Chapter 64: Chapter 64

David’s P.O.V.

It was the first time Helena called me David, and the feeling sounded so foreign. Suddenly, she appeared to be a different person—a stranger to me. In just a blink of an eye, it seemed like she was no longer my girlfriend.

It was hard to accept the fact that all the times we had been together, she loathed every part of it. It was hard to hear coming straight from her mouth that everything was just a lie. It was hard to see how she was insulting me. Like she had never treated me as her real boyfriend.

It didn’t take long before we found ourselves soaking wet. I was even trembling, but I set it aside and pretended not to hear all the things Helena had said—although those words were stabbing me like hell. I took off my suit and attempted to wear it on her shoulders because I knew that she was feeling cold as well, but she just shoved my hands away.

“Don’t you hear me? I just used you to get the valedictorian title! That was my only goal, David. Haven’t you noticed it? Every time I taught you how to play the piano and the violin, it was always exam’s week. I even faked all those kisses just for you to turn your attention to me!” Helena gnashed her teeth before continuing her statement.

“Now, haven’t you realized it yet, or do you want me to explain to you word-per-word? For Christ’s sake, stop acting like a fool. Everything was all planned! I even stole your review materials and changed your formulas so you would fail the exams! And now that I’ve got what I want, we’re done. I can dump you just like that!” Helena smirked like she was telling me how foolish I was.

She now became a cold-blooded girl who never cared if people would get hurt from whatever her mouth would say so. She doesn’t seem to be the same girl I loved anymore—the only girl I fully gave my heart into!

Is everything I heard correct? Are those words really coming from her? I could fucking accept if those words would come from someone else, but from Helena? Why? What did I ever do wrong? Why is she doing this to me when all I could do was love her?

“W-Why are you doing this, Helena? W-Why are you hurting me so much? I love you more than myself. Why do we have to come to this? Why are you ending everything this way?” What I told her were words of pain.

My mouth remained open because I still wanted to ask more from her, but at the same time, I didn’t know how else I was able to speak in front of her. It hurts me so much that words could not escape past my quivering lips. I felt like my heart was totally crushed, and all the future plans I wanted to do with Helena had totally vanished.

Every part of me was shattered into pieces. There was nothing left.

“I didn’t ask you to love me, David. I’m sorry, but we’re done here!” Helena said fiercely and without any guilt. Her green eyes were feeling sorry, but her mouth was almost cursing me.

After that, she took off our silver couple ring from her left finger. Helena was trying all her efforts to place it on my hands, but I didn’t want to accept it until she just deliberately threw it on my chest. I didn’t want to get the ring that I already gave her because it would only look like accepting my heart that she was returning to me.

It was ironic how I wanted to comfort her when times were rough, but right now, I was even more hurt by what she was doing. I didn’t know what happened between the two of us, let alone having a single clue. There were so many ‘whys’ preoccupying my mind, but I only struggled to find the answer.

Because Helena was only the answer—the answer I could never have.

I had no other choice but to close my eyes after I heard how the ring clanked into the ground. I opened my eyes again when I heard the sound of an approaching car. It stopped right in front of us, and I knew that Helena’s family owned that limousine—the same limousine that drove her to our prom.

“Life is like a dark fairytale, David. Happy endings do not exist. If it happens that we are about to see each other again, let’s just forget that once, we’ve met. Let’s just forget that once…” Helena swallowed first before continuing her words, “we used to love each other. Oh, I was wrong to say that. Since I never knew how to love, I doubt if what I really felt for you was love… or just pity.”

Everything was too excruciating. How I wished that I could just easily disappear and woke up from this horrible nightmare. I could accept the fact that Helena deceived me, but my heart refused to believe that she never loved me.

“After all… I never loved you, and you’re only delusional to believe that what we had for each other was considered love. For me, you are nothing. It was so disgusting how I managed to say that I have loved you before, David. I’m sorry!” Helena wiped her tears as she continued to hurt me, and the fear of letting her go was paralyzing me.

Those were Helena’s last words before she opened the door and climbed inside their car. I was in so much pain right now, but I knew I shouldn’t give up. My heart was still urging me to fight for Helena with the very least chance that I had.

I chased after her and ceaselessly knocked on the backseat’s right-side window from where she was currently sitting. It was darkly tinted, so I couldn’t see Helena’s reaction to what I was doing. I knew that she was crying. I knew that, like me, she was also suffering.

“Helena, please… don’t leave me! Please, I can’t afford to lose you. I know you’re just lying, and you still love me. If not, I’ll change whatever it is that made you fall out of love. I promise to be a better man. Please, just tell me! It’s not yet late, we can still go back to what we used to be… please,” I begged for her but the driver, whom I knew was Ricardo, quickly drove away.

“Helena! Helena!” I looked like a madman, screaming her name while still chasing after their car that I could barely see.

Breaking down in despair, I knew I had done everything I could to save our relationship. But right now, I could do nothing but stand up and walk back. All I knew was I got exhausted from running until I stopped and held my knees. Unbeknownst to me, I ended up sitting on the wet and cold ground after chasing them.

It was so ironic that our love story just ended the same way it started with the presence of the rain. I guessed everything that started off quickly had to end immediately. Helena ended everything without giving me a clear explanation about what her problem was. We could have worked it out together, but she never gave me a chance.

After my heart got broken, I bled an ocean through my tired eyes. I couldn’t accept that tonight would be a tragic night. I was looking forward to this prom, but little did I know that I would be damn so hurt. I was so helpless, and my soul felt like it didn’t belong to me anymore. And while it does, I learned more about the pain than I ever wanted to know.

It hurts. It hurts a lot! I knew that Helena was only lying to me. I knew that with all the days we had been together, she made me feel that she truly loved me and she doesn’t just feel sorry for me. I could feel it in our kiss earlier, so I was sure as hell that Helena was only lying. In fact, I never felt that she pitied me throughout our relationship… but why does she have to hurt me so badly?

I love you so much, Helena… but what you did hurts me far more than what was done by Vanessa.

The greatest mistake I ever made was not loving Helena but thinking that our secret relationship would work forever. I still believed that we had a future together, but my rage right now was more than what my heart could bear at all. Helena drew me in all the sweetness I had never found before.

Our bond grew into something so strong—I could still feel it even when we were apart. I could still feel it even though I already had a broken heart.

It wasn’t that long before I felt that something seemed to get stuck underneath my shoes, causing something to clack with every step of my right foot on the ground. It was quite brassy to hear, so I took my seat on the sidewalk and saw what it was.