Chapter 66: Chapter 66

"Oh, Xenon... It's you."

[I think you're lethargic, are you sick?] There is a hint of concern in his voice.

"I'm not sick, I just don't feel like talking to anyone."

[Oh really, I wanted to ask you out because today is my birthday...but it seems you're not in the mood right now--]

"Birthday?" I checked what day it was and it was Xenon's birthday today, because I was thinking so much that I forgot.

"Sorry Xenon I forgot it's your birthday." I'm sorry.

[It's okay, you don't need to be sorry Alyana.] I'm lucky because Xenon became my friend, he really understands me and in the past years he's the only one who understands me, he's like a brother to me.

"Where do you want to go?" I asked him.

[Huh?]

"You both want to go out, don't you?" I asked him.

In a year, we only have a birthday once, so someone's birthday should be happy and memorable.

[Alyana, you don't need to force yourself, it's okay with me, you can do it next time when you're okay...you look like you have a problem now and I'll just don't mind asking you because I know you won'' t tell me or you'll say that not now Xenon, maybe next time...so, I will wait forthat day, I guess.]its language.

Xenon is not the type of person who insists and that's one of the things I liked about himi'm not saying that Xenon is perfect but Xenon is the type of a guy that many girls will fall in love with...and yeah, I am not included to those girls because I thought Xenon as my friend, a brother and that's it.

"I also want to leave here even for a while, I just want to be able to think and have fun with you." I said.

He agreed so I showered and got dressed. I fixed myself for a while, I didn't have a comb so I only used my hands to comb my hair. when I finished I sighed first, I stared at myself in the mirror.

I feel sorry for myself, those eyes are obviously just recovered from crying, I hope Xenon doesn't notice it.

When I opened the door, Stephen was standing in front of the door, instead of being surprised, I just frowned. Was he still there?

"I think I heard you talking to someone, who is it?" This is a serious question for me.

I answered him directly. "Xenon." If I tell the truth, what is the reason for me to lie to him, right? We did not do anything wrong.

"Are you going out with him?" He frowned when I nodded.

"Yes."

"Who said you can leave? You can't leave in this house without my permission Alyana!" he said firmly.

"Why not? Then why do I need your permission? What are you doing, father? Today is her birthday and I only get to see her once so let me go first."

"When you say it's not possible Alyana! It's not possible! We're getting married and you're seeing another man?!" I laughed out loud at what he said.

Another man? Xenon is not different from me because he is my friend, my best friend!

"We're getting married but you can't trust me?" He was quiet suddenly at what I said.

"When you let Vanessa live here? Did I stop you? then I'll just go out with Xenon because it's his birthday and then you won't let me!"

"I'm just jealous that's why I don't want you to come close to him!"

"Eh, could it be me Stephen? Have you ever thought about my feelings? do you think I don't feel jealous when I see you getting closer to Vanessa? I'm jealous, I'm jealous because you seem like a happy family and I'm the only villain! Why does it seem like the only thing you feel is the only thing you think about Stephen, what about me? I hope you also think about what I feel, not just you!"

I turned my back on him before my tears completely fell in front of him.

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"Alyana--wait did you cry?" Xenon touched both of my cheeks and looked into my eyes.

"I just fell asleep, I didn't cry, what are you doing!" I said and tried to laugh.

"You don't need to lie Alyana, I know you better than anyone else." He put his arm around me and patted my arm.

"Whatever problem you think can be fixed, don't worry." I hope Xenon, I hope it can be fixed that easily so that I don't get hurt anymore, so that I don't have to suffer anymore.

"Let's play in the arcade? We haven't been able to play there in a long time." I laughed because he is like a child, that I miss the two of us like this. sometimes when I'm with Xenon, my problems suddenly disappear because he makes me happy, I forget my problems because of him.

"It's better for you to smile, you look more beautiful when you smile."

"Thank you Xenon." I smiled even more at him.

"Thank you for what?" I came closer to him and hugged him, as if he stiffened because of what I did.

Even if there are many people here at the mall, I don't care, I just want to hug you now because... it makes me feel better. it's like someone is comforting me and someone is with me whenever my problems are hard.

"It's been a few days since I was really not funny and smiling, thank you for even making me laugh for a while."

"You know I don't want you to be sad especially when you're with me." he said and messed up my hair.

Xenon and I played a game, then we went looking for something to eat. We were about to enter but he suddenly stopped.

"I'm just going to use the bathroom for a while, Alyana, just wait for me here." He said so I just nodded and waited for him.

A few minutes have passed but Xenon is still not there. I just looked at the people around me, the others were looking at me from head to toe. Okay, I look cheap, I guess...as Stefanie non said.

I just turned my gaze to the ring. I'm angry and annoyed with you Stephen but even so I miss you right away, I've only been here for a while but I want to go home and see you but I don't know, at the same time I don't want to see him. there is a side of me that misses him and wants to see him, the other side wants to prevent myself from missing him and seeing him.

My heart and brain are fighting.

"Why did it take you so long?" I asked when he came back.

"Something just...ahm, something just happened that's why it took me so long." he said so I just nodded. "Oh, okay."

We went inside and ordered food. After we ordered, I suddenly felt nauseous from the smell, so I hurriedly went to the bathroom...

I looked in the mirror and closed my eyes tightly while holding my head.

"What is happening to me?" I asked myself. I don't have a fever or anything that hurts me. I just shook my head and went back to it but my nose was covered.

"Let's eat somewhere else, maybe street foods to make it tastier." I promise.

"Huh? But what about the one we ordered?" He asked me a question and I just blinked.

Yes, we have already ordered.

"Okay fine, if that's what you want, let's go take it out." he said and that's what we did. When we got out, we saw a child begging, so we only gave him food.

While walking, I saw an ice cream vendor. "Xenon buy me ice cream."

"Ice cream? what flavor do you want?"

As far as I remember, he knew his favorite flavor but it's okay that he asked me because that's not the flavor I want to eat.

"That chocolate."

"You don't like that flavor, do you? You prefer vanilla, am I right?" He actually remembered my favorite.

"Ah, because...I don't know! I just want a chocolate flavor, is there anything wrong with that?" I asked and he shrugged.

He bought it for me and quickly if you ran out of one, so I bought it again. "I guess you're craving ice cream right now." I stopped eating and looked at him.

"Back then you couldn't use up one, but now it's four." Is this the fourth time? I just scratched my head. I thought it was the second time I was eating today.

"Man, even an Ice cream."

"I've run out, there's nothing left." It's like my world has collapsed with what the man said, it's gone? I still want to eat.

I bit my nails and looked around, my eyes caught the man who was selling mangoes so the corners of my lips rose.

"Xenon buy me a mango!" I said loudly and pointed to the goods of the king.He didn't think twice about buying me, when I got tired of the mango, I saw an orange that was also being sold as ale, so I took two and walked around to look at what others were selling.

I looked at Xenon because he didn't seem to be following me and I was right, it looks like he's still paying for the ale.

"Alyana wait for me!" He ran and walked towards me.

"Xenon, buy me, bro." At the same time, someone taught again.

"Huh? Aren't you full yet? You've eaten a lot." He shook his head.

"Just tell me if you don't have any money, I can use the money I bring--" he didn't let me finish speaking.

"It's not that I don't have any money, it's just that you've been hungry for a few days, you're too greedy, promise." I frowned at what he said.

"Is it bad to eat now? I just can't stop myself from eating their products." I can only go out of Stephen's house once.

"Oh, I'll buy it for you, I'll buy anything you want as long as you don't frown." This made me smile.

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we are here today at the beach, we came here because I said I wanted to come here. I don't know, it seems like it's reversed because Xenon should be the one having fun and deciding where we're going because it's his birthday today. And should I be free because it's his birthday?

"Alyana," I turned to Xenon when he called my name.

I looked at his hand holding mine. "Hmm?"

"I have a question."

"Hmm, what's that?" I will ask.

"Uhm, what do you think of me?"

I raised my eyebrows a little at this question.

"Huh? What kind of question is that, I don't understand?" What does he mean?

"Like, what do you think of me? Am I good looking?" I laughed when I got him.

"Of course! Is that still being asked? Look at my classmates and the students at school, they have a crush on you, because you're not only handsome, you're also kind."

"O-Oh, you think I'm h-handsome?"

I stared at him in wonder because I noticed the redness of his ear.

"Sure...why did you ask?"

"Nothing, just asking." He said this and he suddenly became quiet.

"Uhm...do you see me as a man, a brother or a friend--"

"A friend of course, also you're like a brother to me Xenon and I'm always thankful to have someone like you in my life." I promised him and smiled.

"Oh, so you only thought of me as a friend and a big brother?"

"Why can't you look at me as a man Alyana?" He added and I was surprised by his question to me.

I'm confused, why does he talk like that? I don't know if he is serious or just joking.

My eyes widened as he gradually brought his face closer and kissed me on the lips, I immediately pushed him away from me.

"X-Xenon..."

"I... I like you Alyana, that's when I wanted you." This surprised me. I gaped a little while staring at him.

does he like me? Why? I thought he just thought of me as a brother? I don't know that he has feelings for me, that he likes me?

"S-Sorry, Xenon but S-Stephen is what I want. I love him and you...I want you as a friend, that's all." When I tell him the truth.

"Alyana, I know the truth, Flyn told me that your mom sold you and Stephen bought you, I don't care if something happened to you two..."

"All I want is for you to give me a chance to flirt with you and show you how much I love you."

"X-Xenon...I really love Stephen, I'm not going to lie about that."

Even though I'm in so much pain right now because of you Stephen, I still love you so much. It's true that it's hard to love someone you're not sure if they really love you, because we can't guess what's on their mind.

we don't know if what they are telling us is true...but Stephen I believe you, you said you love me so I believe you, even though I'm a little confused now because you said you loved me but you didn't trust me .

"Sorry but I only think of you as a friend." I see if there are tears in his eyes and he immediately wipes them away.

"O-Okay, I understand I won't force you Alyana... in case Stephen hurts you, I'll be here Alyana, you can come to me any time you want. When the time comes when you don't love Stephen, I'll still be here Me, I'll wait for you Alyana."

"Thank you, Xenon." That's all I told him. I couldn't think of anything else to say, suddenly everything became awkward.

I don't like this, I'm not used to it. I don't know if I knew well that he likes me or not, if I didn't know, maybe I wouldn't be awkward, but if I didn't know, if he didn't say that he likes me, I might be able to say or do something that it will hurt.

this is not the first time that someone confesses to me but it is different because my best friend himself confessed his feelings for me? The one I consider just like an older brother is the one who likes me.

"By the way, I'm sorry for kissing you without your permission Alyana." he said suddenly and I just smiled.

"It's okay, I understand." I said and leaned my head on his shoulder.

"Promise me Xenon that nothing will change in our friendship after this?"

He put his arm around my shoulder before speaking. "I promise Alyana, no matter what happens...I'm always here for you."

"Right! I know this is super late," he pulled something out of his pocket.

"My birthday gift for you, belated happy birthday Alyana." It greeted me and put a necklace on me. it has a pendant in the shape of a heart and has an AX attached to it.

I think our two names are Alyana and Xenon.

"That's just a friendly gift okay, and I want you not to take it off because if you do that, I'll think that you want to end out friendship." I just laughed and hugged him.

"Don't worry, I won't remove this account, so thank you for the gift Xenon."

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He drove me home to Stephen's house.

"Call me if you need anything Alyana and if anything happens you can always come to me." He said and ruffled my hair.

"Thank you Xenon, thank you for everything." I smiled at him and he smiled back at me.

"Be careful." This is the last thing he said before leaving.

I saw Stephen standing outside the gate.

"I've been waiting for you...I was worried about you because it's late but it looks like you're enjoying yourself with that Xenon!"

"Yes, I did enjoy it. He just made me happy today, so what's wrong with that?"

"What kind of fun? In bed?" My palm quickly touched his cheek, I was a little surprised by what I did to slap his cheek.

But my forehead wrinkled when I realized what he told me.

"Are you saying that Xenon and I did something together?! Are you crazy Stephen! what are you thinking again!!"

"Why? Isn't it true? What Alyana are you going to lie again? Do you want evidence? Come here!" He violently pulled my hand inside the house.

"A-Ouch! What the hell is hurting me!" He let it go when we were inside the room.

"What's wrong with you?!!" Shout if you have a question.

"My problem? I should ask you Alyana, what is your problem and you did this to me?!!"

I held my head before looking at him again. "What do you mean Stephen! I don't understand you!"

He took the envelope that was on the bed, took something from inside and threw the photos at me...

My eyes widened when I saw Xenon and I, when I hugged him, he messed my hair, we played at the arcade, ate ice cream. Everything we did earlier has a picture here...I was even more surprised when I saw that last picture.

when Xenon kissed me.

Stephen took the photo and showed it to me, so it really made me look like that photo.

"What's this?! What does this mean Alyana?!! You guys have been in a relationship for a long time and you're not telling me! I almost married you, you're a cheater!!" He yelled at me and I clenched my fist.

"W-What are you talking about Stephen? Where did you get those?!"

Yes, it's true that Xenon kissed me in the picture, but we don't have a relationship, we're just friends. Xenon and I are just friends, I even told Xenon earlier that I love him. I know if I hurt his feelings but I chose to hurt him more for Stephen.

"THAT IS NOT IMPORTANT!!"

"I ASK YOU WHO GAVE YOU THOSE PHOTOS!! AND WHO F**KING TOLD YOU THAT I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH XENON?!! IS IT VANESSA?? ARE YOU GOING TO BELIEVE ALL OF THE STUPID SHE SAYS ??"

but that's impossible because how would he know that Xenon and I left while he was in the hospital...but I really feel like he's the one with the plan, he said he'll do everything just to get Stephen.

Have we always been like this? Fight just because of Vanessa?

"If it's Vanessa, what would you do to harm her?! You know what, you're much worse than her! This is how bad you are now, even though you were innocent at first."

"I'm not bad because I didn't really do anything bad!!"

"You're even more of a liar than her, isn't it nice to ask Alyana? Did you enjoy yourself? You're no different from the girls I've met, you're both flirtatious! Cheaters and look like money!!" Because of that, I slapped him hard on both cheeks.