Chapter 137: Chapter 137

Aana Pov's

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"Vince" I called him again when darkness surrounded me and this time he responded.

"Where did you go?" I glared at him angrily to which he smiled.

"I was giving you time to observe the situation and think about Aaron instead of me"

"Ohh" I muttered and moved closer to him.

"Do you know Aaron wasn't ignoring me but working on a great project?"

"project?"

"Yes, He is working on a project through which he can help many people who are going through anxiety attacks like me" I muttered with a big smile on my face. When I heard about it, I was so overwhelmed and proud of him but then the thought of how I misunderstood him, filled me with guilt and I had a panic attack. The next thing, I knew I was in his arms and Aaron was calling my name, asking me to open my eyes.

"I told you, Aaron loves you" I nod my head, agreeing with him but my smile vanishes remembering his crying face. He was crying because of me.

"He loves me like no one did and in return, I only give pain to him" I mumbled and looked at Vince who shook his head negatively.

"It's nothing like that, Aana. When will you stop blaming yourself?"

"I'm the reason behind his misery. He was crying, Vince. He was crying after seeing me having a panic attack. I only give him reasons to cry"

"Stop it, Aana. Stop blaming yourself for the things on which you have no control" Vince said frustratingly. Tears fell from my eyes.

"I wish I wouldn't have met him. At least he would have been happy. I ruined his life." This time Vince didn't say a word and kept looking at me with a poker face.

"I'm only a burden on him. That's why I always begged you to take me with you. I don't want to live in this world. I want to die" I yelled and started crying, not able to hold myself.

"I can't see Aaron crying because of me. It would be better if I die. His problem will be solved" I sobbed.

"Fine" I look at Vince upon hearing him.

"If you think that Aaron is happy without you then come with me," he said, forwarding his hand towards me.

"If you want to leave your mate alone and die then hold my hand and leave this world." He said. I look at his hand and then at him.

"I'm not messing up with you, Aana. I'm serious. Come with me by leaving this world and your mate behind" A smile broke on my lips with the thought of going with him.

"Come with you?" I asked again, not able to believe that finally, I can get relief from this horrible life.

"Yeah… The moment you choose to get out of this gate, you will die and leave this world and your mate" He said. I was about to hold his hand with a big smile on my face but stopped when I heard Aaron's voice.

"Pearl" I halted my move when I heard his painful voice.

"What happened?" Vince asked me. I look at him and then around to see the source of the voice.

"I felt like I heard Aaron's voice."

"Ignore him... He must be crying after seeing you on death bed but who cares. You come with me and leave Aaron on himself." I look at him dumb-headed, not able to understand what he meant.

"What? Why are you looking at me like that?" He asked with a frown.

"What do you mean by leaving him an---and why he is cr---crying" I stuttered. The thought that Aaron is not okay was enough to distraught my soul.

"then what do you expect from your mate that he will dance?" He scoffed.

"Vince"

"What? Of Course, he would cry after losing the only person in this world who loves him" His words were enough to bring me into reality.

"You think that you're the reason behind all his pain and misery but you forget Aana that you're his Pearl whom he loves so much that he will die the moment you left him" Tears fall from my eyes.

"You chose to die to run away from everything but have you ever thought how he will live without you?" He asked, making me realise how selfish I become.

"I forget about Aaron in everything while thinking about his tears. I was about to give him more reasons to cry." I mumbled.

"No... he wouldn't have cried Aana but died with you," He said, widening my eyes. That's when I again heard Aaron's voice.

"Please open your eyes, Pearl. I swear if something happens to you then I will burn this world alive and then kill myself" I look at Vince and then nod my head understanding what he meant. I remember how it became impossible for me to leave this life when Vince left me. I can't even imagine how my Aaron will survive who loves me more than I love Vince.

"I don't know how but I fell in love with you at first sight. I don't know how but you become the reason for me to leave this life. I don't know how but you become a reason for me to open my eyes. I don't know how but you become a reason for me to smile. I don't know anything but you. I know that I only need you. I only love you. I only want you in my life. Only you, you're the only thing I'll see forever. In my eyes, in my words, and in everything I do, your sight is the only sight that will ever bring me peace! I love you a lot, Pearl." I recalled the words Aaron told me while proposing to me. A smile broke on my lips realising the depth of his love. Vince is right, Aaron will die the moment I stop taking a breath.

"You're right, Vince but" I turned my head towards him. "I can't see Aaron like this. He suffered a lot because of me and my anxiety."

"He chose to suffer and that's what lovers do. Aaron chose to cross every hurdle and the pain, just to be with you. Because he knows after crossing this painful phase, you both will reach the point where there would be only happiness and he wants to live the moment of happiness with you"

"You're not understanding Vince... Because of my anxiety issues, he also suffers with me and I can't see him like this. That day I said I love him after getting anxious that I will lose him and it hurt him so much." I muttered, recalling the twelve days ago incident.

"My one lie hurt him so much that he didn't talk to me, giving me a chance to tell him that when he proposed to me again and I replied I love you, that confession was from my heart. He cried so much. My anxiety not only troubles me but also affects him. I'm afraid that darkness will surround him if he stays with me" I tell him what scares me the most.

"Then get out of this darkness, fight with your anxiety" I scrunched my eyebrow not getting what he meant.

"Fight with your anxiety issues, Aana. You can do it. All you have to do is take the therapy and treatment which you refused as you didn't want to stop imagining me. Do it now."

"But then I will lose you" I whimper.

"We have to lose something to get something. You have to heal, Aana. If not for yourself then for Aaron who loves you more than himself. You know he will die if something happens to you" I nod my head understanding his point. "Take care of yourself for him and let him take of himself for you"

"And what about you?"

"Me? I already told you I will take rebirth. the moment the moon goddess gives me a chance." I crackle upon hearing him.

"You're my imagination still you're giving me the solution to my problems"

"I'm not your imagination, Aana. I never was" My face paled with his words. I look at him, stunned to say anything.

"I died but my soul will never get peace because you're not at peace. I always stay beside you" he muttered, reminding me all the time when I called him and he appeared in front of me and there I was thinking, I'm imagining him.

"You're with me.... all the time" I whispered. He nodded his head with a big smile on his face.

"Yes... All the time" I smiled with tears in his eyes. How can I be so lucky to get two people who love me more than anyone can imagine?

"But not anymore"

"Why?"

"Because I know that now you get your path which leads towards happiness," he said and distanced himself from me.

"Pearl... Please open your eyes "I again heard Aaron's voice. I turned around to see him but found no one.

"So now what is your decision? Are you going back or coming with" I look at Vince.

"Is that even a question to ask? I'm going to the person who is waiting for me to open my eyes" He nodded his head and kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes despite knowing that I won't feel his kiss but I felt the depth of his love.

I opened my eyes and this time, I didn't see Vince but the person who was crying, holding my hand and keeping his head bowed, asking me to open my eyes. My heart twitches seeing him like this but this time I know what to do.