Chapter 35: Chapter 35

Julia looked at her friend's puffing red eyes and felt upset.

"Rebecca, if you don't feel well! You can rest today and go tomorrow to see the doctor!" Julia looked at her with a serious expression.

"No, I'm alright! I can go!" Rebecca's voice turned weak.

"Did…Did you already make a decision?" Julia asked hesitantly while her eyes never left her face.

Rebecca looked at her with void stares and nodded.

"Yes." Her heart tightened.

"I will do ab...abortion!" Her eyes looked at her friend with bloodshot eyes.

Julia sighed with helplessness and hugged her warmly.

Rebecca's tears couldn't hold anymore. She wrapped her arms around her back tightly while continuing to sob.

"I know it's hard but you will be fine! You need to be strong!" Julia tried to console her.

"Hmmm!" Rebecca hummed between her tears.

"Do you still want to go alone?" Julia is never going to be forced Rebecca to let her go with her.

"Yes, I can go!" Rebecca responded, wiping her tears.

"Alright! But if you feel nervous just call me! I'll come!" Julia looked at her with worried eyes.

Rebecca nodded.

…...

DOCTOR CLINIC

"Hello, Miss Rebecca!"

"I hope now you are fine!" The doctor smiled warmly. After knowing she's a single mother. The doctor tried to be more gentle to her.

Rebecca both hands trembling while she tried to look calm in front of her.

She responded in a nod.

The doctor smiled.

"Miss Rebecca, your report has already come!"

The doctor took out the report from one of the drawers and put it on the table.

Yesterday when she wanted to leave, the doctor informed her that she needed to do some tests to know about the baby's details and her health.

After doing the test, the doctor told her to come the next day. She left the clinic just after that.

"Doctor, can you tell me what is written on it?" Rebecca's voice turned lower and she felt hesitant all the time.

The doctor smiled and nodded.

"You are three weeks pregnant! Miss Rebecca!"

Rebecca's eyes got tears.

"The fetish is in good shape and healthy. But you need to take care of your health now more! Your report showed you are distressing yourself which is not good for you or your baby!" The doctor reported.

Rebecca looked down at her abdomen and touched it.

The tears finally came out.

The doctor's face frowned to see her reaction.

"Miss, are you alright?" She asked in concern.

"Doctor, can I abort!" Rebecca looked at her with seriousness. But deep inside she felt a thousand needles piercing her heart.

The doctor looked at her with shock for a moment and then sighed to understand her situation. She's a single mother and this is not the first time she heard something like this as a doctor.

"Yes, you can!" The doctor sighed, feeling upset for her.

The way her hands protect her abdomen, the doctor saw it.

"But are you sure about your decision?" The doctor crossed her fingers and looked at her with seriousness.

Rebecca felt hesitant to hear her words.

Is she sure about it? But does that matter now?

She's a broken woman who is still trying to collect her own heart pieces which were injured thousands of times by her own people.

Could she handle this new responsibility?

Could she fight with this cruel society for her child?

Could she become a good mother for him/her?

These thousand questions captured her mind again. Even after fighting the whole night with her own struggle, she made this cruel decision for her child.

This decision not only killed her fetish but also killed her heart and her soul completely.

"Yes..!" She nodded while her voice turned broken.

The doctor silently looked at her then nodded in understanding.

As a doctor, all she can do is ask and give advice.

"Alright then! If this is your last decision! But as a woman, I'll advise you one thing!" The doctor looked at her with tender eyes.

Rebecca raised her eyes to meet her.

"Don't let the world be the 'judge' of your life decisions!"

"Just follow your heart and believe in yourself!"

The doctor's eyes looked at her with seriousness.

Rebecca's eyes widened to hear her words.

It seemed to her that someone had removed the fear of uneasiness lying on her thoughts.

The doctor continued.

"Miss Rebecca, in my career I saw many women taking this decision and don't feel regret but I also saw those women who strongly fought for their child against this society!" She added.

Rebecca's heart tightened while her hands clenched her dress's corner tightly.

"Don't be pressured! This is just my advice!" The doctor lightly smiled but Rebecca's eyes looked at her with mixed feelings before nodding.

"Thank you, doctor!"

The doctor nodded in her response.

"Miss Rebecca, so what is your decision about a child?" The doctor asked.

Rebecca suddenly remembered she didn't give an answer when the doctor asked if she was sure about aborting the child or not.

Rebecca took a long breath and looked at her, " Yes, I'm sure!"

Yes, still her answer is yes. Because she's not a superwoman like a doctor's example but just an ordinary woman who doesn't want her child to suffer in the future for her mistakes.

The doctor nodded and continued.

"Alright then! Let me tell you about the details!"

Rebecca hesitantly nodded while her heart was just ripping apart to think about her baby.

"Miss Rebecca, your pregnancy is just three weeks. So, you don't need to go through any major procedure for abortion!" The doctor explained while continuing.

"All you need to do is take medicine for three days and you will get bleeding. These days you can feel miserable pain in your belly but it's all because fetish will be destroyed! So, don't worry and just come for a check-up after three days!" The doctor informed every minor detail.

Rebecca heard everything with a heavy heart and then spoke up.

"I...I...understand doctor!" Her lips shook almost like she was gonna cry any moment again.