Chapter 38: Chapter 38
David’s P.O.V.
Waking up to the intensity of sunlight hitting my face and the chirping of melodic birds drifting in, I felt exhausted. I slowly opened my hazy eyes and rubbed them to be steady, only to find Helena sleeping soundly beside me. I thought it was all just a dream, but it was certainly a reality.
I couldn’t help but smile while gently caressing her hair. She was undoubtedly beautiful, most especially when she does not have her glasses. But speaking of her eyeglasses, I didn’t see her wearing those last night. She might have lost it somewhere. Now, I became worried about her again. Her eyes would hurt a little if she couldn’t see things clearly.
She was using my right arm as her pillow, and even though I gradually felt the numbness of my muscles over there, I did not remove it nor move an inch because she might wake up all of a sudden. I could bear that feeling for Helena. I knew how tired and frightened she was last night, so she deserved to rest… here in my arms.
Her sprained left foot was loosely curled and snuggled on my thighs, and her right hand was even draped around my waist. Who wouldn’t want to wake up to this breathtaking scenery? Although I could feel a call of nature, I didn’t leave her behind, and my eyes just continued to wander around her gorgeous face.
Even if it would take us all day here, I could never get tired of staring at her. I could spoil this moment with her. I could stay here for another night if I would still be with her.
God knew how much I worried for her, and time was slowly killing me last night when I was still unable to find her. It was as if my head would explode due to so much anxiety, and I couldn’t think straight anymore.
Then, I finally found her. But I never thought that I would see her in that condition—crawling on the ground while soaking in the rain with an injured left foot. My heart sank by reminiscing what happened to her.
That would be the last thing I would have ever wanted to see in my entire life. It actually pierced my heart! I would rather be hurt, and I would be much more willing to exchange positions with her. I was ready to get damned and endure all the pain if it was for the sake of Helena.
Surprisingly, Helena hugged me. I never thought, even in my dreams, that it would happen. At that moment, I could feel how scared she was while wandering alone in the woods—putting herself on what was waiting across the borderline of what was unseen here. If only I was faster enough to see her, that would at least lessen her trauma, even for a bit.
Carrying her in a bridal way, I couldn’t help but feel like a knight in shining armor saving his gorgeous damsel in distress. If only she knew how my fingers were shivering while holding her, afraid of hurting her furthermore. It was the first time she never got even of my teasing and just rested her head on my chest.
Helena was so light. I could actually throw her in the air and catch her body again. I could even carry her for the whole day without any interruption, but I was still grateful when God answered my prayer for us to see a small hut and used it as a shelter.
Now, I couldn’t get enough of staring at her. My thoughts had led me to carefully run my fingers on her right cheek. My eyes traveled from her naturally long lashes, pointed nose, and down to her red lips. I smiled even more when I slowly remembered everything that happened last night…
“Please, just let me hug you like this. Maybe, time will come that I would never hug you like this ever again.” I knew it was impossible for her to listen to my pleas, but I still tried beseeching her.
Wrapping Helena like this in my arms, it felt like all of my wishes came true. I didn’t expect that cuddling someone you love could make you feel even much better despite the bleak night. We were currently lost in this austere forest, but I didn’t care at all. As long as she was with me, I would be fine.
I knew within myself that what I felt for Helena wasn’t only an infatuation but love. I knew that everything was happening so fast right now, but I could already tell this soon that I loved Helena. There was no question that I had already fallen in love with this green-eyed woman.
Stiffened, I suddenly didn’t know how to react when Helena reciprocated the same hug that I was giving her. My eyes stretched wider because I didn’t expect that she would wrap her arms around me even tighter.
It was only a matter of time before I released her in my arms, and she did the same thing too. I looked at her wonderful face, and I could even see a glint of tears in her eyes. It looked like she was blinking back her tears, afraid of letting them fall into her pretty cheeks.
Helena’s expression was so etched. She was so transparent to read. But behind her frowns or smiles, I could only see how pretty she was, and nothing else mattered to me. Under the beautiful moonlight, we looked at each other. I tried so hard to control how I felt, but I was unsuccessful.
She was so exquisite right now, and I couldn’t afford to miss this opportunity. I felt like butter melting in a frying pan while looking through her green eyes because her gaze caused a strange heat in my body, setting a blazing fire within me. My eyes raked at her whole face until I focused on her red and luscious lips, making Helena bow her head.
“H-Helena…” I affectionately lifted her chin using my index finger, and it made her look at me straight in the eyes again.
I gulped before touching her face. I even heard her mention my name until I couldn’t stop myself from crossing the remaining distance between the two of us and pressing my lips into hers. The feeling was heavenly because I knew that this would be our first real kiss.
The kiss was just a smack, and I was too careful while claiming her lips. Actually, I waited for Helena to object. I expected her to push me away, to call me a pervert, to slap or spank me while accusing me of taking advantage of her, but she did not do that. She didn’t let me know even a slight feeling of refusal. My desire to deepen the kiss got intensified even more because of that.
Damn! Her lips are so soft that I couldn’t get enough of them. Even if we stayed this way until tomorrow, I won’t still get tired of lavishly claiming her lips!
I didn’t know about that torrid kiss people usually refer to as French kiss, but I still tried to do it. I tried to open her mouth, and Helena’s warmth seemed to be teaching me something I was able to learn instantly. She didn’t even cringe with what I did and just went with the flow, making me deepen the kiss into so much more while my hands were roaming down from her jaws to the neck.
The feeling was divine, and it was slowly making me insane. I could hear myself moaning in between our kisses.
While shoving my tongue inside and played with hers, I didn’t imagine that Helena would also succumb to our passionate kisses. I could feel that it was too little for me to finally reach the verge of getting wild, most especially when Helena returned the kisses with her tongue dancing with mine. She was fervently caressing the insides of my mouth, and it prompted me to lose my mind.
My lips then traveled down towards her jaw, her neck, her collar bones, and her cleavage, while my hands couldn’t stop caressing her nape, back, and waist. My hands slightly palmed her breasts, and I was about to take off her sleeveless shirt until I suddenly stopped. It was as if a cold water had been poured on me. It made me go back to my senses. I couldn’t believe that I led both of us into this one hell of a situation.
I was damn ashamed. At the same time, I was so disappointed in myself while worriedly thinking about how I would justify my actions to Helena.
Much to my distress, I didn’t know if I still had the image and self-worth to face Helena with what I did. I wouldn’t want her to think that I was taking advantage of her. I adored her, but I didn’t know what kind of dark oppression urged me to do that. All of a sudden, I became a monster and succumbed to temptation too much.
“I’m sorry, Helena. I… I shouldn’t have gone beyond that kiss. I’m really sorry. I don’t want you to think that I am taking advantage—” I tried to explain, but she gently placed her forefinger in my lips to stop me from speaking. It seemed like it was the first time she did that to me, rather than bickering with me.