Chapter 83: Chapter 83

I smiled. “She is doing well. Though I haven’t heard from her for a couple of months.’

He gave a slight frown. “But your daughter goes to her home all the time, right?’

“Most times.’ I responded. “But Carmine picks her up most of the time at her home.’

“Oh, I see,” he agreed. “But you guys are still best friends, right?’ he teased.

“We are still close, but Oceana is sort of shutting me out again, I think. I bet she still hasn’t forgiven me because of Carmine. She thinks I took advantage of Carmine’s dick and had his daughter. But I am to blame for everything.’

“Why do you keep talking about the past? It’s been five years, Jessie.’

As long as the past lives in our lives, we can never forget it.”

“They are best friends for sure,” he nodded. “Nolana and Chloe.’

“Yes, they are, and they get along so well.”

“Yeah, you are right,’ he agreed.

“Whenever I think of the past, I still feel sad and broken, Adolph. A lot of things happened on a whim and I couldn’t do anything to save Oceana from the troubles she went through. I even slept with Carmine too and had his child.’

“It wasn’t your fault. I got you drunk. That’s why you ended up in Carmine’s room that night.’

“Yeah, and he thought I was his lover. When he touched my breast, he got mad and pushed me off his crotch. But who knew his sperm would create a baby in me so quickly? Giving birth to Chloe was the best decision I have ever taken so I don't feel bad about it. Though he wanted me to get rid of the child, I just couldn’t do it. Carmine didn’t want to be a father, but I wanted to be a mom.’

“I know.” He agreed and looked at Nolana and Chloe again. “Nolana looks so much like Gerard.”

“Yeah. A carbon copy of him,’ I added. “The past will always continue to haunt us.’

“Yes, Adolph, especially me.’

“Are you still in love with Carmine?’

I couldn’t give an answer to that question. Instead, I took a tissue nearby and wiped off my eyes from the tears that were about to fall out.

I guess I’m feeling emotional again.

“To be honest, our lives are pretty complicated, Jessie. Gerard disappeared. Everyone thought he was dead. People brought his fake body to make us think he died. Which is sort of hilarious. Oceana still loves him. You are still in love with Carmine, but he loves someone else and I’m still in love with my sister, but she is with someone else as well. Guess our lives will never let us love in peace. We are quite unlucky, you know, when it involves love.’

“He still hates me, Adolph.’ I confessed. “He hates me for having his daughter.’

“You don’t have to put it to heart. He’s in love with his mate. He got himself in big shit because of you. They almost broke up. Of course, he will be mad and besides, he still cares for Chloe. If it were other alphas, they would have ABANDONED you and Chloe a long time ago and not give a fuck. But he cares so much about you because of Oceana and his daughter. Respect him and his mate didn’t want him to leave Chloe too because she is an innocent child, so you are lucky.’

“I know. I am such a mess whenever I meet you. I’m sorry, I just needed a shoulder to lean on.’ I began sobbing and Adolph came by my side and hugged me.

Consoling me to let him go.

But how can I let Carmine go when he’s the one I love so much?

He’s been my first love since I was a kid. How can I forget him so easily?

Oceana got furious when she found out I was pregnant with Chloe. She forgave me, but our relationship wasn’t the same anymore.

“How dare you have sex with my brother? Weren’t you my best friend? How could you stab me in the back? Fuck, you fucked my brother, you disgust me.’

I could recall her yelling at me five years ago, saying those words with her bloodshot eyes.

A lot has happened during these five years that we can’t get rid of the problem no matter how hard we try.

Oceana felt like I betrayed her, so I quite understand everything.

Though we still speak to each other, but not occasionally.

On the day, I heard Gerard disappeared. We put out a search party after a month of not seeing him, but we did not find him. No matter how long we searched for him, our efforts were in vain.

It devastated Oceana. She lost herself after Gerard went missing.

My parents tried helping me to solve Oceana’s case, but nothing was happening or neither were Oceana’s parents willing to help us.

They both said Gerard went for war, but deep down, we all knew why Gerard left.

It was because of them.

Oceana became shattered and almost committed suicide back then. Carmine also broke down and went drinking for days because of Gerard’s disappearance.

I was heartbroken as well. Adolph and I were not happy.

And to control ourselves, we would go drinking and play games, but little did I know I would end up in Carmine’s room.

I was drunk, and I knew what I was doing, but I couldn’t resist him when he mumbled a strange name and grabbed me.

Never in a million years did I think I would get into Carmine’s bed.

I didn’t refuse his touches, as he began kissing me all over my body.

“I love you, Star,’ he murmured, but I didn't want to think about it and accepted his demand.

I knew he was talking about someone else and not me.

He took my virginity and had his way with me, but when he got sober and realized what he had done; he slapped me so hard and told me to get out of his room.

I was ashamed.

That night I cried miserably and didn’t tell Oceana about what transpired between me and Carmine.

She was still traumatized by Gerard's disappearance and suffering from the bond.

She would cry day and night for anyone to take away her pain so she could live.

Oceana would cry for days to die and meet Gerard, but there was one thing Adolph and I did.

We called for Valarr.

Since he was the only one that could save her.

But we didn’t know he would have to bed Oceana for her to get healed and she was already pregnant with Gerard’s child.

It was the only way to save her.

To hide the pregnancy from the realms and to avoid any suspicions, she would have to get married to Kai.