Chapter 144: Chapter 144

'Nancy, you have to wait for me, please. You have brought so much light and happiness into my life.

I know that we do not see eye to eye sometimes and we have rows but those are lovers rows. Lovers disagree and quarrel but that does not make their love for each other a lie. It rather brings them closer together because they understand each other better as a result.

I may not have been listening to you the way you wanted and deserved in the past but I assure you that from henceforth, I shall do all that you say but you have to come back to me.

Do you remember the joy on the faces of the children as you distributed the gifts you had instigated us to buy for them on that day of the party? I could never forget it and I thought that day that as you like bringing smiles and happiness to people's faces, that I'd do the same to you.

And do you know what? It is not late and I promise you that I shall do it. I shall make you the best husband in the whole wide world. I shall give you everything you ask for that is within my power' to provide. I shall bring you the stars if that is what you wish. You only have to do one thing and that is to open your eyes and come back into my arms.

Even in the midst of danger, you had asked me to kiss you. At that time I had not understood but maybe you were having a premonition of us being separated and you were giving me a farewell kiss?

But you see, I refuse to accept that. You cannot do that to me, not after the way we have lived and the way we still love each other.

You are my soul mate. I keep wondering how my life was before you came into it.

It must have been empty because I can no longer remember how it was. Sleeping with women who did not mean anything to me just for the fun of it and still not gaining any satisfaction just a mere sexual gratification and the emptiness continued.

But since you came into my life, I no longer remember those women. I do not just want sexual gratification but fulfillment in being with you always.

So, you see, you cannot leave me because if you do, you have totally destroyed my life and I will not go in living. It would be better if you took me with you because I do not have the will nor the desire to go on living without you'.

Jason held on to her lifeless hands and squeezed. Trying to squeeze life into her. Trying every possible means humanly possible to wake her from her coma.

He was dying silently.

Why did she have to love and care for him so much that her concern for him had brought her this condition.

Maybe if he had not run to hide with her behind the rock, she wouldn't have seen his injuries and tried to alert the police to come and give him immediate attention.

He could have been more of a man and born the pain well so that she would not have been so bothered and scared that he was dying.

It was the fear of losing him when they were so close to victory that had led her not to care for her life or the danger looming over them and exposed herself in the line if fire and he knew that Maze or whatever his worthless name was had been waiting for just that particular opportunity to avenge his boss and the opportunity had been inadvertently presented to him on a platter of gold and he was still the one who was able to escape.

Jason swore that he would move the earth to ensure that Maze was caught.

He could not go Scot free. Not after inflicting his love with such a life threatening injury as this.

Since he woke, he had been reliving the nightmare they had gone through. Blaming himself for not being more active.

If he had shot the goon and Richmond when he had the chance before driving off, then Maze would not have shot at the tires of their car crippling their means of escape.

Alot of ifs.

And If the police had got there in time, the story would have been quite different.

He realised now that hat it was not their fault but they should have been more delligent in executing their operations.

If they had been, they would have distributed themselves to lodges and hotels. But no, they concentrated more on the hotels and motels.

Then he realised that he was squeezing Nancy's hands a little too hard in his anger against himself and the police and in fact the whole situation and he released her hands deeply remorseful.

'I am sorry my love. I did not mean to squeeze your hands too hard the way I just did.

I am just frustrated because of the helplessness and regret that I feel.

Maybe I should have allowed Richmond go away with you, at least that way, you would be alive, hale and hearty.

What did I hear you say? That that choice was not mine to make? But is this situation you are in better than being with him? Who knows he might have treated you better and I would have been happier than I am now knowing that you were at least safe.

Oh yes, it would hurt me terribly and I would even have died of jealousy but if I had a choice to chose now, I would allow him to have you. I would convince you to go with him rather than see you like this.

Tell me what victory I have gain from all these? This is no victory! It would have been a great victory if you were here to celebrate it with me but you .... Oh God! I can't take this anymore!' And he sobbed some more. His tears wetting her hands and the bed covers.