Chapter 51: Chapter 51

**Cassie’s Pov**

"How about yours?"

I decided to give him advice, although I have no idea if he has plans to have a family someday on his own.

"Derek, someday, if you will have and wish to have a family and finally become a parent, you will finally understand what I am saying here. You will learn that there is no greater happiness for a mother or a father than their child's happiness."

I can see that he is quite taken aback by what I said. But he smiled and nodded.

"I salute people like you. I have no idea how hard it is to become a parent, thus being a single mother, but I know that you are more than what you are. A strong and brave woman like you can surpass anything beyond any hardship."

I admitted a while ago that my boss is a top-tier kind of a jerk with a specialty in breaking a woman's heart, but I can also see that this man is a genuine type of person when it comes to being a friend or someone with whom there is not a romantic relationship.

I also realize that maybe, if ever, it would not be an entirely bad idea to befriend my boss. I will set a limitation, but I should stop being too hostile towards him.

We finally arrive in front of the building. I forgot that he knows where we live since he got my information.

"Thanks for giving us a ride; I hope we did not bother you so much," I said to him.

He cackled. "Nope, besides, I am the one who offered a ride... Ahm, Cassie? Your son looks fast asleep, so where is your apartment here?" He asked me while I was exiting his car.

I asked him in confusion. "Ahm, why?"

"Your son must be heavy, so can I carry him to your apartment building? I hope you do not take this badly. I also do not know why I want to carry your son. Maybe because I can see myself with him," Derek explained calmly.

"Okay, but I can't entertain you as a guest. My brothers are a few rooms away from my apartment, and they are not the friendliest type of people toward men who come near me. You can say that they have a brother's complex."

He smiled. "No problem."

He carries my son in a piggyback way. We enter the elevator, and I guide him until we reach my apartment.

"Here, this is our bedroom," I said to him while opening the door.

He gently put Charlie on the bed. He is smiling as if my son is his happiness.

"Thanks for helping me today." "This is embarrassing since you are my boss and you are doing so much favor for us."

"I am happy that I helped you. If you need anything, just ask me, and I will gladly give you a helping hand."

I nodded with a smile on my lips. "Thank you, Derek. Please be safe while driving."

"I will."

I did not manage to lead him off course.

It feels weird how he looks at my son. And I cannot help but notice that he reminded me of Kaiden. Those stares are like glances of my late husband's way of staring at our son.

And once again, the sadness engulfed my heart like a black flame. I wish I could get over this thing, but my soul is too broken.

I realize that it is a full moon now. I suddenly felt a surge of pain in my chest, as if someone was stabbing me with a sharp knife. It is so damn painful!

This is because I am in heat, but my soul recognizes me as mateless. My fated pair, with whom I should share the heat, is no longer here.

I slowly shifted into my wolf form and lay on the floor. I look out the window at the moon, wishing that I could turn back time. But all I can do is do my best as a mother for my son.

I endure the pain as much as I can. I slept with tears on my face, and I dreamed of nothing but endless pain again.

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=Derek’s POV=

I pinched the bridge of my nose while staring at nothingness. I never felt so embarrassed that Cassie happened to witness me being dumped by a woman who no longer used me.

I am not the same guy. My manhood is not functioning well, and at the same time, I am not attracted to any woman. I thought I was slowly turning gay.

But the last time I checked myself, I am not into men. I am still as straight as a ruler.

But there is someone who is an exception. I remember my new secretary. And it so happens that I am attracted to her.

I know that I am not the type of person to restrain myself.

I am someone who believes that what I want is what I get. But I cannot do it with Cassie. She is someone that I respect, and I am scared that she will be mad at me.

I have never been so pathetically head over heels for any woman before. Just Cassie; she is the only one who can do this to me.

And another thing that confuses the hell out of me is the way I can see his son. That child feels like someone I've known and loved before. That boy is my son.

Is this some damn effect of the sedative that I took before? Or is this an impact because of that damn accident?

I punched the steering wheel of my car. I bumped my head on it while sighing so deeply and glaring at nothingness.

I need to know why. I have to know why I am being like this. I cannot accept this fact! This is happening to me.

I call someone, and it is one of the best detectives in Claybourne. Only a few people know about him.

"Ray!" I greeted him.

"Mr. Big Shot, how is your recovery?" he asked me.

I smirk. "Alive and kicking, but I will not beat around the bush. I have something for you to do. As before, I will send the initial money to your bank account. Know everything about my new secretary, Cassie Anderson... A former resident on Clayland."

"Pleasure doing business then."

He hung up the phone, and I started to drive and went to the nearest club. I want to try again if I can.

But the more I try to be with another woman, the more I am slowly turning into a man who can't be attracted to any woman.

Is this some kind of joke?