Chapter 70: Chapter 70

I was on my bed having decided to speak clearly to my alpha. Not in quarrels but I just wanted to talk about us together. And also I felt shy to think so but I have another request for him.

Dinner ended and I quickly said good night to Elsa's family when I went back up to my room. I decided to tidy up my things a bit when the satchel I had on all day fell out. My black card was on the ground as I rushed to pick it up, then I noticed Jessy's card and my face chilled a bit.

I indeed have to call and tell him that I don't agree to follow what he has to tell me like his slave.

I intend to do as I see fit and he will not have to dictate my way of thinking. I sighed before dialing his number and waiting for him to pick up on the other side. It was a bit long. I imagine the guy was very busy and finally, he took his phone.

# Are you Sophia?

I swallowed heavily before clearing my throat.

" Yes, it's me."

# I'm glad you decided to call me quickly. There's something you need to do and...

" Listen, Jessy, I don't think I'll be of much use in your mission of revenge against Elsa. I completely understand how you feel, but I... I don't think I can."

I finished my sentence with a beating heart while waiting for Jessy's response, which was long. Then I heard a long sigh and he finally spoke.

# They managed to deceive you with their fake kindness... I understand it's normal.

" But…"

# Listen, Sophia, it doesn't matter. I don't blame you, you know how much I care for you so I forgive you...

"But what are you talking about…"

# Anyway, can we see each other tomorrow?

" Tomorrow? No, I have to go to work and…"

# Do you work with Elsa?

" No ... In short, what I mean is that I will not be available."

I couldn't and didn't want to talk to Jessy about Greg, no Greg is what I call my secret garden and the relationship I have with him must remain secret.

# Sophia, what I have to show you is of extreme importance... It has to do with the Soul Moon Alpha.

" How? What are you talking about?"

# See you tomorrow at 6 a.m. at the edge of the forest where our pack is hiding.

I pursed my lips hearing "our pack" before sighing.

" GOOD…"

I was about to hang up when Jessy spoke again.

# Don't forget Sophia, what's important to you, and don't get distracted from your goal.

He hung up as I sat with a serious face staring at the phone screen which was now dark.

I have a goal, it's true but Jessy makes me uncomfortable with the way he talks to me. I know he thinks of his parents but it seems to me that he acts far too strangely towards me.

I was deep in thought when I felt my alpha's presence on the balcony and turning, I saw him in his wolf form. It is still so majestic and these intense golden pupils.

That's all I needed as I ran towards him digging into his fur. He certainly sensed that I looked concerned as he rubbed his head against my face. It felt good to feel him soothe me the way he does and eventually, I found myself being carried on his back and led to my bed.

I sighed, finding the comfort of my bed as he sat down next to me, placing his head on my lap. I started stroking the top of his head between his ears and he closed his eyes enjoying my movements.

He also seemed preoccupied with something and it made me happy to be able to relieve him, even if it was just a little.

I don't know what's bothering him and he too must have the same thought as me but if the presence of one can appease the other, then it's a plus in our relationship.

One day, I hope we can talk with an open heart, at least on my side. In this town according to Mom, I'll be in far too much danger.

First, on the side of Mom herself, her pack is abjured and members unless being hunted down are killed ruthlessly. If they find out that I even have a connection with them, being the granddaughter of their Alpha, I will be killed.

But even worse, my father was an alfe, I could get a reprieve as a granddaughter of Shield of Rain's Alpha but as an alfe's daughter, I'll be killed on the spot.

I looked at my alpha before gritting my teeth. I wanted to cry at my dilemma when I wanted to trust him and share everything about me with him. We're meant to be together for the rest of our life, does that mean I should hide who I am from him forever? No, it's not my conception of a relationship based on love, but I'm so afraid of his reaction.

What if he rejects me? What if he kills me?

At this thought my heart ached, I don't want to lose him or have him hate me. I love him not only because he is the one chosen for me but because my heart longs for him too.

He loves me, doesn't he? He will understand I'm sure but how to be sure in the end?

Without realizing it, tears began to flow as I felt him straighten up and look at me sadly. He moaned, licking my tears away as I wiped them away, insulting me for acting like this in front of him. He will worry in vain and I don't want our moments together to be marred by these kinds of scenes.

** You're sad? Is it my fault? Is that what you wanted to talk to me about instead? I'm sorry if I did something wrong...**

I shook my head as I stroked her head.

" It does not matter, do not make such a face."

** You know... I have no excuses... Even if you were in heat, I shouldn't have taken you like this when you weren't yourself... I**

" It's true that it's embarrassing what happened because, in the end, I have no real memory. it was our first time, it was not really what I had imagined."

I heard a sad moan and saw him lower his head. I ended up chuckling as he looked up at me with big puppy dog ​​eyes. He is so adorable.

** I'm sorry**

"Well, I accept your apology on one condition."

He looked up at me, his tail starting to wag.

** I will do anything for you**

I smiled before blushing and scratching my cheek.

" I want to remember."

He tilted his head to the side, seeming not to understand.

I swallowed before clearing my throat.

" I want you to make love to me here and now."