Chapter 50: Chapter 50

The news last night spreaded widely on the internet. The photos of our kiss in the car were spread so that my mother was even busy calling me to find out the truth.

I didn't expect things to happen like this. Everyone was busy sending me congratulations but there were also some Barra fans who didn't like it, usually it came from female fans.

Even worse, someone asked us when our wedding would take place. Like... our relationship were just in the beginning.

And now I was sitting with Barra in the living room, watching a movie together. I felt so happy over all these conveniences, but on the other hand I was still thinking of Haytham.

He was helping me to get Barra back.

"You're busy thinking about something." I gasped then turned my head, just as his face approached mine.

"There is something bothering you." He whispered with his breath that now collided right in my face.

Every time we got this close, it felt like I couldn't take my mind anywhere other than to focus on him.

His finger gently stroked the tip of my nose down to my upper lip and stopped in the middle.

"Can I taste it to make you forget everything but me?" He asked with a heavy sigh.

I nodded, but believe me my heart was vibrating like bass on the speaker.

He smacked his lips with his hand holding my head from shaking. I kissed him back, immediately all the worries and other things that filled my brain disappeared.

I pulled the collar of his shirt just to make him chuckle softly at my aggressiveness. We were kissing each other so passionately.

He pushed me gently until my back touched the sofa coaster. We didn't break our kiss until his lips slowly fell to the point he wanted.

He kissed my neck then stopped, his fingers gently stroked some parts making it difficult for me to breathe properly, "This is all a sign that you are mine."

He talked about my hickey beforehand on some parts of my neck.

"I love you." With that he kissed my collarbone.

I am his and he is mine, is that so? I began to hesitate for a moment I remembered that he didn't know who I really was.

"You're still thinking about other things." I gasped when he spoke with his heavy breath and left me who was still lying down.

He sat with his hair ruffled, making me immediately pulled his other hand, "Sorry."

He turned his body towards me and then clutched my cheek, "You can tell me what bothers you." His eyes looked at me meaningfully. This was the gaze that I'd been wanting.

My God, is this hard to tell him the truth about me?

"Is it difficult for you to tell me? I just don't want you to think about it yourself. I want you to share it with me." His voice sounded low before he finally left me speechless.

I didn't want to ruin the moment that both of us had, especially since we were just being honest about each other's feelings. It was not the right time for him to know the real me.

I stood up then ran to follow him. He stopped halfway with Ronald and Jake who were busy talking to him. I guess they were talking about business.

"They have other talks." Elsa approached me out of nowhere.

"Seems so." I commented with a nod.

"You seem like you've been hit by a tornado until-" I closed her mouth and then asked her a question.

"Is my hair messy?" She nodded.

As soon as possible, I combed my each strand hair with my fingers.

"And the hickey marks." I glared at her comments then pulled her into my room.

She taught me to cover every part of it with concealer. If only she didn't tell me, everyone might see it.

"Have you told him?" I knew what she was referring to. Elsa sat beside me for a moment only silence answered her question.

"Sooner or later he should know." She spoke again, "He should also be the first to know about this."

"I know I was wrong for hiding this. But, I'm afraid. What happened before made me even more sure he would leave me." My voice started to hoarse. I was getting hard to swallow my saliva to my throat.

"You just need a time." I sighed.

"I need to meet Haytham." I declared, just to make her eyes widened.

"I really didn't suggest that. You know that the relationship between Barra and Haytham is still not going well. Your boyfriend needs time to kill his jealousy between you two."

Elsa was right, but somehow I was not sure if Haytham was all right. I needed to check on him just once, one last time.

"But."

"No but. You know what happened last time."

Last time things didn't go well and I hadn't explained everything that happened between Haytham and me to Barra. It was possible that Barra still didn't like Haytham.

"Then, I will explain to him now." I hurried and headed for Barra's room. When I got there I found him going to leave the room.

"Just now I wanted to see you." I frowned, "I'm sorry."

"I was just about to say that too." I smiled.

"I don't want to lose you if I don't apologize immediately."

"Same here." I raised my hand as he chuckled.

He walked up to me, in an instant he hugged me. I felt the comfort and warmth in his arms again. My intention to say anything else disappeared.

I didn't want to hurt him, I'd decided he didn't need to know all this.

"I'll have a meeting outside for a while, are you going to be okay here with Elsa?" He let go of his hug but his hands were still wrapped around my waist, pressed my body with him.

"Yeah." I leaned my forehed closer to his.

We closed our eyes, enjoying each other's breath.

"Oh shit! I forgot to knock." We looked up after hearing Jake cuss himself.

Barra groaned, "Your bad habits are still going on.

"Sorry." He chuckled and walked over then handed him a sheet of paper, "The car is ready."

"Wait outside." Barra instructed Jake, then he nodded for a moment and leaving us alone.

I tidied up the collar of his shirt then help him tidying up the strands of his hair which were still messy.

"You know the funny facts." He drew closer to my ear, "I don't want to go. I want to be with you always."

My cheeks heated up and my ears felt goosebumps to the tips of my feet that I felt twisted after hearing his sexy whisper.

I shut up his mouth obviously made him startled, "Stop bragging and hurry up. Remember you need to go to the meeting."

He let go of my hand then kissed it, "Too bossy." He commented then hugged me once again.

"I will miss you." With that he left the room.

I took the longest breath I'd ever taken and then my eyes paid attention to his room. The last time I entered here, what I found was a letter of agreement between my father and his father.

That's right, Jazzlin's problem with her father was still not over and I needed Haytham's help to solve this problem.

I needed father's forgiveness.

"You're like having an affair behind your boyfriend who is busy meeting for the sake of your future." Elsa chattered for a moment the two of us got in the car and headed for Haytham's mansion.

Elsa initially rejected my idea, she thought that I was crazy because I dared to do this while things were still heating up between Barra and Haytham.

"Do I look like I have other options?" I asked back.

"Yeah yeah, you're always trapped in a state like this."

Earlier the guards wanted to follow us, but Elsa managed to convince them that we would be fine.

Elsa was one of them after all, so they easily trusted her. This woman could do self-defense and was also adept at using weapons, but there were times when she let her guard down like last time at the bar.

That bad incidents still like to popped into my mind.

"My bad luck." I muttered.

"Not at all, because you got your prince charming." She giggled.

Arrived at the Sanders's mansion. I immediately got down and the guards who recognized me let me in, but not with Elsa.

Didn't Haytham and Barra make up for each other? Then why are the Ainsley's men still not allowed to enter?

"It's fine. I'll just wait here." I nodded at her words then running inside to Haytham's room. He wasn't there, but when I turned around I found he was staring at me.

"Haytham." I ran to him with a smile.

His face turned pale like I was a ghost, "Oh- yeah, what are you doing here?" He asked but he looked so distant.

"I need your help."

"About what?" He closed our distant then looking into my eyes.

"It's about Barra! How could I tell him about my true self? I don't want him to keep thinking that I am Jazzlin when I am Janielle. I want him to know the reality, but I'm so afraid of losing him."

His face softened and then he hugged me with his palm stroking my head. I hugged him back. Since childhood we complement and help each other when one of us had a problem.