Chapter 11: Chapter 11

LAUREN…….

When I realized what I just said to him it was too late to correct it. So I just stayed mum looking down while still hugging him. I could not deny that I don't like hugging him. The room was pin-drop silence; only our heartbeats were the only sound to be heard there.

"I'm sorry. I know what I did was wrong. I should be responsible for you as you are going to give birth to my child. I have some responsibility towards you. And I have to fulfill my duty as a father. So from now on it will be me who will accompany you to the hospital and who will be by your side whenever you need someone. I can't promise but I will try my best to be helpful." His heart touched my heart. And my eyes welled up with tears. I lifted my head to look at him and in the meantime, he also looked at me. Our gaze locked, and many emotions were reflecting in his eyes but I could not detect what those were. Before I could he looked away.

I pulled away from him and got off the bed making my way to the bathroom to avoid the awkward situation.

I shut the door behind me and leaned on the door holding my heart which was thumping crazily against my rib cage. I closed my eyes and patted my heart to make it at ease. But nothing was working. My chest was heaving up and down with my heavy breaths. I don't know what is happening to me. Why do I feel this way around him? I know I have a crush on him but it can't be possible that I'm falling for him, am I?

I questioned my heart fearing the outcome. And to my dismay, my heart said the same thing I was scared about. Jaxon's smiling face flashed in front of my closed eyes and my heart leaped with joy. I opened my eyes with a jerk and punched the wall next to the door hard venting my anger on it.

"It's utterly impossible." I repeatedly punched on the wall until I felt wetness on my knuckles. When I looked at my knuckles I saw them bleeding.

"Shit!" I ran my finger through my hair in frustration as if Jaxon saw my hand. What will I explain to him?

I put my hand under the cold water and washed the blood off my injured hand. Then I splashed some water on my face to feel better. I dabbed my face with the towel and walked out of the bathroom. I was about to come out of the closet when I heard some noise coming from the room. So I stood near the door placing my ear on it to hear clearly.

It was Jaxon who was yelling at someone on the phone. As I could only hear his sound. If someone was present in the room then I must hear the other person's voice too. I tried to eavesdrop on his conversation and my palm covered my mouth with what I just heard.

"Dad, have you lost your mind? You want me to take her in the pack house as James and Jace's mate!" I was shocked to the core.

"Mr. Old Knight has really lost his mind. Does he consider me as a toy that he can do anything to me? At first, he wanted me to become his son's surrogate. Now he wants me to pretend to be his twin son's mate? Am I a toy for him to be played the way he wanted to play? I admit I'm helpless but I'm not that helpless to be played like this. It's my life. Not a joke. He can't play with my life. I have emotions. I'm not a robot. He should understand this much. He has no heart, it doesn't mean I also don't have.

"How am I gonna explain this to her? You tell me, how?" He yelled at the top of his lungs which flinched me at my place.

"If it's so easy then why don't you talk to her? By the way, it was you who approached her first. Then you talk to her. Don't bother me with these things. I'm already pissed off. Bye," I was about to retreat from the door but what I heard next I felt a sky fall on my head.

"This girl is driving me crazy. I can't wait for the day when she will be gone from my life. It's frustrating. I don't know how I have to bear her." My palm covered my mouth tightly as a sob was about to escape from my mouth.

I felt my eyes burning with fire and soon tears welled up in my eyes making my vision blur. My heart wailed with agony and I ran back to the bathroom to hide myself. I quickly shut the door and collapsed on the floor.

I broke down badly and I cried my eyes out to get rid of the pain I was feeling in my heart. Though there was nothing between us, his heart hurt me extremely. I was crying with hiccups, I hugged my knees and buried my head between my knees.

I thought he has a tiny bit of feelings for me but I was so fucking wrong. He was bearing me just because of the baby I'm carrying in my womb. Otherwise, he has no shit about me. I was so foolish to fall for such a person who is a selfish freak from top to bottom.

"Lauren….." I heard a knock on the bathroom door and Jaxon's voice.

"Are you alright? Don't scare me. Please open the door or give any response." Jaxon yelled from the other side of the door while banging on the door.

I was in a messy condition. If I made any sound he would definitely understand that I was crying. And I don't want to show my vulnerable side to him. At least not to him. He is the last person I want to see now.

So I turned on the shower to let him know that I was taking a shower. And he gets it too.

"Oh, you are taking a shower!" I heard his voice and stood under the cold water.

"But at this hour? Lauren, please use warm water. Don't catch a cold." I looked at the door as my lips curved up a little hearing his concern for me. But I didn't know it would not last long. Because what he said next made my small smile drop.

"Don't forget you are carrying a baby inside you."

I was mad at him and he was driving me insane with each moment. But suddenly I remembered about the life which was growing inside me so I immediately changed the water from cold to warm.

"Though I'm mad at you Mr. Jaxon Salvatore Knight. I'm not heartless as you to hurt a little life. Though it's your child I'm his or her mother. And always be. So a mother can't even think of harming her child." I thought in my mind and let the water wash off the pain which was growing inside my heart. Tears were streaming down my eyes.

I cried until I didn't feel like crying anymore. Because I will not shed a tear for that selfish freak ever. He isn't worth it. Moreover, my emotions can affect the child. So I have made up my mind that I will be happy from now on. In this little life.

I looked down and touched my belly and smiled. "Don't worry, baby. Mumma won't cry anymore. I will take care of you very well. Will you miss Mumma, My love?" A sad smile crept on my lips as I talked to my little baby. The mere thought of leaving my baby alone made my heart ache badly.

I turned off the shower and dried myself off then put on the bathrobe to go outside and change into some fresh clothes. The moment I opened the door I was encountered by Jaxon. Who was staring at me with his dangerous red eyes, which were glowing? It wasn't hard for me to understand that his beast was in charge.

"Damn!"

"You were crying?" His rich, dangerous voice shook me to the core. And I swallowed hard the big lump in my throat.

"That's none of your business " I cursed as I spat on him. I don't know what got into me that I replied to him like that while knowing that his beast is in charge. What if he just killed me right now?

"Your business is my business, damn it." He punched the wall next to me, making me jump with fear. I thought he was gonna beat me.

"Come with me." He grabbed my wrist and dragged me with him.

Oh God, what is he gonna do to me?