Chapter 85: Chapter 85

I woke up no longer feeling the presence of my alpha. What happened? Why did he leave this way? He's still mad despite what happened between us?

I stood up pulling the sheet over my bare chest before noticing that I could make out my surroundings again. This shadow that had obstructed my vision throughout my antics with my alpha had disappeared, a sign that he was already done with me.

I felt weird thinking like that. Frankly, I would have thought that after having made love so intensely he would stay by my side and that his anger would have dissipated. But no, he still seemed so cold and distant toward me.

Not that I'm one of those people who think that sex fixes everything, that all you have to do is spread your legs and everything goes back to how it was. But I would have thought that what we did, what was said while we were doing it, would have made it all better.

I indeed lied to him and I'm still lying to him, but I don't know how to go about it, I'm tied hand and foot, I have no choice but to hide the truth from him. Shield of Rain is a banished pack and its members are hunted by every other pack in this town, it would be suicide to tell them the truth without knowing their reaction after that.

Especially considering he could be part of Soul Moon even being one of the major alphas.

I bent my knees on my chest, my heart aching, I'm in so much pain, this revenge eats at me little by little. First Elsa, Rayan, and Paméla, who despite being from this pack, I can't hate them. And now also my alpha who I suspect is part of the same pack.

I, who came with the firm intention of taking revenge on both their Alpha and the other members of the pack, if my alpha is one of them, these nice people, what should I do? I'm in a dilemma and wondering if I should just give up all this shit.

My heart aches and writhes every time I remember my alpha's tension and sadness earlier, and knowing I'd still have to lie to him about going to meet Jessy, I crave it all. I would like to kick it around and dedicate myself only to him, to show him how much I love him.

I gritted my teeth remembering my parents. It was this Soul Moon Alpha who killed my father so unfairly without allowing me to know him. He was always the one who ordered my mother's death. How can I forget that? But even if I decide to take revenge only on him not involving any other member of the pack, because in the end they will only have followed orders, it is not sure that they will not be involved in the end.

Indeed, attacking their leader means attacking them and I learned the importance that the Alpha of a pack can have for it. I learned from Elsa through Jessy what's the result of just going after Luna so Alpha, I dare not imagine.

Surely they would put me to death, even them, even him... I gritted my teeth, thinking that my alpha might come after me because I wanted to get justice against their Pack Alpha.

" Dad, Mum, what should I do?"

I heard my cell phone ring as I had to get it from my purse hidden under the pile of clothes my alpha ripped from my body. I sighed, getting up with difficulty because my alpha didn't give a damn and I walked towards the annoying noise. Who could be calling me at this hour? I scowled suspecting the culprit, Elsa's family is home, it wouldn't be Tom and my alpha, well he gives me the cold shoulder.

So it can only be Jessy. What else does he want from me? We've already seen each other today and that made me fuss with my boyfriend, not to mention that I already have the name of the Alpha of Soul Moon - Which vaguely tells me something - So why is he contacting me too early?

I picked up the call in a bad mood and he probably sensed it.

# Glad that my call puts so much balm in your heart.

" What do you want? I'm exhausted and I want to rest"

# Ah lovely... You are so cold with me it's not possible.

" Go straight to the point."

I growled as I heard a weary sigh from the other side. He couldn't know how it pissed me off, it's true I have nothing against him, well, not quite seen what happened, but this grievance has been overcome. I'm in a bad mood because my boyfriend is angry with me because of this kind of call and I know I'm taking revenge on the wrong person but I can't help it.

# Well your grandfather wants to meet you... He finally changed his mind.

This news took me a little by surprise as I didn't know what to do or say, I was lost. Mum indeed asked me to come and see him because he was going to welcome me when I would come back to him but he rejected me, and now that I have discovered that it would be risky to live at his side, he comes back to me. I don't think that's a good idea.

" For what?"

# I don't know, he's your grandfather. I don't know anything about your relationship."

I bit my lip before sighing.

# Do you agree to meet him? It will be a good opportunity to learn more about your mother and what happened 18 years ago.

It's not like my mother hasn't already told me, it was also my grandfather's fault who wanted to force her to marry a man she didn't love. Anyway, it doesn't matter, these are my mother's last wishes, and I have avoided the headset seat.

"Okay, I'll be there tomorrow…"

I didn't finish my sentence when I felt a murderous aura behind me as I turned in fear. He was my alpha in his wolf form, staring at me so intensely and fiercely that I felt all my strength leave me.

# So we say tomorrow at 2 p.m.? Sophia?

Jessy's voice echoed from the other side, making me sick as I picked up the shaky cell phone to hang up the call and turn the phone off once.

" You... You were... Still there?"

I stuttered mentally slapping myself. What was that question? As if I didn't want to.

He walked past me staring at my phone.

" Ah it's… finally... it was my boss, I told him that I would leave work early…"

Another lie.

** Are you calling your boss this late?**

" I… I had forgotten that I had errands to do tomorrow... So I decided to let him know. He reassured me that I could call him at any time if he acts off work…"

My alpha was silent for a very long time making me more than nervous, almost panicking, then he walked right through me.

** I see**

I felt weird with that answer like he had already caught me and showed me how much I disappointed him. I looked down before I heard my bedroom windows open.

" You... Are you leaving? Won't you spend the night with me?"

**No...Good night**

I reached out to hold him back but he had already jumped out of my room. I fell to my knees crying knowing he hated me now. Will he reject me as his mate? I'm afraid of losing him.