reddened out of furiously. I wonder did he even count how many times he repeated the statements.

"Then why the hell you tried to kill me on the very first day and the hell you harmed Natasha?" I threw him a cold dragger.

He is mourning for his mom, then how comes our life is not considerate to him?

"I told you they turned me like a real monster even I don't want to." His eyes held regret.

"I can't control my beast, he would on the surface once the clock turns 6 PM. You are the cure to my ailment." The pounding in my chest fastened in a fraction of second.

Who he is kidding? I can't live with him, let alone the monster. Surely, I can't. I took one step backward, my eyes brimmed with tears. My mind is telling me that go and save your life, besides, my heart is pleading me that not to betray my love.

I love my Blake, but I hate Heil with all my passion. I can't love both the personalities, it's better to die, but I'm not a coward to end my life over a matter, even a matter, matter to my love life. I'm a fighter.

"Please leave me." I pleaded through my life, but I'm not sure how I will manage to live without my Blake.

"I can't." He took one more step towards me that literally sent a chill down to my numb body. I can't imagine my life with the huge brown Monster, who has grey eyes that haunt my every dream mercilessly.

"Please spare my life!!" I cried out of agony when I realized there is no way to escape from his firm custody. I was trapped.

"I can't leave you when you are bearing my baby." He whispered, afraid of scaring me; his gaze solely on my flat tummy.

"Baby?" I was stunned and speechless. Fresh drops of tears started to pool down through my already wet cheeks. If it had happened any other day, I would have been happy but now--- I don't want to carry another monster.

"I can't-- I-- I can't." My breath became uneven, my surroundings started to shake me mercilessly, the four walls began to squeeze the very little space I had between him, and even before I could able to seize the situation I blacked out in his arms.

I don't want to open my eyes ever again if this is my cruel fate. Please make this a dream. I beg you. Please!!!

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