Chapter 66: Chapter 66

Hands rub over my back and I am picked up after a second into Aiden embrace. Embrassment runs through me and makes me sob even harder. I can feel the soothing movements as Aiden moves us into the bathroom.

Normally I am sat down on the seat in the corner of the shower, but not this time as Aiden keeps a hold on me. He simply leans over and starts the water this time. I move to curl into him more. The embrassment leaves and I am just left an overwhelming sadness running through me. I want to be as close to Aiden as I can get and I don't want him to let me go.

"I am right here." Aiden mumbles in my hair as he runs his fingers through it after skillfully taking it down with one hand and tossing the hair tie.

"I am so sorry. We didn't get to go the second round we been doing." I sniffle and stutter out.

"That doesn't matter sweetheart. All that matters is if your okay." Aiden leans his head down to get a better look at my face, with his finger cupping under my chin to raise my head up more.

"I don't know what happened. I felt fine then I start getting a cramp and it went away then came back in less than a minute time. I couldn't stop the nastiness either. Maybe dinner was bad." I sniffle and move to where I don't breath in his face because that is just disgusting. Right now, I really just feel nasty after the hurling.

"I don't think the dinner was bad Cookie. I ate it too and feel fine. Plus it was over three hours ago now." Aiden whispers and starts to wash me down.

"Maybe it didn't agree with me. I don't know."

Aiden moves me some and it seems to send me in a panic. I cling to him, as my nail dig into his shoulders.

"Please don't let me go. I am sorry." My sobs return as my body shakes hard with the cries that came back with vengance.

Aiden looks deep in my eyes and calms me by his hand wrapping back around me.

"I am not going anywhere sweetheart. I just needed to lean you back some to get the soap off of you." His voice is as soft as when he talks to Talitha.

I nod and slowly move back to where the water runs down me to rinse it off. My nails still haven't seem to let Aiden go, but he doesn't say anything about it as his hands move over my body never leaving me.

"I don't know what is happening. I won't stop leaking tears and the crying hiccups won't stop." It makes me cry even harder against my will. As it has not stopped at all since I panicked before rinsing and Aiden is now trying to dry us off with me latched on and him holding me with one arm.

"You're going through a sub drop sweetheart. It doesn't help things happened quickly to where I didn't have time to start the aftercare once you said the safe word and then got sick." Aiden whispers while we walks us to where he can grab the baby monitor from the counter and then brushed through my hair.

He held my hair back and I let him go just enough to where I could twist and brush my teeth. Once we are done in the bathroom, Aiden throws a blanket around me and I latch my arms around his neck with my legs around his waist, as he walks up down stairs to the kitchen. He grabs a ginger drink and then a snack, with one hand before we go back to the bedroom where he lays us both on the bed and I refuse to let him go.

It makes me feel so bad but it is the only thing really slowing my cries and I just need to be close to him.

Aiden opens the drink and has me sip on it slowly before he feeds me a couple of crackers that I end up turning my nose too not enjoying their taste. I want something sweet. Aiden must realize that when he pulls out some gummy bears and I eat them contently as he places one in my mouth.

After drinking and eating, I nuzzle down on Aiden's chest with the sobs finally ending.

"I have to take the trash bin out." I mumble as my eyes seem to close on their own.

"Don't worry about it sweetheart, I will tend to it." Aiden whispers as his fingers combs through my hair.

"I'm sorry that I got you just about hard again and that happened." My eyes tear up once again.

"Cookie." Aiden whispers and moves to where he can look at me. "There is nothing to be sorry for. What happened is not in our control and I rather you use the safe word so we can make sure that you're taken care of, I will stop every single time."

"I hated using our safe word. I never thought I would. The pain has never been to much to where I couldn't handle it."

"The safe word is there for many reasons and I am surprised we hadn't used it before now. You are my strong, sexy wife. I will stop every single time when it comes to your health and if I had caught any signs of you hurting I wouldn't have even started the second session."

"I hid it." I mumble and look down.

"Please don't ever hide it sweetheart. I need to know when your not feeling well because health is the most important thing."

"Okay." I nod slightly. "Can we go see Talitha?"

"Of course Cookie." Aiden picks us up and I stand on my own for the first time. He hands my robe to me and throws on a clean pair of shorts.

He picks me back up and carries me to her nursery. Placing me on my feet when I reach in and pick her up from her crib. I know I shouldn't mess with her while sleeping but I need to hold my baby.

Aiden guides me to the rocking chair and doesn't say a word, as he kisses her head then mine.

"I will be right back."

"It is okay. I know you are going to clean up. I am sorry again." I mumble looking at Talitha willing not to cry again.

"Cookie, there is no reason to be sorry and I don't want to leave you but if you need me speak out which I will hear through the monitor. This won't take me long at all, promise." Aiden kisses me lightly and takes off in a mad dash.

I look at Talitha and she is such an angel. Nothing beats being her mom and I had vowed from the moment I knew she was mine that I will forever love her and cherish this sweet girl.

We may not have been able to have a baby biologically and it is sad but we got blessed with this little girl. She needed us just as much as we needed her. I will always love her the same as if I carried and gave birth to her because she is ours.