Chapter 68: Chapter 68

Aviena's POV

"I will, Wife… I will…" he softly promised as he hugged me again for the second time. I cried even more because this is the first time I asked for help. I always feel like everything is just my burden to carry but right… how can I fucking forget that I have River? I have River, to begin with.

"I'm sorry…" I cried even louder when I said that.

“I’m sorry for not thinking about what you feel at all. I'm sorry for being scared… I… just don't want my daughter to live her life being scared of the world. I'm scared that she'll kill her… I'm scared of all the decisions Big Sister will do… ” I said weakly.

"When did everything start?" he calmly asked when I calmed down. I was stunned there. River held my hand.

“You don’t have to tell me now if you’re not fine, love… I’m sorry for asking a question. You may take your time… ” he whispered before kissing me on the forehead. I smiled at him and shook my head.

“6 years ago… When I came back home from a trip, I realized I was pregnant and Big Sister was already trying her best to get your attention. She wanted for me to give you… I said at that time that I was pregnant… I thought she’ll stop but… ” I felt the trembling of my voice. “But ... she wanted to kill her… I… I almost lost our Camillia…”

I thought I would have nothing more to cry but I just cried even more. I can't even see River's expression now.

“And I’m fucking nowhere to be found… You experience all of that but I fucking didn’t know anything…” he was mad but he looks like he was mad at himself. I just hold his hands before shaking my head.

“It’s my fault that I tried to hide it from you… I already know that I have Camillia but I still keep on doing things that will hurt her. That I didn’t even tell you that…” I said.

“It’s my fault that even if I received a death threats from Big Sister, I still try my best not to show it to you… She’s still my sister… and I care for her so much… That even if she did something to me, I feel like I'll still forgive her… But it's different now, River… I don’t want her to even go near my daughter… I can’t afford for her to hurt our daughter first before I do something."

“I’m sorry for leaving you behind without even telling you what’s really happening…”

“I won’t say that it’s fine, Aviena… I won’t say that it’s all fine… Don’t ever think that this is just your problem… Camillia is are daughter… and you’re my wife… Even when Camillia’s not born into this world yet, we’re already one… We’re already family… And your burden is also mine to carry… We’re husband and wife, to begin with…” he said. I was more guilty of my decisions because of what he said. I slowly close my eyes before looking at him.

“But you don’t have to feel guilty about those decisions back then… We’re going to protect our daughter together, Love… We will decide together this time… We’ll do those things we regret from the past…” he said so I nodded.

With that heart-to-heart talk we had, I realize that I was too selfish. I always knew that I just always decide things without even informing those people that were important to me, starting with my family. When I got fake married and even got pregnant with a threat… It’s not that I don’t trust them but I just don’t want them to be involved with the burden that I’ll carry.

And sometimes it’s not right at all. I didn’t realize that I’m already locking my doors.

“You should eat now… What do you want to eat?” he asked.

“Hmm, I’m fine… I heard you talking earlier… Can you tell me about the information you gathered? Where’s Big Sister now?” I asked him.

“We’ll talk about that later. What you need to do for now is to eat… Want me to buy you food? ” he asked despite the amount of food on the table. You'll also think that there was a festival with so much food there.

"Fine, I'll just eat some porridge," I said because I also have no appetite.

"I can perfectly hear right now if you ever have some information to share," I said.

“Later…” he said but it seems like he doesn't have a plan to tell me.

“I thought we’ll solve this together? Why don't you just tell it to me now?” I seriously question as I stare at him now. He just sighed at me too.

"I'll tell it later when you're completely fine… Just rest for a while… Here… Eat," he said and tried to make me eat. He also seemed to have no intention of saying anything until I had eaten. I didn’t do anything either.

"I can completely use my hands you know," I said seriously to him showing my hand.

"I know… just let me take care of you now…" he said as he gave me food again. I could do nothing but accept it. River and I fell silent while I ate. Both were just staring at emptiness. He's just staring at me though. While I was just thinking about things. Especially about Big Sister. She's very different… I wonder what happened.

"Did you tell my family about this?" I asked him. He shook his head there.

“Not yet but don’t worry, I already put some security around your house. They mostly look like civilians,” he told me so I immediately nodded. I didn’t think about it at all because I also felt they were safe there. They are not just my family. They are actually my sister's family too so I also can't really understand if Big Sister did something bad to her family although she already did it to us, me, her sister, and Camillia, her niece.

“Thank you…” I said weakly because it seems like River already did things while I was asleep.

"There's no need for that," he said just shaking his head at me.

After a while, I rested as well. River was so busy talking to his guards and most of the time he was busy on his laptop. I can't do anything right now because I know he wants me to rest first. He saw me at that state earlier.

The next day, I was completely fine and I really wanted to talk to River as well.

"What now?" I asked him.

“Don’t you dare tell me that you want to rest again? I didn't ask yesterday,” I told him seriously so he immediately sighed. He also knew I would be really stubborn.

"Fine…" He just pouted and didn't have any choice at all. He called someone from outside, the guys gave him a portfolio which he gave to me. I stopped before I look at him.

“Your sister is part of a big syndicate. She was one of the whore of one of their minor boss. Codename J,” he said so my lips parted. He even showed a man. I couldn’t help but be quiet there.

“People can’t track them at all. It's a worldwide syndicate and they're protecting your sister as of now,” he said, so I just can't help but be shocked by the information he was saying to me. A worldwide syndicate? Why would my sister even join that? I can't help but think about different things while I was looking at River now.

“What do you mean Whore? What? Syndicate? Why would she even join something like that? My sister will never do that! Maybe you just made a mistake when you were investigating! Big Sister will never do that,” I couldn't help but say. I even shook my head because I still couldn’t believe the information I heard from River.

"Are you sure you're really fine?" he asked me still holding me by the wrist.

"That will be the only information I'll share with you for now," he said before removing his hands from me. I held him because of that.

“What? Tell me all the things you know about my sister,” I said seriously. He just stared at me before I removed my grip on him.

“You don’t have to force yourself. You're not completely okay… I'll tell you about it later,” he told me. Apparently, he doesn't really want to say things to me now. I just stared at him. He was so serious when he said that.

"You won't be able to take it," he said weakly, shaking his head at me. I just hold his hands.

“Tell me about it, please…” I want to know. I don't think I can sleep if they won't tell me about anything. He sighed there. He sat down next to me again before looking at me.

"Your sister was abused by the syndicate… she was also tortured and got raped…" he said so I just stopped. I can't even open my mouth to say anything. River was just looking at me while holding my hands.

It was as if I was sick of the idea that Big Sister had also experienced the abuse that had happened to me before and it was as if my stomach was turning at the idea that she had experienced even worse there. She was raped… Damn… I can feel myself being weak at the revelation River said. I also couldn’t stop the tears from dripping from my eyes. I was so mad… with everything… I was mad at her but I can't hide the fact that I care about her… That I don't want her to experience things like that. I couldn’t stop how my chest tightened because I didn’t even know she was going through something like that. How did everything happen? How did that happen? Why… Why did she experience that?

I didn't even realize that I had been eaten up by the dark because of so many thoughts.

When I opened my eyes, River was so worried while looking at me.

"How do you feel?" he asked me while being concerned. I couldn’t help but bite my lips. I just close my eyes as I remember everything we talked about earlier.

"I'm fine…" I said. He didn't say anything. He just kept his eyes on me.

“Do you know Big Sister's location now?” I asked.

“We already got her location but it has tightened security. We're planning to get her tonight,” he said.

"I also want that Z guy to rot in hell," I couldn't help but say.

"We will do that, Aviena," he said to me so I nodded.

That night, River is also gone. They plan to rush to the building where Big Sister is. I really want to go there but I can't. I know I can't because I'm sure I'm just one of the burdens River will carry if something happens. I just can't help but walk back and forth in the hospital. I also couldn’t get out because some of River’s bodyguards were there. I know that he'll just get worried if I did something unusual. I just close my eyes. I don't want those people who did that to Big Sister to live in peace.

I was just standing in the window when I looked at the folder that a guard had just given to River. He tried to lock it in the locker here. He doesn't come home anymore so his files are always here.

I looked at it before trying to guess the password. I was able to guess because I had been watching him earlier.

I immediately picked up another folder. I stopped when I saw my big sister's picture while going back and forth to the building where River rushed in today. She's always with different men every day while coming inside but when she came out, her hair was always messy and she had different vibes when she entered the place.

I was about to look at it more when I stopped at the last page. I finally dropped it when I saw some pictures there. It was my big sister's body… With a lot of bruises… And a lot of things that you supposedly not to see. My lips parted before finally bursting into tears. She's… She's more broken than I am…

“What now, Aviena? Enjoying looking at my photos, huh?”