Chapter 58: Chapter 58

Chapter 58

"Kerzen, how long will I wait? Leave her."

"Okay okay."

Evve smiled as he held my husband cheek.

"Thank you, thank you for loving me. There is no limit to your love for me. You lost your memory in everything but not in me. And now you remember that I am very happy because I am still the one you love."

It was as if a snake had bitten me at what I heard. How do you do this to me Kerzen?

Why? Why?

I could hardly breathe the anger and pain I felt as I watched my husband with Evve.

Is it always like this? I always get hurt.

I turned around to relieve the pain I was feeling. I stepped forward while my tears continued to flow. The weight of my steps and my feeling I could not walk because of the pain I was feeling.

Why did I experience this? My heart is broken and I don't know how to rebuild it now. Now I will release the man I love the most. The father of my children.

This is probably my most painful decision in life to release the man you have long loved.

It was painful and heavy to release him. But it is necessary because I am slowly being destroyed.

When I got to where I parked my car I quickly got on and left that Island.

While I was on the trip my tears just kept flowing. But even so, I was driving well. I don't want anything to happen to the baby in my womb.

I breathed a sigh of relief when I arrived at our house safely. I am so thankful that I was able to drive properly even though I was hurting.

I went straight to Saber's room and I found him sleeping soundly. I first kissed his forehead before I finally went out and went straight to Kerzen and I's room.

When I got to our room it was quick to remove the jacket I was wearing. And sat on our soft bed.

I took a picture of Kerzen and me sitting on a mini table here on the side of our bed.

I watched it until my tears fell again.

"I thought you loved me? You said that because. I hope so .... the pain because no matter what I do you still can not love me .... I am so stupid in the part that I believed you .. ..I believe what you said M-You love me .... The pain .... "

"But no matter what I do, I still can't be angry with you ... because I know if it's my fault why I ended up in this situation .... I hate myself because I am so desperate as a woman, I force myself I like men like you who can't love me back ... "

I just cry the pain I feel. I'm sorry baby if I stress myself again. I just can't stop the pain I feel. So I will just cry now to alleviate the pain I feel.

I wiped away my tears when I heard the footsteps of shoes leading to the behavior of this room. I couldn't lock the room so I could hear it.

Until I see my husband's face. It looks like he was chased because he was out of breath.

He was looking into my eyes. The sadness in his eyes. But no one can beat the sadness in my eyes now.

"Which part of Evve is better than me?"I immediately ask him. I could clearly see his swallowing because my question.

"W-wife ...."

"No matter what I do, she still is. The pain! The pain! Do you know that?"

He would have stepped in when I stopped him. "Don't come near me ..."

She was stunned and she just stared at me as my tears continued to fall.

"Calm down ..."

"How? How can I calm down? You hurt me! You broke me! You are destroying me Kerzen ...."

"I'm s-sorry ..."

"I don't need your fucking sorry, Kerzen. I need your love."

My voice echoed the last word I said.

I'm so crushed ...

"I need you! We need you! I fucking love you! Even though we have Saber, and I am about to give birth, there is still nothing .... You can't love me back, why? Why?"

I could clearly see her tears falling as she looked at me. I bit my lip so hard and shook.

"Since when? When did your memory return? Did it really disappear or did you just mean it?"

He did not answer my questions. He approached again but I stopped him.

"Don't come near me? You liar!"

"Baby, I'm sorry."

"I don't need your sorry ... Keep it!"

I was never able to stop Kerzen from approaching me. He quickly hugged me and I tried to get away. I punch him in the back.

Because I was tired I did not move again. I hugged him tightly. This is the last.

"The pain you love, the pain of my heart Kerzen ..."

"I'm sorry to hurt you. I hope you forgive me. You will understand this one day."

"I understand, I understand that no matter what I do. You will never be able to love me. I am hurt because I love you so much. And I do not regret having Saber and when I was a child. I'm sorry but I can't take this pain forever."

"What do you mean?"

He let go of the hug and stared at me intently. I smiled at him bitterly.

"I love you so much, Xylem Kerzen Hidalgo. And I'll give you happiness, go to her."

As I said those words, my heart was slowly breaking with pain. The weight is released but necessary.

If there he would be happy. I will release him because I love him. I am no longer the former Quinzel who is selfish.

"I'm giving up on you," I said while smiling.

He still did not answer. He was just looking at me.

For the second time her tears flowed.

"Go to her, just follow your heart. You hurt me I will accept it."

I love you my husband. And I'm happy that somehow you became mine.

It hurts, it hurts so much for me to let go of those words. I do not know if I can handle it, but my decision is complete. If he loves Evve. I will give up.

"I love you so damn much. But I know who you really are. And I do not regret fighting you even without certainty," I told him.

He still did not answer. He was just looking at me.

I turned around to feel my tears dripping again.

"I know you still love her, I just stole you from her. She really is the first one you love! Fvck, it hurts but I want to take all the pain just to be with you."

Then when he said that, he quickly hugged me from behind.

My tears are still flowing.

I know if Evve just laughs at me because I lost. But I have no pake!

He laughed if he wanted to. The only thing that mattered to me was the man she loved.

I was happy because Kerzen let me have fun next to him. But the replacement is very painful.

Hopefully after that it will be easy for me to move on.

I promise myself that I will never again squeeze myself into a man who is loved by others.

The pain is legit. I don't want to be hurt like this.

"I do not regret that I agreed to marry you even if you do not want to. That is one of my dreams."

I let go of the hug and then faced him.

"What are you waiting for? Go to the woman you love. Saber will understand you."

I looked at him. My tears flowed again when I saw if he slowly smiled.

"Thank you, thank you."

He doesn't really love me. I smiled bitterly.

"You're always welcome. Don't worry about Saber and this baby. I will take care of them."

He nodded at what I said.

"Take care of them first until I'm gone. I'll just take care of this problem."

I frowned at him.

"What do you mean?" I will ask. He smiled.

"Take care of our children. I will be back."

"It's okay for me to be there with Evve first. I'll take care of the annulment paper."

He touched my chin. The evil stare of him.

"You can't divorce me, You are my wife. You are the only one I need No one else! Only you!"

I'm confused. I thought he was happy because I will finally release him. I am already giving her freedom e.

"And take note! You are the only woman I will love. Whatever is in your brain. Take it away! You hurt me too. You hurt me! You are giving me away to the woman I don't like!"

To be continue ...