Chapter 17: Chapter 17

Alexander’s POV

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I knew I had anger issues but until now I always used to hurt myself in anger. Never did I hurt anyone else. Yeah! I did scare the shit out of them.

I tried to apologize to her enough though I knew that I did something which was unforgivable.

I felt like a monster.

No, in fact, I was worse than them.

How could I raise my hand on a woman just because she refused to obey me!

I still remembered how badly my father used to hit my mother when she used to do something on her own and I had sworn not to become like him while treating my wife but here I am, following the path of my father.

“Save it.”, She hissed. “Just like you didn’t want you to slap me, in the same way, we didn’t want to sneak out but we knew that either you will cancel our plan or send guards with you.”, She was damn too angry and surprising seeing her in the state was turning me on. At the same time, she was trying her best to get out of my grip but was failing miserably.

“Let go of me! I’m not going to be your puppet and will follow all your orders. I want to leave. I don’t want to stay with you. Let me go!”,

That’s it. All my plan to beg for forgiveness was long gone. I was again consumed by anger. “Did you forget that those Knights sold you instead of her daughter, to me for the settlement of debts? You’re not going anywhere, woman, and becoming my bride is your fate.”, Saying this I immediately grabbed her lips, reminding her that she was mine.

She tried to fight for a while but after a while she gave up, kissing me back. Her mouth was addictive. It made me crave more of her even though I was already having a taste. It’s been two weeks since I last sucked it. Now, I wanted them swollen, nothing would make me feel better than to know that I’d done that to her.

I couldn’t remember that last time I’d ever been this possessive over anyone. I had already chosen her for my bride yet she dared to leave me and didn’t want to stay with me. I felt anger stir within me by thinking that again.

Did she think that I would let her go just like that?

No way, that would never happen

I felt her shiver and moan in my arms. I broke the kiss for a while to fill some oxygen in my lungs and at the same time, Amber stared at me like I had betrayed her or ditched her. I smiled and kissed her back, taking her bottom lip between mine, and sucked hard before I did the same to the top. My hands traveled down her body to grip her ass as I pushed her body harder against mine. I groaned as her feminine softness came into contact with my raging hard-on. She gasped realizing something, started struggling in my arms to free herself.

But little did she know that her every movement was making me insane.

I wanted her.

God, I wanted her so much, more than I had ever wanted anything in my fucking life.

“Alex…stop!!”, She whispered in between the kisses.

I knew I had to listen to her right now at least in this matter because there was no way I would force myself on her. I let her go from my arms and run my fingers in my hair frustratedly.

“Change your clothes and for tonight, use the guest room.”, I muttered without looking into her eyes. Not that I was ashamed of the fact which happened between us but was feeling guilty for slapping her. I wonder how I am going to make eye contact with her.

She went directly toward the wardrobe and pulled out one of her nightdresses and walked out of the room without looking at me.

God, what had happened to me?

I was never like before.

Yes, she had definitely done something to me. There was no way I reacted to her like this on my own.

Or maybe I have fallen in love with her?

I didn’t remember how long I stood there staring blankly at the door from where she left. And then I saw a shadow, someone was coming toward my room and I didn’t take much time to recognize that shadow. Ms. Potter gave me a weak smile and walked inside the room, holding the first aid box.

Ms. Potter was like a mother figure in my life after my mother but I still had asked her to stay away from me whenever I lost control over my anger.

“What brought you here, Ms. Potter? You know that I want to stay alone in this state.”, I said in a cold tone and she looked at me in confusion.

“But you’re the one who asked for my presence with a first aid kit, aren’t you?”

“Me, WHAT?”

“I should have known that you can never ask for something like that!”, She muttered under her breath but was loud enough that I could hear her.

“Who told you about it?”, I asked, getting annoyed.

“Amber!” Just by hearing her name, I was back to my normal mood.

“What did she say?”

“She said that the blood was oozing out of your palms and knuckles and you have asked for a first aid box.”, She responded. I couldn’t help but smile at her concern. And observing my mood, Ms. Potter asked, “So can I clean your wound?”

I sighed and nodded my head. After a while, Ms. Potter started doing her work and I started thinking of ways to ask for Amber’s forgiveness.

“Ms. Potter?”

“Hmm.”

“Is it true that women don't fall in love with those men who don’t respect her decision or her?”

“That’s not true. Women can fall in love with those men as well. It’s just…she can’t keep loving such men for long.”, She responded in which I recalled my action. “I came to know what you did to her.”, She added, on which I turned my head to face her.

“Did she tell you about it?”

“No.”, She replied immediately. “And I know she was not going to tell me about it. Because she was trying to hide it with her hair. It’s just I saw your fingerprints on her left cheek.”, I closed my eyes with guilt.

“Years back, your mother used to hide her bruises under her makeup and I used to feel sorry for her. I don’t want to feel the same for Amber.”, She said and checked my hand. Once satisfied that the work was done properly, she stood on her feet to leave.

“Will she forgive me?”, I asked her before I could stop myself.

“Depends how hard you’re going to try for her forgiveness.”, She winked before leaving the room.

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#TBC