Chapter 20: Chapter 20

LAUREN……

"Don't you dare try to be fierce in front of me? I know how you are feeling right now." I felt a knot in my stomach. It twisted as I looked deep into his eyes.

He held my face with his hard and warm hand." And I'm here to take all your pain away from you." A bitter chuckle left my mouth as I heard his words.

"The one who gives pain has come to take away the pain. Doesn't it sound funny?" I asked him and I could feel my eyes welled up with tears.

"I know what you are going through. But try to understand I had no other option except this." His voice was soft but I could feel the heaviness in his voice.

"I'm just a breeder for you. It's not appropriate for you to feel anything for me. Even if it's sympathy. People will judge me wrong. They will call me a homewrecker. And I don't want to be addressed by this type of thing. So it's better you stay away from me. It's just about nine months. And then I'll be away from all these things. I know your wolf is making it hard for you to stay away from me. But believe me, you can do it. I know you can control it. And try to make him fall for your own mate. Try to communicate with him. I believe he will understand. You and I can't be together. It's impossible." Tears were streaming down my eyes like a river. Now I don't want to fight for him. I have a child. And he will never accept my child. And Alex will never accept him as his father.

"Forget about everything and look into my eyes. Just for once. I believe you will feel everything I feel about you. It's easy to say to stay away from loved ones but it's hard to stick to it." I could feel his emotions in the way he expressed his feelings. So I looked into his eyes forgetting everything. And I felt like drowning in his eyes. The more I stared into his eyes the more deep I found myself into them.

I didn't realize when he leaned to my lips until I felt his warm lips against mine. My eyes automatically get closed at the feeling I felt when his lips touched mine. I melted into his lips. My heart swelled up with emotions and came out with tears. The heat, the pleasure, the firm pressure of his lips, and the soft glide of his tongue against mine.

My hands made their way to his hair and I tipped my head back further giving him as much access as possible. He tasted like vodka and I could taste the spices in my mouth.

'Oh, God! He tasted so amazing and delicious, I just wanted to drown in it. A moan came out of my mouth and he let out a tortured groan. He tightened his hands around my hip and nape in a way that had heat kidding between my thighs.

Suddenly Alex's face flashed in my mind and I pushed him away with a jerk. I was breathless. With my heaving chest, I looked at him who was looking at me with shock on his face. I know he must be wondering what happened to me suddenly.

"Please, leave Mr. Knight. This is wrong." saying that I opened the door for him to go out. I wasn't looking at him. But I could feel his gaze lingering on me which was making a hole into my soul.

"Please." A sob came out of my mouth and it took everything in me to hold me back from letting him go. He just walked out of the room silently and I shut the door with a thud. I collapsed near the door holding my heart. I could feel the wetness between my thighs. I was aroused by the kiss. And if I had let him stay a little more then we might have ended up in bed tonight. And I can't let that happen. If I let him have me once then it will be hard to keep his wolf away from me.

I looked for water but the jar was empty so I had to go down to fetch water for myself. On my way back to my room I heard a faint noise coming from somewhere. Curiosity took over me and I followed the sound with the water jar. My feet rooted to the ground in front of Jaxon's room. The sound was coming from his room. He was groaning.

When I tried to unlock the lock it was open so I twisted it and opened the door a little to find out what was going on inside. I hope he's not in pain. But to my surprise I found him sitting on the bed with dangling legs while stroking his shaft. My heart escaped a beat seeing the scene in front of me. Pressure ached between my legs. An intense urge washed over me. I felt a wave of need spiraling down to my core.

Is he thinking about me while stroking himself? Maybe he is imagining me sucking his cock. His head was thrown back in pleasure. Then my gaze fell to the floor where there were broken glasses scattered all over the floor. Then I realized his room was in a mess. His wolf must have gone out of control and made this mess. I felt guilty for doing this to him. And I felt pity for him. Suddenly I heard a loud groan coming from him which drew my gaze back to his cock. Which was hard and swollen and standing like a rod.

My core shuddered to see the scene. My hand instinctively sides into my nub gently. I closed my eyes and writhe with pleasure pressing my hand even harder against my most sensitive parts. My toes begin to curl. I was scared not to drop the water jar.

I was so busy pleasuring myself suddenly I felt a pull and the next moment I found myself pinning with the door and Jaxon was standing in front of me fully naked. Heat rushed to my cheek and my core. My core ached to see his swollen cock. I felt his finger under my chin and he made me look into his eyes.

"Did you see what you did to me? You are responsible for this. So now you have to take responsibility." Saying that he placed my hand on his cock and I felt him shutter as soon as my hand touched him. It was the first time I touched him. I tried to pull out my hand but he held my hand so right that it was impossible for me to withdraw my hand from him.

"You can't run away today. You have to sort out the problem you caused me." There was something in his voice that made me submit in front of him. And he eyed me to get on my knees. I don't know what I am doing. I had made up my mind that I will keep my distance from him but I'm now sucking his cock. Why is my heart playing with me like this?

I held his hand and took him to a chair and made him sit on it. Then I sat on my knees. I stared into his dark eyes before taking his cock in my hand. I could see so many emotions reflected in his eyes, desire, lust, need, desperation, and passion. Holding his shaft in my hand I gave a lick.

"Oh, God!" And Jaxon groaned loudly holding a fistful of my hair in his fist.