Chapter 60: Chapter 60

This time there was no holding back. No, I didn’t feel selfish when I wrapped my hands around his neck to kiss him, I felt as if I was doing something right. And why should I feel guilty?

I felt my broken heart heal as his warmth covered me. His hands were large and warm on my waist and he pushed me gently back until I was resting on my elbows, raising my upper body to deepen the kiss. His mouth left mine and he kissed my cheek, my ears, my neck and my chin. As he did so chills rose on my body and I couldn’t stifle the small sigh that escaped my mouth as he continued to kiss my neck. I laid on my back and his body covered mine, one of his legs delving between my legs.

With my hands on both sides of his face, I kissed him back, his cheeks, his lips, his jaw…we both smelled like sweat after our exhaustion earlier that evening but just the aroma of him was clouding my senses. I raised my knee and lightly brush his groin surprised to find him hard. His excitement fueled mine and I realized with slight embarrassment that I was getting wet for him. I hid my face in his neck and tried to calm the heavy beat of my heart. I was nervous because of what I wanted to do.

“Hey,” he said softly, brushing my hair with his hand. “Are you okay?”

“I want you, Andre,” was voice my muffled into his throat.

He tried to lean back but I held on fast because I didn’t want him to see my red tear-stained face. I felt him smile above my head.

“We don’t have to do this,” he said gently as he bent his head to nuzzle my cheek. “I don’t love you for your body even though you are sexy as hell though, I love you because you complete me, and having you in my life makes me happy.”

I peeped up at him to see him smiling. “You are lying.”

“I would never lie to you. It was a long time before I could get you out of my head after Mainland and coming here didn’t make it any better either. It was a pain in the ass trying not to be the creep you thought me to be by coming to your balcony every night to watch you undress.”

That got me laughing and I threw my head back.

His hand curved around the left side of my face and he kissed my hair. “I love everything about you therefore I respect your decision, I respect every choice you make. I have waited this long to kiss you again, I can wait however long it takes…”

"Hmm you didn't respect my decision to stay away from each other," I teased.

He blushed, "That is one..."

I shut him up with a kiss. I wanted this and I didn’t want my fear to get in the way. Dropping my legs to the side with my knees bent up I reached between us while still kissing him and touched him through the soft material of his shorts, nervously stroking him. He jerked back and broke the kiss. His eyes were half closed with heavy lids and he held my hand away from himself with a nervous smile.

“If you do that I might cum too soon,” he laughed.

“What…”

Raising my hands to his mouth he kissed my fingers. “Just stay as you are,” he ordered then raised my hands above my head and lifted his torso off my body. Lowering his head he kissed me again and when he moved back a little he was biting his lips seductively as he held my gaze.

“Are you nervous?” I asked.

He nodded.

“So am I.”

He smiled cockily, “But only because I am afraid I’ll fail you. I have a reserve of expertise in this.”

I rolled my eyes and he laughed. “Of course you do. So how much of your sex skills have you tried on anyone here besides Siobhan?”

Just saying her name made me sad again. She was having sex with Andre and with Aaron on the side. I didn’t want to imagine her with either of them.

I lowered my gaze feeling my desire ebb away.

Andre raised my chin so that I was looking into his eyes again.

“I never had sex with Siobhan, I think she got mad about it but I couldn’t help it. I couldn’t force myself to do it, it felt unfair to her and to myself that I was thinking about you every time I kissed her and I didn’t want to go that far with her while thinking about you.”

I raised my brows in surprise.

“But I did go that far with Eva though because I was trying to forget about you. I know that doesn’t make it any better but I thought that one time with her would get you off my mind.”

His words about him and Siobhan still shocked me but I found myself pleased to know that they never had sex. It would have hurt even more if he was claiming to love me while doing the devil’s tango with her.

But…”Eva?” I asked pretending to be pissed about that.

He blushed bright red. I found it adorable that the amazing, arrogant Andre Rios could be embarrassed. “It was one time okay? I regret it though. She must have thought it meant we were a couple or something because she came again, that was the night you walked in on us and I thought, what the hell? Siobhan and I are kissing our exes goodbye, Eva counts and since I couldn’t get you out of my mind I thought, why not?”

“Siobhan and Aaron had sex that night.”

His eyes turned sad and he held me close again. “I’m so sorry about that. It must have hurt to know that all these while they did all these behind your back. Aaron is not a bad guy, he just finds it hard to make a decision and I think he does really cares about you which pisses me off.”

I laughed. “Jealous, Rios?”

“You are mine so yes I am jealous!”

I laughed. But my mind brought the betrayal back and sadness crept in again. I shook my head mentally to get rid of the thoughts and decided to do something to forget.

“So if Eva came back again are you saying you are a good lay?” I wagged my brows.

Andre puffed his chest in a show of mock pride and said, “Well she did tell Adeline how good I was so…my work speaks for itself.”

Laughter bubbled out of me and we laughed together at the absurdity of it all.

“You are such a whore,” I laughed.

He was still laughing when I touched his shoulder and slid my hands to his face again.

He sobered up slowly and his eyes dropped to my lips.

Licking my lips nervously I asked, “If I am yours do you want to be my whore and mine alone?”

“With pleasure.”

The sparks that ignited between us electrified our kiss as this time we hunger aching to be satiated we kissed like we would burn if we didn’t have each other.

I pulled my tank top up my chest and taking his right hand I spread his fingers to shape the curve of my right breast. His eyes widened as his fingers skimmed the soft lace of my bra, sending electrifying chills through my body. He squeezed nervously and I bit my bottom lip to keep from crying out as pleasure ran from my chest to my loins. It felt so good yet it wasn’t enough. I wanted more.

Kissing his red lips I pressed his hand tighter to my breast and encouraged him to squeeze harder. It felt so good. I didn’t want him to stop so I reached back to unclasp my bra and urged his hand under to touch me. His fingers closed around my nipple and he tugged at it.

I writhed under him enjoying the feeling and still wanting more.

“Touch me, Andre…please.”