Chapter 31: Chapter 31

I don’t care what the realms will say, I will just make up some stories about being sick and not attending the wedding and that would have been it. I don’t care what people would say, or neither do I give a fuck.

Before the announcement of the wedding, which was a couple of three days ago, I had summoned Gérard to my chambers and begged him not to go ahead with this wedding.

“Please, I would do anything. Don’t just go ahead with the wedding, I’m begging you.” He turned deaf ears to my pleadings and left.

I knew he was done with me. His look was dark, as if someone truly finished him with me. I felt like I was some sort of nuisance; he didn’t care about my feelings; it hurt me.

I broke down in tears and the only thing I heard was “I can’t cut off this wedding, the deed has already been done”. Those were his exact words.

So, here I am listening to his wedding vows with the witch in her white wedding gown, holding his hands.

“Oceana,’ The moron Kai whispered.

Yep, the name suits him perfectly.

“Stop talking to me.” I clipped at him, leaving him no room for conversation.

Everyone loves Kai, drools over him, and that must be getting into his head. I don’t give a shit.

I don’t feel safe around him and neither do I give a fuck about what he does. I don’t love him and he is not my mate.

I don’t want to get married to such a stupid Alpha and I don’t care about how wealthy he is and how he can feed three of his generations.

I can also feed three of my generations as well. That’s how wealthy I am too, which makes me get these stupid thoughts on why my parents love him.

He has everything I need: wealth, power, the clan.

Nothing else is so special about him.

He is nothing but a jerk. I hate him and his attitude. You don't know the type of person he is and how much of a crook he can be.

I don’t know the reason he is even sitting close to me.

The wedding went on and on and on. Gerard shifted his attention to her and kissed Emily so passionately, my heart wanted to burst. The pain felt like shit. I was mad.

I clenched the flower terribly and was nearly in tears. How dare he do this to me? How could he do this after what we went through? He dared to do this to me?

How could he just be happily married without me? What was I supposed to do, get married too?

Is that what he is trying to say to me, that I should get married to Kai, give birth to children for him, was that the sort of sacrifice I am supposed to do to quench this emotion, this bond that keeps ripping me apart and flowing through my veins.

I tried shrugging it off, forcing myself to concentrate on my thoughts and put on a smile, but it wasn’t working and I didn’t know how to act anymore.

All I felt was pain and rage seeing the two of them smiling at each other like they were the best couple in the world.

Fuming with anger, I got up and threw the heavy bouquet I was holding at them.

The audience gasped at my action.

“I HATE YOU.’ I said with so much venom in my tone and ran out of the wedding hall, passing thousands of people and turning deaf ears to their gossip and the whispering.

The thought of him sleeping with her, on his wedding night, kissing and taking off her clothes, banging her and making love to her all night, moved me to tears as I ran and dispersed everything which was decorated on my body on the floor and even the beautiful pearls, my mother gave me, I ripped off the necklace from my neck and threw it to the ground.

As I almost dashed into the mansion, Jessie ran after me worriedly, and called after me.

“Oceana, stop.’ I ran.

I should have kept my emotions within. I am an Alpha, for fuck’s sake.

I looked so messed up. I stained my bare feet with dirt, and I scattered my gown all over the place. I looked like someone who had just gotten beaten for snatching someone else’s husband.

I stopped and looked at Jessie with tears in my eyes.

The pain was just too much.

“What is wrong with you? Why did you mess up your clothes, Oceana?’ She came up to me and touched my body, searching for any sort of injury to me.

“Are you injured anywhere? What’s the matter with you, and why do you look like some street-stranded beggar? Why did you do this to yourself?’

All these bunches of questions were getting on my nerves.

How will she ever understand what I’m going through? She knows nothing about what’s going on? How could she know the suffering that I’m going through, when she doesn’t know anything about it?

What kind of messed up life is this?

“Oceana, answer me.” She held my shoulders. “Talk to me. Am I not your best friend anymore? What is going on with you?” She shouted.

I couldn’t give a response. I was too shocked, tired, and numb to speak.

“Oceana, please speak to me. You’ve been taking on all this burden by yourself for a long time. Tell me what is going on. Why did you do that at the wedding ceremony in front of those thousands of people? You gotta make people talk.”

I couldn’t hold back my tears. Suddenly my heart began twisting, throbbing, like it was being hit by some hammer. I could feel blood coming up to my throat, and my eyes were wide open in agony as I held my chest with both hands.

“What is it?” Jessie asked, panicking. “Oceana,’ she yelled.

“Ahhh ah,” I screamed in pain, my knees giving away as it slammed into the rocky ground. I couldn’t take it on anymore. I gasped, and everything was spinning around me. The echoes and images of Jessie felt fuzzy.

I felt like hundreds of cement blocks were on my shoulders, pressing me to the ground. I coughed and threw up and blood spilled out of my mouth.

“Oceana, oh, my goodness.” Jessie cried out. She was about to go call someone when I held her gown and shook her head. “Don’t call anyone,’ I cried.

“Are you stupid?” She shouted. “Why can’t I call anyone you are in danger, you stupid…”

“I know, but I don’t want the attention, please,” I revealed.

She stammers angrily. Anytime Jessie is angry, she stutters with her words.