Chapter 79: Chapter 79

He strolled to the dining table to join Nolana for ice cream, and soon Chloe and Damien joined them.

I stayed in the living room feeling tired from my thoughts. I didn’t want to be with Garold at the dining table.

It was exhausting looking at his face.

After what he did at the hospital, I could still feel the ache in my heart and his harsh words.

When I got up, I realised it had gotten really late and made up for the stairs to go to sleep properly on my bed.

And Garold didn’t care to wake me up, anyway.

His attitude has always been arrogant and self-centred.

I sighed and opened the door to our room in my nightgown and gently shut it behind me.

I didn’t want to wake Garold up, unless he would get furious at me for disturbing his peace.

I tiptoed to the bed and sat down on it, touching my belly for a few minutes.

I was having another child again, but will this baby survive or just die like the rest of them?

I’m deeply worried about this child. I don’t want to have another baby again if this one dies.

Nolana is okay for me and I am satisfied with only her as of now.

She is the only one for me, my joy and my happiness.

I miss you, Gerard. Where are you? I hate you, but I don’t know why my heart still craves for you.

My love. Please come back to me.

I gave an inaudible sigh, ready to lie down on my bed, when I heard his tone.

‘Aren’t you sleeping? What are you still awake for?’

I was shocked and surprised to see that he was still awake.. “Sorry, did I wake you up?’

He got up so fast from the bed and turned to me with a dark look.

“How long are you going to keep this up?” He darkly uttered.

I was thinking of the worst thing that was about to happen.

My hands were shaking and my heart was beating so fast, I could feel sweat on my body.

“Umm…what do you mean?’ I calmly asked.

He got up and forcefully pushed me away from the bed, falling to the ground in my stomach.

“Ahh…ahhh.’ I winced and tried to stand up, but my body was getting heavier by the minute.

“You think I don’t know your motive, Oceana, what do you fucking take me for?’ he yelled.

I gasped, holding my belly as I forced my body to stand up from the floor, but I knelt down to handle the pain coming from my belly.

I knew he was still mad at me as soon as he saw me tonight.

“Garold,” I whispered. “It’s not my fault. I keep losing these pregnancies. I’m trying my best. Why don’t you believe me? I have done everything to make this marriage work and to give you children, but I don’t know what else to do. I feel so heartbroken. Please believe me when I say I have nothing to do with the lives of these babies. They are my children, too.’ I cried out.

“That’s what you’ve been saying to me. Since you gave birth to Nolana, the story never changes.” He kept talking all over the place. I forced my eyes to stay open.

“You!” He came to me and bent down in front of me. “You are still thinking about Gerard, aren’t you?’

My eyes shot up.

“You are still in love with your brother. It’s so gross, makes me want to tear you limb by limb, your damn forsaken Alpha who you so much love ran away and died in the fields. And you still have feelings for a dead man who will never come back to you. How long are you going to keep this up? How do you even think Nolana will feel when she grows up and finds out her mother’s blood brother is her father? Can you imagine the horror she will go through finding out the truth? People will scorn and laugh at her because of your forbidden desires. Do you even know what’s more surprising? Nolana will commit suicide because of your devilish desires and curse you for the rest of her life,’ he yelled, and I turned to him with hot tears flowing down my cheeks.

“Don’t involve Nolana in our issues. She is my daughter and she will never do that to me. Stop bringing up Gerard anytime we are having a conversation. I had forgotten about him a long time ago. Stop talking about him, please.’

I didn’t want to talk about Gerard anymore; I have enough of his silly games. An Alpha who didn’t care If I was going to be dead doesn’t deserve to be remembered. I have silently called him all these years to come back to me, but he never did. I am all alone in this world dealing with my issues around toxic people.

“I thought you loved it whenever I brought him up. So we have issues now, huh? Look at how confident you are, being all defensive because I mentioned Nolana's name and you can’t give me a child. Do I disgust you so much you don’t want to carry my child?’

“I’m not killing these babies. I’m a living being and they are my children too, not only yours. Please stop all this and stop getting on my…”

“This will be the last time. I will say anything more if you lose this child again. You wouldn’t know what else I will end up preventing from you. Don’t push my limits.’

“I…” I paused because it stained my voice with tears. “Before we got married, Garold, you had a mistress and…”

The door shot open and there was Damien in his nightwear standing in front of the door, staring at us.

“What is it?’ Garold coldly asked.

“Umm…I needed to see Mo…I mean Oceana.’

“For what?’ he coldly went on.

“To…to read bedtime stories for me and…” he stuttered nervously, fearing to look his father in the eye and gaze at his feet instead.

“So, is that necessary for you?” he stood up properly, approaching Damien.

“Please Garold, leave him alone, don’t hurt him, he’s only a child.’

“Would you say the same if it were to be your daughter who isn’t my child or are you just pretending to care and love him?” he took out his belt from his wardrobe. “Just to please me, huh?’

“No, Garold, I’m not doing any of that. He’s just a child, you can’t beat him like that…”

“STAY OUT OF MY BUSINESS, OCEANA.’ He then wiped Damien across the head, who screamed and attempted to run away.