Chapter 65: Chapter 65

I'm just here in the room right now, sitting on the edge of the bed while staring at my sing-sing in my hand.

"Why do I feel like there will be no marriage?" I didn't say anything to myself and just sighed.

I think Stephen is upstairs. He said he will put the child to sleep but until now he has not returned. Did the child really sleep for a long time or maybe he was doing something else?

I sighed again and left the room. I went to the kitchen to get some drinking water.

I suddenly heard Vanessa's voice behind me. "Oh, Alyana. Alyana? Hey, I'm talking to you!" I didn't pay attention to him.

"Damn! Are you deaf?! Hey!"

"What??!" I looked at Vanessa with a frown.

"Are you yelling at me?" This is an unbelievable question.

Is that a cry for him? I'm just calm here.

"Eh, what about now? Don't yell at me if you want, I'm useless." I finished a glass of water and was about to leave.

"Ughh, I feel sorry for you."

"What did you say?" I looked at him.

"I said I feel sorry for you because Stephen is starting again. We broke up once but we got back together, he can't stand me. How can it be now that we both have children." He said with a grin.

"Oh really? tsk, maybe you're thinking that you'll get back to the way you used to be? Don't assume too much Vanessa, it's not fun to watch." I said.

He laughed and stepped closer to me. He pulled the end of my hair and twisted it around with one of his fingers.

"Did you get hurt earlier when he didn't believe you?" The smile on his lips still didn't disappear, he suddenly grabbed my jaw and whispered in my ear.

"I'm sad to say this to you, but prepare yourself, Alyana, because what's going to happen next will be even more painful." he grinned at me.

What is this girl planning!

"Hmm, I'll feel the pain but it's okay, it's worth it because even if I get hurt physically, I'll make sure you get hurt emotionally."

"What do you mean?" I asked him but he didn't answer.

I think it's crazy what he's saying.

"You know I saw you for the first time

I'm shivering. The one at the mall? It's not a coincidence because actually, I planned all of that. i first saw you with Stephen at the restaurant and you had a child with you, I thought it was your child but I found out that you were the child's nanny pfft... it's funny because Stephen liked a nanny--oh, wait he likes you is Stephen really? Ah, right he likes you but he doesn't love you."

"That's not true, he loves me more than he loved you before." Emphasis on saying.

"How did you say that? Did he say that he loved you more than when he loved me before? You know that you know nothing, if only you had really seen how crazy he was to me and how much he loved me. He even knelt before me and begged me not to leave him--"

"You know Vanessa, it's just a memory now. Do you think I'll be jealous? well, you made a mistake because even though I will never be jealous of what Stephen did to you, because in truth the Stephen I met now is the one I like more. Do you think I will cry, feel sad or give up just because of what you say? the next time you think about what you're going to say to me, you'll just be embarrassed."

"You really don't want to give up?"

"I don't care if you don't want to give up because if I do everything, I'll just get what I want. Just get what should be mine!"

My eyes widened when he took the knife from the table. "Hmm, have you been stabbed by a knife Alyana?" He asked and his eyes were on the knife, as if he was checking if the knife was sharp.

"W-What are you coming back to do!"

"Oh, just a minute. Don't be afraid, I was just asking, and then you want me to stab you?" At the same time, he raised the knife and pointed at me with it.

"You're really going crazy Vanessa, stop your madness--" I was surprised when he grabbed my hand. He held the knife to me and quickly stabbed it in his stomach.

I blinked and felt my lips tremble. I don't know what to say or do, it's like I'm suddenly stiff and I can't move from where I'm standing now.

"I-I can get it too Stephen remember that." He grinned at the same time even though there was a trace of pain on his face.

"WHAT THE HELL!" I heard Stephen's voice and I was about to turn my gaze to him but Vanessa tightened her grip on my hand and pressed the knife even harder.

"S-Stephen--"

Vanessa suddenly lost consciousness and was about to fall but Stephen quickly ran and grabbed her waist.

"WHAT THE F**K DID YOU JUST DO TO HER! WHY DID YOU STAB HER ALYANA!!?" I just blinked and looked at my bloodied hand.

i-Is this what he meant earlier? Is that really how he wants to get Stephen? He intends to destroy me with Stephen, is that what he wants? I don't know if you really love Stephen so you're doing this Vanessa...

I didn't realize that they had already called an ambulance, while I was still unconscious.

"Alyana! Alyana!" Little by little if I looked at Stephen shaking my shoulder.

"S-Stephen..."

"Why did you do that??" This is a serious question for me.

I scratched my hand and looked in another direction. I don't know where to start, I don't know how to tell him... I'm afraid that he might not believe me. I'm afraid that I might look bad in Stephen's eyes, that he might think that I'm just lying.

Did you see it? It seems that it saw that I was the one who stabbed, but the truth is that it was not. She was far away so she probably didn't see that it was actually Vanessa who took the strength to hold my hand and stab herself.

"Are you really that mad at Vanessa to do that?! I thought I knew you...but I'm wrong. are you trying to imitate your stepmother? You want to know how it feels to stab someone, is that what you're going to do Alyana!?"

My jaw almost dropped from what he was saying. I can't believe he thought of that.

"W-What are you p-saying S-Stephen? I never even thought of doing that, I can't m-hurt." Your voice is getting hoarse and I can't stop crying while looking at it coldly looking at me.

"So, what do you call it?! You can't hurt but you can kill, right Alyana?"

"S-Stephen m-trust me...I'll explain everything, s-I'll tell it from the beginning." I wanted to touch his cheek but he shook my hand.

"I saw it Alyana! My two eyes saw it, don't lie because my eyes saw it!" I bit my lip when he yelled at me.

He is angry with me...Stephen is angry with me.

"Stephen! Don't yell at Alyana!" Manang Daley who was beside me scolded.

"Shut up, don't get involved in our conversation." He firmly held both of my shoulders and forced me to face him.

"A-What's the matter S-Stephen I'm-I'm hurt..." my tears flowed even more because of his actions now.

"Do you know you can go to jail for what you did?! if Vanessa wakes up and wants you to go to jail, you will go to jail, do you know that Alyana!! Are you thinking right!!” I couldn't say anything, all I could do was sob.

"Stephen! Do you see that you are already hurting Alyana!"

I felt his grip on my shoulder loosen. I bent down and caught my breath.... I grabbed my chest when I felt a sudden tightness.

I see if Manang kicked Stephen out in front of me, Manang helped me stand up.

"Aye?"

I closed my eyes and woke up, it was as if my vision suddenly became blurry. "Alyana?"

"M-Manang..." She fainted when she called him.

Suddenly I fell and I heard Stephen call my name before I lost consciousness.

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"Stephen, you should have taken her to the hospital, maybe Alyana is already sick!" I heard Manang Daley's voice.

"He doesn't want me to take him to the hospital, when he wakes up and sees that he's in the hospital, he'll definitely be angry with us."

I slowly opened my eyes and saw that I was now in Stephen's room.

"You should have let him explain before you yell at him and accuse him!" I saw that they were standing by my side, Stephen turned his back on me and they didn't seem to notice that I was awake.

"Manang, what else is there to explain, I saw it with my own eyes?!" I got up from lying down and Manang Daley looked at me, Stephen also looked at my behavior.

"You two talk, make sure you get along. When I hear that you yelled at Alyana again, I'll tell your mommy Stephen." manang came out of the room and Stephen sat on the edge of his bed.

"Alyana..."

"I'm so sorry, I really didn't mean to yell at you. n-I was just carried away by my emotions, I was just worried about you that Vanessa might put you in jail for what you did--" I didn't let him finish his words.

"I didn't do that." I said straight.

"Alyana, you don't have to lie, I promise you that I won't be angry if you confess to me." I frowned at what he said.

Doesn't he understand?! Didn't he understand the word I didn't do that!

"When it's said if I didn't do it, I didn't do it! why don't you want to believe!! You told me earlier that you thought you knew me, but you didn't..."

"Alyana that was just--" I cut him off.

"Yes you're right! You don't even know me very well because if you really know me, you know I can't do that! Even if you say hurtful words to me, shout at me, stab me, strangle me or even kill me, you will never make me admit to something I didn't do!" I clenched my fist in anger and annoyance.

Vanessa!! Get ready for me when I see you! You really want to reveal that I stabbed you, you meant for Stephen to see that. You really plan that thing.

"Shhh, don't cry, I believe in you okay? don't cry please, sorry Alyana... I'm sorry."

You apologized to me Stephen, but you kept doing it over and over again. It's okay if you're sorry, you only did it once but it seems like it's happening again and again.

"Y-Do you know what m-hurts more for me? When you don't p-trust me, you say you n-believe me but the truth is you don't, you're just making me feel better by p-saying you believe me." I stammered and wiped the tears from my cheeks.

"H-That's not true Alyana--"

"That's the truth!" Shout out. He was about to wipe the tears from my cheek but I shook his hand, as if he was surprised by what I did.

"You shook my hand earlier, didn't you, feeling like you didn't want me to touch you. do you hate me or do you hate me first?"

"What are you talking about Alyana? That's not true!"

"Why is it true S-Stephen?"

I believe in you Alyana."

He hugged me tightly and I tried to push him but my body was so weak that I didn't have the strength to push him away from me.

"N-I really struggle when I tell the truth... because when I tell the truth no one believes me. I'm not a bad person Stephen, when I say I didn't do something I hope you believe me it's me."

"Y-Do you know how hard it is for you to have no one believe you?" I added.

"Shhh, t-stop Alyana..." I felt her rubbing my back.

"Vanessa was hurt physically, I was hurt emotionally. For me, it hurts more emotionally than Vanessa's. The wound will heal, but it won't go away, but mine will last forever, I can carry it with me forever."

This is really what Vanessa wants to happen to me, she won't hurt me but emotionally yes! you're really good too, you're impressive!

"Alyana,"

"Don't talk to me Stephen." I said and turned away from him.

It's sad to think that the two of us are like this now because of Vanessa, it's not just because of Vanessa, it's because of you Stephen when you don't trust me. What? as far as I know in a relationship, trust is the most important thing, what's the use if you just love each other but you don't have trust?

I didn't pay attention to Stephen all day, I didn't talk to him even though he was obviously annoyed with me because I didn't answer every one of his questions or I couldn't even be silent in front of him.

I don't want to talk, I don't want to talk to him because I might say something that I'll regret in the end and that's what I don't want to happen. I don't want to rush because they say regret comes later.

***

I'm here now on the sofa, Effren in my arms. It's a good thing Effren didn't cry, I'm not used to raising a child yet.

We are the only ones in the house. Manang Daley and Stephen visited Vanessa at the hospital. I really want to go but don't, I might end up killing someone--that girl is a demon.

just a few minutes later they both arrived, Manang Daley took the child and entered the room while Stephen was standing in front of me.

"I begged Vanessa, she won't file a case against you."

"So, should I thank him?" I asked philosophically.

"I'm not saying thank you. What I mean is..."

"No, it's like you're telling me to thank her. Why would I f**king do that? She stabbed herself then she blamed me for that and you want me to f**king say thank you to her?!"

"I really want to slap him right now! I'm in awe of him, his face is so thick! He's still a victim!" I'll add more.

"Stop Alyana!" I'll see if he's about to raise his palm to maybe slap me on the cheek.

"Stop? Where? did i say something wrong?! When the day comes when you know the truth, don't apologize to Stephen!"

"What?! You're going to hurt me? You're going to slap me? Go ahead and slap me, I'm already used to being slapped!"

brave if you promise him and see if he slowly lowered his hand.

"Look Alyana, I'm so--" I didn't listen to what he had to say. I turned my back on him and entered the room.

I leaned against the wall and covered my face. Stopping herself from sobbing. "I-If you really love me Stephen, you'll believe me." I promised myself before I started crying.

So can he really hurt me? Did I think he wouldn't hurt me like they did to me mom? Is that really it? Does a person's behavior change over time? or maybe I'm just now meeting the real Stephen?

"Alyana? Alyana!" I heard him knocking on the door, I just covered my mouth while sobbing and my tears continued to flow.

"Alyana open the door!"

I sighed before speaking. "I want to be alone Stephen, leave me alone."

"Okay fine, just tell me if you want to talk to me." I don't know if I can talk to you Stephen because when I look at you it hurts me, you say you believe me but your eyes say something else...

I'm a mess, I don't know if I'll regret meeting you. to be honest, when you weren't there, when I didn't know you, life was okay even if they hurt me, I'm used to it so it's okay...but this is not... I'm not used to being hurt because of a man.

I was about to close my eyes but suddenly when I heard my cellphone ring, I picked it up and answered it immediately.

[Alyana?]

"Hello? W-Who is this?" I asked the caller while wiping tears from my cheeks.

[it's me Xenon,]