Chapter 48: Chapter 48

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Willing to be my soldiers?

I didn’t expect to hear that from Wrum. I was just asking about what happened last night and don't expect it to lead to such a conversation. That made for me to be nervous and my mind remained blank on what he was saying.

I did not see my father. I knew about his status and where he is now, but I did not see him. I can't help myself, I can't help but ask, 'What if all of what Wrum told me are all a lie?'

Trust. Trust. Trust.

I have no idea what the next step I need to take and was afraid that the decision I had made would lead me to chaos. Damn, it's like I just want to cry. Dad, what have you done to my life?

After Wrum told me that, I immediately went back to the room. I closed the door and lay down on the bed.

Damn it. If I only knew that my life was so chaotic, I would have been preparing for it for a long time so that I would not be surprised again.

A few hours passed and it was noon. I still have no plans to go out because I'm not hungry anymore. Until it was one o'clock in the afternoon and I was still lying here in bed.

I prefer to sleep. Dream of a good life and never wake up again. I know that can't happen. I know I have to face the challenges in this life. I can't just cry. I need to face this.

"You never went out to eat again." I heard a voice outside. I knew it was Wrum's voice so I turned my gaze in his direction. He was carrying a tray full of food.

He walked closer to it in bed, placed the tray on the small table, and sat on the side of the bed and he turned his gaze back to me.

"I'm not hungry yet. You shouldn't have brought food here." I just told him. I plan to go out this afternoon at three o'clock just to eat snacks.

"I want you to eat," he tells me seriously. "I don't want you to stress yourself. So, stop overthinking stupid things," he said.

I just avoided looking at him. Who wouldn't think too much of what he was telling me?

"You don't need to care about me. I am just a slave." I added. "And I am not a special person to be treated like this in your mansion." Where can we saw a slave who treats special in the mansion? As far as I know, every slave was treated as a slave.

"I am completely nothing to you," telling him about that for how many times already at him. "And you don't need to sacrifice. You shouldn't be fighting your father just because of me, Wrum."

"And one more thing, you shouldn't be doing this. I still don't trust you." I said. "No. I can trust no one in this mansion. Even Wim and Xander and all of your people here."

"Stupid," he murmured, but still I managed to hear it.

"The mansion was big that can accommodate me, but staying here forever wasn't a good idea," I explained. "I want to be free. Free as the wind blows. No one will interfere with what I want to do in life and I will no longer be confined to a room. No one will forbid me to leave the room." I added.

I remember the days when I would go out and hang out with Luna. Laughing, gossiping, and sightseeing of university boys. Damn. I don’t expect the fun I’m feeling right now to just end up like this. I still have a lot of plans to do in life. I still have a lot of places I want to go to but I don't think I can do that anymore.

That day, I taught focusing on the job was a good idea, and hanging out outside wasn't good. But now, I missed those days I taught wasn't fun.

"You can no longer be out from me, you'll be mine forever." he stepped forward, still staring at me.

"That's bullshit. I am not yours. I thought you wanted to help me now that you disobeyed your father's order?" I can't help but ask him.

He keeps on standing near me. "Yeah. I'm going to help you," he said seriously to me. "But you are going to be mine too."

I didn't expect him to tell me that. So cringe. What he told me was not thrilling, but I could feel the butterflies flying in my stomach.

Wherever my conversation goes like this, and electricity run through my veins, my cheeks turn red, and was not able to talk properly.

"Silic," he calls me.

"What?"

Wondering what might he tells me.

I'm waiting for him to speak. But I heard nothing from him. All I saw he did was he just put his hand close to my face. He even pulled my hair that was on my face and he stared like his eyes telling me that he wants to kiss me at this moment.

"Wrum." I stuttered at him to make him stare.

"You are just mine," only, I heard him say to me.

I blinked a few times and saw him slowly bring his face closer to mine. Because it happened too quickly, in just the blink of my eyes, I suddenly felt his soft lips bumped into mean. Feeling like it was a candy refreshing and it feels like I smell the mouthwash he was using.

Suddenly, I felt nervous and closing my eyes. I didn't want to stop him from kissing me. It is just as if I have already given him the authority to do it to me.

"Let me do this to you now." I heard him whisper to me. "I promise, you'll like it," he added.

"Wrum." I only stuttered at him.

He kissed me again as his hand moved around my body. I can't help but respond to his kiss. Also, I kissed him back as I hold his hair tight because of his hands that reached into mine.

"Oh, Wrum."

He undressed me and removed my undies. He undressed his self and we are both naked facing each other. I am a bit nervous about this and I need not expect that it will happen today.

He kneeled and let his sword ready for the bloody fights that will happen in this bed. I'm still not ready for this, but hell yeah, I let him do this to me. I gave him my permission to be the first man to enter his sword and to break the wall inside mine.

"Ready?" he asked me.

"I guess." I just said. He had already opened my thigh. I can see his sword. A huge one and I can tell that he is so gifted. I do not know if it will fit the gate of paradise.

"Wrum!"

He slowly entered his sword that made me moan loud. I didn't expect that this would be such a pain. He told me it didn't hurt, he scammed me.

"Oh My God! Oh My God! It's so huge!"

"Spread your legs."

Moaning his name is what I did when he quickly pulled it out into mine. He did not even use a condom for protection and I am afraid that I will get pregnant for this.

I still have a problem facing right now and I didn’t expect it. Now that I let him do this to me, I also can’t help but ask myself.

Do I trust him now?