Chapter 154: Chapter 154

Aana Pov's

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I looked at my mate who was sleeping beside me. His one hand is under my head and the other is encircled around my waist and his leg was on both my legs. I smiled at the way he held me while sleeping.

"He looks so cute while sleeping"

"Indeed" Alice replied through mindlink.

"Are you okay?" she asked after a while.

"I'm"

"I can feel your pain," she whimpered.

"Don't worry... I'm fine. If our mate is with us then I don't need anyone else in my life. He and Rex is enough for me"

"But you broke the link with everyone, Aana. Your parents and Ryan must be worried for you"

"It's for their betterment only, Alice and it's not like I was in contact with my parents or talked to Ryan every day. I rarely talk to anyone in a pack. They would feel sad but after some time they will thank the moon goddess that they got rid of me... the jinx who destroys everyone's happiness."

"Shut up... I hate it when you talk rubbish about yourself" She growled. I sighed and removed Aaron's hand from my waist and then his leg carefully.

"Pearl" he called me in a sleepy voice. His eyes are closed but he must have felt my absence when I hopped down from bed.

"I need to use the washroom" I kissed his forehead and caressed his hair lovingly. "Sleep mate"

I went inside the washroom and looked at myself in the mirror. Aaron was right, my face has become pale in the past few days. I splash water on my face. Don't know why I was feeling nausea all of sudden. Maybe because of the tablets I've been taking for the past few days.

After using the washroom, I went towards the balcony to get some fresh air and to get rid of this unease I'm feeling inside the room. I was staring at the moon when I heard someone call my name. I look around and then downward only to find Ryan standing there. My eyes widened as I didn't expect that he would come here.

"Ryan... What are you doing here?" I asked through sign language. He took out his phone and indicated to me to pick up his call. I immediately went inside and picked up my phone from the side table of the bed before it rang and came back to the balcony, not wanting to disturb Aaron's sleep.

"Why the hell did you reject our pack?" Ryan growled the moment I picked up his call.

"Brother"

"What brother?" he again growled, interrupting me. "Do you have any idea, Aana, how worried I was for you? you broke all the links and didn't pick up my call. I got scared that you" he clamped up.

"That I did suicide?" I completed his sentence. "Don't worry, I will never repeat that stupidity" I mumbled.

"Why? Why did you do that Aana? Why did you reject our pack?"

"Because I don't want to be part of it anymore. moreover, it was in our mind that we will still have a pack but in reality, we all were rogues after Alexander attacked our pack. So it doesn't matter whether I broke the link as an Alpha or not."

"It matters Aana... It matters to me and your parents"

"And what about the pack members? They all want to get rid of me, Ryan."

"It's nothing like that, Aana"

"Are you fooling me or yourself, brother? Whether you accept it or not, the truth is they never consider me as their Alpha after what happened in the pack and hate me from the bottom of their hearts." He didn't say anything in reply and maybe there was nothing to say because he also knows whatever I'm saying is not wrong.

"I did what they wanted from the start. They are just not able to say it. I hope now everyone will be happy" I said and an unwanted tear rolled from my eyes.

"But I'm not happy Aana... How can I be happy when my sister is upset and breaks the link with this brother" Tears rolled from my eyes upon hearing me.

"Maybe it is easy for you to forget me but I can't forget my little sister and leave her alone when she is going through a tough phase of her life"

"It's nothing like that... I'm happy with Aaron and it would be better if you focus on your life, Ryan. Find someone for yourself and live your life with your mate happily. stop worrying about me."

"I will when I will find a girl but before that, my priority is you, Aana. I know you're happy with Aaron but I want you to get rid of your pain." I tightened my lips, not able to understand what I should say to him.

"Every night you get up because of your nightmare, darkness still haunts you, every day you wake up with the fear that Alexander will come and destroy your happiness again. I want you to get out of this fear," he muttered.

"You can't do anything, Ryan. Now this pain is part of my life. No one can do anything about this. It would be better if you forget about me and" I clamped up when I sensed Aaron's presence behind me. I turned and found him standing at the door of the balcony.

"Aaron" I cut the call and went towards him. "I'm sorry... Your sleep got disturbed because of me"

"No… It's okay. What were you doing?"

"I was not feeling sleepy that's why I came outside on the balcony to have some fresh air" I muttered and touched my stomach as I again started feeling the urge to vomit.

"My sleep got broken by your voice. you were talking to someone at three am over the phone" he muttered looking at his watch.

"Yeah I" I wanted to complete but then gave up the idea and ran towards the washroom as I felt that I would throw up any moment and my fear was right. The moment I entered the washroom, I ended up vomiting whatever I had for dinner. I hold the wash basin, feeling dizzy.

"What is happening to me and why are you not healing me Alice'' I groaned frustratingly.

"I don't know why my power is not working on you. Even I'm feeling lazy" She muttered and lay down.

"What?" I frowned and wiped my face with a towel before going out. My eyes went to Aaron who was sitting on the bed lost in his thoughts.

"What happened?" I asked.

"It should be my question, Pearl. What happened to you and why are you ignoring us?"

"I'm not ignoring you and Rex. You are misunderstanding me."

"Then you only tell me what the truth is"

"I'm going through a rough phrase." I sighed and sat beside him. "I'm trying to get healed for our future, Aaron. Please give me some time."

"You can take as much as time you want, Pearl but remember that I and Rex love you a lot. You're like oxygen to us. We will die without you"

"Don't utter rubbish and where will I go?" I asked and kissed his cheek. He nodded his head lovingly and pulled me closer holding my waist. He was about to kiss me. That's when I kept my hand on his chest.

"I need to use the washroom" I again ran towards the washroom to throw up. Don't know why I'm feeling so uneasy.

"I think it's another side effect of the tablet you took when you were having a panic attack" I nod my head agreeing with her. When I went back to my room, I found Aaron sitting on the bed waiting for me.

"You should sleep, Aaron"

"And you?"

"I'm not feeling sleepy."

"But you can lay down beside me," he muttered with hope. For a second, I thought to do as he requested but then again I felt suffocation.

"I think I should go to the park" I muttered and left the room to have fresh air. I'm feeling suffocated inside the house.

"ohh god... what is happening to me?" I sat on the bench and took a deep breath.

"Aana" Alice called me after a while when I felt a little better.

"Yeah"

"Remember the night when Aaron proposed to us in front of the media"

"How can I forget that night?" I muttered with a big smile on my face, remembering one of the beautiful nights I spent with Aaron.

"That day we had unprotected sex." My eyes widened upon hearing her, realising what she meant. I touched my stomach thinking about the possibility of the outcome of making love with Aaron.