Chapter 71: Chapter 71

It wasn't much the fact that I wanted to sleep with him that made me ask such a proposal. No, what drastically decided me was the fear I felt just to imagine that he would hate me when he found out about my background.

At that moment, I wanted to convince myself that it was not possible, that I could and should trust him with everything in me. And since I couldn't test him by revealing the truth, maybe I mistakenly thought it would be best to sleep with him.

Certainly, our bodies forming one, he would know how much I care for him and I need him. That his love is crucial to me and that I can no longer live in a world where I will not have him on my side.

I know it may sound immature or even far-fetched, but right now, in my desperation, I want to feel him in every cell of my body and I want him to feel me. I want to immerse myself in him as much as I want to leave the same feeling in him. I want him to become so addicted to me that he will never think of leaving me or betraying me.

I know it sounds psychopathic like that but I'm so lost and desperate in my way of thinking that I have no other solution to cling to.

I want to be as indispensable to him as he already is in my preposterous life. I want to be able to count on him, at least, no matter the enemies and difficulties that I will certainly meet in the future. I need him to be my ally no matter the circumstances.

His love and support even when he will know the anomaly that I am, half an alfe.

My cloudy mind from all those self-absorbed and pejorative thoughts about myself was brought back to reality when I felt the sheets rustle and looking up, I thought my heart skipped a beat. My alpha had changed into human form and his naked toned and muscular body was completely offered to me in contemplation. I swallowed, feeling his warm breath on my ear as he raised his large hand to my shoulder stroking my collarbone down to my neck.

" Are you sure you want it?"

I had a hard time swallowing as his voice sent shivers of lightning intensity through my whole body. It was suave and deep, his baritone gripping and velvety as his tone told me that he was ready, yes, to agree to my request.

My body immediately heated up as I could feel frail tremors of my gnawed muscles with excitement and euphoria. I thought about my alpha's actions and the way they would surely drive me crazy.

" Yes... please... I want you."

I felt his smile on my skin as his tongue flicked over my earlobe making me moan subconsciously. I lifted my shoulder to the action feeling both cold and hot on my skin. It was intense and so electric, I got goosebumps. He ran his slender but manly fingers along my neck down to my chest exposed by the cleavage of my pajamas and lightly squeezed the top of my breasts. I bit my lip, feeling each of his gestures take me further and further into the maze of erotic pleasure he was triggering in me like a whirlwind.

He slid his hand down my body passing over my stomach before shifting onto my thigh, rubbing it lightly, like the touch of a feather, he grabbed my hand directing it to his bulging abs.

" Touch me"

My already boiling mind grew hotter at this scorching command and without hesitation, I stretched my fingers over this sexy hardness enjoying the feel under my fingers.

" What do you want from me? Tell me."

The more he spoke, the more my body became uncontrollable, impulses just waiting to be released and expressed.

My mouth was dry but at the same time, I felt like I was salivating at so much male virility. His body was to die for and just touching it made me whole. Words were useless although, at this moment, I wanted to be able to speak, to tell him how much I want him to do many things to me; that I would not dare to name. They are unmentionable but so tempting and exciting.

" Do you want me to fuck you?"

My heart was beating abnormally fast now and I felt that my reason had just been extinguished in the face of the provocative words of my alpha. I clicked my tongue several times in my mouth trying to find the use of speech so I found myself speechless. I closed my eyes before grabbing my alpha's side more roughly and pressing myself against his hot body.

" Yes... Please... Fuck me."

He smiled again before pushing me back onto the bed, straddling me. I looked up at his face wanting to catch a glimpse of his features but the dark locks of his hair hid them. However, I could see the shape of his face, it was thin but masculine, his square jaw and his expression made me imagine that he was very beautiful.

Then my gaze was drawn to something exceptionally captivating, it was his gaze, specifically that pair of beautiful, bewitching golden eyes of his staring at me as if their owner was going to devour me raw.

It was scary but it gave me incredibly strong tingling sensations in my private parts.

" Don't imagine just getting away with one round... I'm going to devour you whole and leave no crumbs."

I swallowed. That's exactly what I want.