Chapter 86: Chapter 86

'Don't you dare say it. I shall kill you if you do!' Nancy threatened. Pulling her dress back to cover her exposed breasts and kicking the other part down to cover her thighs.

Breasts with nipples that were now red and taut from his sucking and stroking and those thighs that had made his hands develop a mind of their own, he had wanted to lose himself in her, Jason thought getting stirred again and his hands rubbed his head as he licked his lips. He could still taste her on his lips. He tried to get himself under control. He looked heaven wards as though beginning for strength and inspiration.

He could see that she was angry and in her disheveled state, she looked so sexy that he had to bite his tongue to prevent him from going back into the bed with her.

'What are you talking about?' he asked, his hands in his pickets, trying to hide the bulge between his legs.

'If you dare tell me you are sorry, I swear I shall murder you!' she clarified.

'Sorry? I was not going to say that. I am not sorry that this happened. I enjoyed every part of it and every moment too'.

Nancy was placated a little.

'Then why did you stop? I never thought I'd ask this of any man but there you have it. Why did you?'

'Because, my love, I want to do it right.

Things are complicated at the moment and I want to solve it then I can be with you the way I want without you feeling guilty afterwards . I do not want to take advantage of your vulnerable state'.

Everything came back to Nancy in a flash. She could not believe that she had actually wanted Jason to take her there and was in fact angry and disappointed that he had not.

It was really ironical. Rodney had persistently begged her to go to bed with him and she had refused, giving him one excuse after another until she had given in. Not because she was driven by desire but due to a desire to please him and as a show of her love for him but here, she was virtually begging Jason to make love to her and he was hesitating. She knew that it was not because he didn't find her attractive, his actions a few moments ago proved that. Now he was talking about fixing things?

She must be going out of her mind.

'Oh, of course. I don't know how everything had managed to flee my mind as soon as you touched me. Fool that I am'.

'Nancy, don't punish yourself for this. I am equally responsible and this is two adults expressing their feelings and need for each other There is nothing to be angry or ashamed about. If I had not dragged myself away from you, I would not have been able to stop myself. That's how desirable I find you. I have never lost control with any woman, the way I do with you. Not even with Rebecca and I had loved her deeply', he said trying to placate her.

'That reminds me, your lover is in your bed waiting for you. She came when I just got back from the hospital. I am sure she is still there. You can take the act to it's logical conclusion with her at least with her, you will have no scruples'.

Nancy knew she was acting like a fish wife.But recalling that Phoebe was in Jason's room and that they would possibly make love as he goes in to her made her very mad with jealousy.

She wanted to hit something.

Jason looked at her for a long time and opened his mouth to say something but changed his mind and nodded. Then he walked away from her quarters to the mansion.

Nancy watched him leave, willing him to look back at her, to come back to her bed, to reassure her that she meant more to him than any other woman alive but he didn't and she burst into tears.

What had she just done? She had just given herself away. She had not only told him that she loved and wanted him, she had just shown him how much out of control she had become. Imagine vegging him to love her to completion? What woman ever did that? How much more wanton could she possibly get? Now he must think lowly of her. He must think that she was just like one of his whores or mistresses.

She wanted to sleep but could not and she had no sleeping pills. She had always been against sleeping pills and being a trained nurse, she knew its side effects but she would not have minded taking one now.

She now understood why some people took it.

She considered packing her things and moving away from Jason but where would she go to? Back to that hell hole? No! She could not possibly do that. How to get an apartment quickly? She would have to engage the services if an agent.

She did not think she could stay here till after Christmas.

She imagined Jason going into his room and that sly Phoebe already baked and sexy and inviting.

How would he be able to resist her? Then he would complete with Phoebe what he had not been able to bring himself to complete with her. She was filled with jealous rage.

She guessed that she should be happy that he had stopped himself, else the matter would have been more complicated than it already was.

So why did she still feel this empty? She felt so lonely and more so after being with Jason.

When was she ever going to be lucky in love?

She moved on her bed, trying to adjust her position and felt a wetness between her legs.

It reminded her of her fore play with Jason.

'Oh goodness! Being with him only gets1 better each time. Rodney had never made her feel so aroused and so fast too. So aroused that she lost control. It was almost as though Jason awakened the woman in her that she never knew existed.

She dipped her hands into her wetness and a deep moan escaped her lips as she remembered Jason's hands wrecking havoc on her senses as he buried his finger into her.

She had wanted nothing more at that moment than for him to continue his ministrations.

She could not stop herself as she thought of Jason, his mouth in hers probing, demanding, exciting her and on her breasts, her free hand stole to her breasts as she stroked herself the way he had done, only he had not limited the stroking job to his hands alone, he had employed the services of his hot wet mouth as well.

And as imitated the movement of his hands in her, she felt her climax coming and she burst into a tiny million stars.

She got up and went in for a deep soak.

She had never masturbated before but look at what Jason had made her do.

She must be losing it. And that was why she had to go far away from him as she possibly could before she lost herself to him irrevocably.

'Are you sure you have not already?' A tiny voice whispered the question in her head.

'No, I have not!' she denied loudly and burst into tears again because she knew the truth and the truth was that she had actually lost herself irrevocably to Jason and she did not know what to do.