Chapter 31: Chapter 31

Chapter 31

TWO WEEKS passed, neither shadow nor Caspian I saw, he never really saw me again.

And it turns out that I'm really a Fevrio and not Velasquez it would be better if Caspian and I can't talk now because we know that even he can't accept everything, but even if we turn the world upside down, we will bleed, and the pain.

I want to be alone, I want to drown in alcohol to forget for a while, but I know if that is not the medicine to forget.

Two weeks, he is still the one I really wonder what he is really doing in the days gone by?

I miss that man so much, I'm going crazy.

I'm going crazy, I hope there is medicine to erase all the pain I feel.

I've been drinking alcohol before and I'm a little dizzy because my eyesight is spinning, I'm with maximo and Rei.

"I'm so exhausted, I'm going insane, I miss Caspian, I'm going nuts, the fuck ..... W-why him?"

My tears started to flow, why is he still there? ... why did Caspian become my brother?

"I'm going crazy .... I'm going crazy in my mind .... I hope it's all just a dream."

I poured the remaining vodka into my glass, I was really drunk.

"You're drunk, lets go. Let's go home." Its maximo.

"Please I don't want to go home, I want to be alone ... I want to be able to get away ... B-but I want Caspian to be able to talk .."

"I'll find him for you ... please Shishi, let's go. You're drunk." Maximo said.

"You're a good friend of mine, thank you." I said.

THE next day I woke up in an unfamiliar room, I was grinning to feel my headache.

"Take this." Maximo said and handed me a glass of water with advil. "Get drunk and I won't lift you and give you medicine." He said at once irap.

"Thank you."

"Don't thank me if you repeat it first." He says.

"That last, no matter what I do, everything will not change, even if I drown in alcohol, my brother is still the man I love." I said and my tears flowed again, "I don't want to ... I can't crib so maximo." I will continue.

"Then go away, come back when you have forgotten everything first ... and accept who you are." He said,

"You won't do that," Suddenly my heart pounded, he's here .... f-for real?

I hit him looking, what the fvck, he look's shit. damn!

"You look shit!" Maximo said in shock, his eyebags were too big, his hair was messy, he looked like he had been blown up by the garnada.

"I know, I shouldn't be handsome with what I found out." He said sarcastically, my heart suddenly pounded when he looked at me, then drew a fake smile on his lips.

"H-hey my s-sister." He greeted me and seemed to tear my heart at what I heard, "Can I talk to you, before I go." He said, where is he going?

I nodded, and maximo came out, deafening silence inside the room.

And I broke that silence.

"H-how are you?" I asked, I know the answer but that came out of my pest mouth, I'm stupid.

"Do I look like happy?" He asked me and smiled falsely, "Will I be okay? Despite what I know," He said and in the tone of his speech I knew he was also hurt. "That you're my fucking sister! That bullshit! Stupid! " He laughed heartily, and bowed. "I was hurt ... k

B-because when I truly loved .... that's when my heart was torn .... I thought you were really my one. ... But you're my fucking sister, why you.... it's hurt the hell out of me ... It hurts. " He added and looked at me seriously, his two eyes were swollen and red, he was crying for pete's sake. " -why are you still there? .... I-I love you ... I hope it's different. We are happy... why did we even get to this point? if yes, it hurts. Goddamn it!"

"Caspian...."

To be continued...