Chapter 30: Chapter 30

“Are you speaking about brotherly love, Carmine?”

“No.” He shook his head. “This is Gérard we are talking about, he doesn’t have such feelings for you, we both know for sure that you are his first love and he’s deeply in love with you.’

His words melted my heart.

I smiled, and then it hit me. ‘What am I going to do, Carmine? Does this mean I can never be with him?’ He dropped his hands and put them at their sides.

“I don’t know how to answer that. I know it’s hard, but the only thing I can tell you is that you should forget about him for the rest of your life and move on.”

My frightened eyes widened. “Move on.’ I whispered.

It was as if a bucket of iced water was poured on me.

Wasn’t he the one encouraging me a while ago? Carmine gazed at me sadly? “Life is such a cruel place, isn’t it, Oceana?”

He left.

That’s it. I ran after him and Carmine ignored me and said no word.

It devastated me.

I should move on. That’s what Carmine said to me. He wants me to move on. How dare he play with my feelings?

Did he just tell me those words that I should move on? I knew he would always be on Gerard’s side. What was I reckoning on, damn it.

What have I gotten myself into?

I wish it was a dream, but it turned out to be a nightmare instead and I was shocked. I didn’t expect this kind of action from him. I thought or maybe he was pulling out my legs and making me break whatever bond there was between Gerard and I, and truth be told, my worst fear came true.

“Gerard Daciana, will you take Emily Jones as your lawfully wedded wife, in peace and unity till death do you part?’

The priest stood before them in his black attire, his little eyeglass was on his nose as he looked between them, holding his book in his hand.

He was an old man in his fifties. His long white beard fell across his neck as he cleared his throat to put the couple in their best impressions.

I shook my head to tell him to stop this wedding, but he resisted me.

I was wearing a pink gown, holding a bouquet of white flowers, and being a bridesmaid for this woman who was getting married to him, to my mate.

I shouldn’t dress beautifully for this stupid wedding. If my mother hadn’t forced me to dress in it and I don’t want her getting suspicious about me and trying to ask questions, I can’t handle it.

My eyes were blurry with tears. I squeezed them so tightly to control myself and not burst out in tears in front of this woman. I just don’t want to see her face and my parents.

Gerard smiled, and with an instant exciting reply, he held the elegant lady’s hands. “Yes, yes, I take Emily Jones as my lawfully wedded wife. I do.”

The priest turned to the excited Emily, who was smiling like a pig lost in love. This was making me even angry.

‘Do you take Gerard Daciana as your lawfully wedded husband in peace and unity till death do you part?’

She smiled and nodded. “Yes, I accept Gerard Daciana as my lawfully wedded husband.”

“You may kiss the bride.” The priest instructed with a smile. Gerard looked over at me with a smile.

What was that look for and why was he staring over at me?

“You look beautiful in this gown.’ Kai held my hand and gave it a light squeeze.

I went still and gave him the darkest expression in the entire world.

“Hey, don’t look at me like that. Don’t you want to be in that white wedding dress and say ”I do" to me?"

“Get your hand off,” I commanded, and he took it off and looked properly at me.

“How long are you going to keep behaving like this? I am about to be your husband, for crying out loud?’

“And I am about to push you away for crying out loud, what type of body language, the signs I have been giving you that you don’t comprehend. I don’t want to be your wife, Kai, then be the Luna of the Mackenzie Clan, I don’t desire any of that but you keep forcing yourself on me and it’s becoming irritating, makes me want to barf, so stop bothering me and leave me alone.’ I snarled and grimaced at his expression.

“I know you are so cold to me because you don’t like me, if you will give me a chance then you will see I’m not the type of Alpha you think I am, don’t assume things you don’t know about me. Give me a chance before pushing me away from you.”

“You are only doing this because our parents want us to be together to make the clan powerful. Sorry to burst your fucking bubble, but I am not interested and that should tell you to leave me alone.’

“Yes, our parents want us to be together, but I like you and that’s why I want us to be together.’

“Stop talking, Kai, stop talking. It’s irritating.’ I hushed him and I could see his clenched jaw and how frustrated he must be feeling about all this.

“I don’t care about what you think of me. You are going to be my wife, Oceana.’

“In your dreams, Kai.’ I muttered, and he just chuckled.

“How long are you going to continue like this?’ he went on. “You are…”

I cut in. “As long as you leave me alone.” I snapped.

I wasn’t fucking joking.

He grabbed my arm and grinned at me. “You are quite stubborn, princess.”

‘As stubborn as I will ever be.' I whispered fiercely, trying so hard to prevent the audience from staring in our direction like some baffling wolves with no manners.

I was so angry; I didn’t expect this lunatic to be sitting beside me. I wish they did not invite him to this wedding.

The wedding was surely a grand one, filled with thousands of people from all over the clan, decorated with white ribbons, green and white flowers all over the enormous white hall. I shouldn’t have dressed for this wedding, I shouldn’t have attended despite my mother’s protests.

Gerard was doing this. He wasn’t even thinking of me, acting all lovey-dovey with his so-called wife.

Disheartenment overwhelmed me. I felt like getting up from my seat and wrecking up this wedding ceremony. You don't know how much rage I feel within me to wreck up this wedding.

I should have stayed in my room locked up with no one in it. The more I’m seeing these decorations, the more pissed I get.