Chapter 67: Chapter 67

" Ah Sophia, I feel like you had stomach problems for a while. You're all pale there, what's going on, I'm starting to worry there…"

I couldn't say anything, Jessy had discreetly put his number in my purse and that's not the problem. I feel like by this act, he put silent pressure on me not to forget to consider these people as my enemies. And in itself, that was something oppressive.

I put the card back in my bag deciding to keep it there because, for the moment, I don't have to call Jessy. I know I'm a little lost in my feelings and I need a far, a lantern to guide me in this winding quest for revenge.

But at the same time, I have the unpleasant feeling that Jessy wants to use me to satisfy his desire for revenge by stirring up my hatred for people who have always been very nice to me.

I know that sounds arrogant of me, but if Elsa killed his parents, he doesn't have to say that it would have been the same for me. If I had to trust everyone, I could tell him especially who my father was.

He wasn't an omega!

But even my mother knew that this information would put me in danger; so she specifically asked me to keep silent about my alfe side.

What I mean by this is that I don't want to be involved in his revenge against Elsa. I have my enemy who is the Alpha of Soul Moon and the other people around are in no way concerned.

Or at least not directly.

My mom told me, it was this man who was after us for Mom's rejection. So for Elsa or the others, I don't have to hate them just because Jessy asks me to.

Until their involvement in my misfortune is proven, I can't just hate them.

The reason why I must obtain clear and precise information which cannot be biased by my hatred, distorting reality and truth.

I sighed before looking at poor Pamela who had already lost color from worrying about me and I smiled.

"I'm fine, I promise."

" You keep reminding me but I can see that you've been all pale and worried for a while. I don't want to force your hand, you know, but it's so obvious that something is bothering you that the very fact that you say everything is fine causes concern."

It made sense. The more I tried to convince her that everything was fine by giving her that fake smile, the more fake it sounded.

I have to pull myself together and stop thinking about the things that annoy me. Above all, I must tell Jessy that I know what I have to do and that he must not impose a line of thought on me.

" It's true I don't feel it on my plate since I left the shop earlier…"

" A trouble?"

" Not at this point but…"

I sighed before tweaking my fingers.

" I think I was a little depressed that I didn't wake up next to my alpha after...you see...it was my first time and...well...You kinda see what I mean, isn't it? Besides, I'm a little ashamed but... I don't remember if we...protected ourselves…"

It wasn't really what bothered me, but it was also another subject that caught my attention. It was my first time and I only kept memories of it. Not to mention that my alpha had not stayed by my side. I felt like I had just had a one-night stand, and still not remembering the night before, I don't know if my alpha took any precautions.

It's true as mates, it would be normal for me to carry his children but I'm not ready for that, and for several reasons.

I'm too young, I have a very dangerous goal to achieve and I don't even know what he looks like.

So yes I should feel troubled... Normally.

Pamela let out a long, heartbreaking sigh before patting me on the shoulder, her gaze seemed understanding and at the same time, there was a spark of anger deep in her eyes as she shook her head.

" I understand and any woman would have had the same reaction as you. Either, it's up to you to talk to your man about it. I told you our alphas take great care of us. If he knows you're mad at him he'll do anything to make it up to you. You need to tell him that you feel wronged by his actions."

" It's that true?"

" Of course yes... It's not just a relationship between a man and a woman who will bear his cubs, no it's a relationship of trust and love. You have to be on the same wavelength to be happy together, so don't keep what's bothering you to yourself and express it to the person concerned."

I smiled before nodding as the servants came to unload the bags. I apologized to Pamela, deciding to go make a call to my alpha. It would be the first time I called him and I feel a little bit nervous not understanding why. Maybe because of what happened last night.

I swallowed before making the call, it didn't ring long before he picked up as I lost my words.

Everything I wanted to say to him was gone from my mind as my mouth went dry.

# Sweetheart …

His voice is so charming and soothing that the apprehension that first gripped me is now gone.

"I..sorry...are you busy? If so….. we can talk later…"

# Something bothering you? You're feeling good? I'm sorry about yesterday and…

" No ... I feel good it's just that ... I'm so ashamed to talk about it like that on the phone …"

I heard a chuckle from the other side and smiled.

# Do you want to talk about it tonight?

I smiled.

" It's better... Well, I guess you must be very busy, I won't hold you back... And thank you for the black card."

# No need, you deserve the best.

" Thank you... And... I love you."

# I love you too honey.

He hung up and I stood with my head down and flushed for a long time.

I'm too lucky.